Disclaimer- I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho
A/n- please be gentle with me and try not
to flame…this is my first YYH fanfic…it's another poem, told in my favorite
character, Hiei's POV. As usual, this
poem doesn't rhyme
Alone by Nature
Ever since I was born,
People loathed me
I'm alone by nature
The reason I don't want Yukina to know
who I am is simple
She'd never want me as her brother
I mean, who would?
Once she knew who I was,
She'd despise me like the others
People never know what I'm thinking
And I'm grateful
Yes, Kurama, Yuusuke, and Kawabura are
all good friends
But once they see what I am inside
They'd think I was just another weakling,
Afraid to fall in love
So why am I so faint when I see her?
This is wrong
This cant be right
Someone stop this nonsense
I'm alone by nature
I'm not capable of love
Or so I think
I have a tough reputation
I'm known for my cruelness
I'm renowned for my coldness
I'm famous for my insensitivity
So why…
So why am I beginning to thaw inside?
Are the frozen ice caked around my heart
finally melting?
Kurama says my eyes are beginning to
soften
No longer icy hard like they used to be
I look inside the mirror
What do I see?
I see a strange, unfamiliar face smiling
back at me
I loathe that person inside the mirror
for being happy
I'm supposed to be hard, heartless
Supposed to be
I pray night and day
Praying that someday I'd find that I was
the same
The same cold, unfeeling man I was before
My prayers went unanswered
Each day that passes
My heart feels lighter and lighter
I even manage to smile once in a while
Yuusuke says that's good,
That's good that I'm beginning to open up
Kurama smiles at me and praises me
For what? I ask
Kurama just beams and shakes his head
Kuwabara's still the same idiot
What Yukina sees in him I don't know
I long for my old self
The old, pitiless me I used to be
Life's easier without emotions
But I feel my mind begin to relax
I don't experience any more nightmares
about death
Are emotions actually softening me?
I hope not
But I think it is
A/n- I love Hiei! In a frenzy, I had collected about twenty
pictures of him off the web! Now you
know I'm crazy. Hmm, I guess that was
pretty good for my first ever Yu Yu Hakusho fanfic. What do you think? Just
type it in that pretty little box below!
Later dayz
CyberSerpent
