Stargazing
I live on the riverside, on an island in the middle of a bigger one. I have no neighbourgs and a immense field serves as my front yard. While I was walking, I could remember myself playing in this field so many times as a little girl. In summer, it was covered by beautiful wild flowers and in winter, reflected the peaceful silence of this dormant season.
I crossed the bridge and stepped inside of the now desert residence. Not caring, as always, I dumped my things on the floor and headed for the kitchen. I half-expected my father to come inside trough the back door, his brow sweaty and his sword by his side. He would take me in his arms and kiss my cheek.
"Hello honey! Had a good day at school?"
Tears swelled up in my eyes. I whiped them and went to the living room. On the small table in front of the TV rested the symbol of my childhood, the only object that had ever fascinated me. I picked up the long, gilded scabbard and with a smooth gesture, brought its content out. The perfectly polished blade glistened in the last rays of the evening sun. On the hilt, the mysterious symbol wich secret my father always kept was almost screaming out to me. I could feel all of the emotions my father felt while he was fencing and the toughts that crossed his mind then came to me vaguely. I felt the perfectly balanced weapon in my hand. The hilt rested smoothly in my palm and I couldn't hold it back anymore. I let my eyes fill with water and my heart with the pain I had set aside before. I mourned my parents for an hour or so. Then, out of impusle and still crying, I went outside and lifted the sword horizontaly.
"See, you have to feel the tip of the sword in perfect balance with your arm. It should be effortless."
I took the stance I had practiced so often and closed my eyes, emptying my mind. With a scream, I launched forward and hit invisible ennemies over and over.
"When you charge, you musn't think about anything else but the charge itself. Both your mind and body must me balanced in the jump and in perfect harmony. Only then will the charge be effective and strong."
I was blinded by tears and hurt but I couldn't stop. My mind was a blurr. It helped to swing the sword back and forth, as if I was trying to kill a fly. The violence of my gestures eased the storm that was raging inside me and I soon fell to the ground, the sword streched on my lap. Sighing, I gazed at the stars silently. They had always brought me peace and looking at them made me feel like I had all of the anwers and that nothing was hopeless. I closed my eyes and imagined the stars, shinning only for me. I saw a blazing comet and embraced it, its perfect knowledge of the universe becoming my own. I let the light take my torn soul away...
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There she was, lying silently in the damp grass, gazing at the heavens. I had witnessed her outburst and cry with the sword and my heart had stopped beating then. Now, everything was dark and cool. I closed my eyes also and remembered the eyes she had placed upon me in the bus. They had terrified me then and enslaved me even more to her. The more she had looked at me, the more I was conviced that she was not human, but angelic or perhaps surnatural. I had to look away, the holy burn of her gaze to heavy for me to endure. And I had followed her here, to her most secret hideout, her only refuge now that she was all alone in the world. I watched her for long.
I must've fallen asleep because when I openned my eyes again, she was gone. I guessed she had to have been inside to sleep. Slowly, I walked towards the spot were she was before I had closed my eyes definetly and found the earth still warm with the presence of her body. Looking around, I saw nothing of interest and decided it was about time I left. But deep inside me, something was screaming for me to stay and that Fay was not safe in the warmth of her bed.
I noticed the open back door and stepped in, frightened by my
own boldness. the house was dark and silent and made me feel very
uneasy. I explored it until I found my angel's room. It was
desperatly empty, its emptiness filling my heart with dread. She
was gone! I couldn't say were and why but one thing was clear in
my mind, she was gone! I ran outside, calling for her but only the
moon answered my call. It was full and beautiful, its strong light
shinning almost reashuringly over me. Strangely comforted and at
peace, I left the empty house and field and went finally home, were I belonged. Fay too, had told me the moon, was were she belonged.
Note: very short ne? I didn't have much time for this chapter
and its more of a transition thing, the real story, main plot etc... is
coming in the next chapters! guess what! we won't see that
weirdo around for a very long time yeeeee! (sadly, I was guetting sick
of his character and didn't really know what to do with him in the future,
so he's on hold!)