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Hello everyone and welcome back to Chapter three (3) of It's all for you. I know it seems like this series is never going to end but it will in the next chapter or whenever Star Glider gets to post it. This chapter has loads of AAML, and I mean loads. Be warned Gymshippers and Egoshippers! Plus all you other shippers who write faboulous stories! Keep up the Writing guys and girls! Ash's #1 Fan you better hurry up and get done with 'Heart over Head over Heel'. I'm warning you missy!
Oh yeah I have a thought about Ash's father. Yes I have a fact about Ash's father, just go to my website! But here's why Ash's father could never be Professor Oak, at least we hope. If Ash was Professor Oak's son and Gary is the Professor's grandson that would make Ash his father or his uncle. Ash could had have a child way to early or a brother that his mother popped out. But who knows with what they did to Brock's mom? Thanks to Blue9Tiger for making up such a great thought!
Rated: PG, bits of PG-13, but nothing to serious.
Type: AAML
Completed: March 19, 2001
Dedicated to: Ash's #1 Fan, Blue9Tiger, Misty, Mewberries, Star Glider 720, Sweetiepie, Trish, Wind and Legacy!
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It's all for you Chapter 3: Admitting it to Myself
I never had this feeling before,
She gives me shakes and shivers I can't ignore,
I see that there's more now than just running free.
I never felt my heart beat so fast,
I thinking of him first and of myself last,
And how happy I want him to be.
It's amazing someone in my life,
Just might be loving me,
I didn't know that I could feel this way,
It's so crazy,
Something in my life is better than a dream,
I didn't know that I could feel this way.
She's makes me warm and happy inside,
He smiles and I get dizzy and starry eyed,
All these feelings I have, have me asking,
Can this be love,
Can this be love.
It's crazy,
I can hardly speak whenever she/he says hi,
I didn't think that I could feel,
I never dreamed that I could feel,
I didn't know I could feel this way.
"Do you know why he called?" Mrs. Ketchum asked her teenage son. He slightly nodded and sighed, "Yes."
"Now tell me why you wouldn't listen to him." Mrs. Ketchum instructed.
"I don't want to talk about *it*." Ash explained as he stared at his shoes.
"Well you're going to have too." Mrs. Ketchum explained.
"Why? I don't get it. What's the big deal?" Ash asked as if he were mad at his mother.
"That's what I'm going to explain to you." Mrs. Ketchum informed.
"Mom, Misty and I aren't even...dating." Ash explained shyly.
"Well who said you weren't in the future?" Mrs. Ketchum asked.
"No one." Ash replied, "Mom, when I need you I'll talk to you. You said it yourself, I am a growing man. I should be able to take care of myself." Ash's mother looked at him in horror. Talking to her like that, but in the back of her mind she knew he was right.
"You promise me if you need anything you'll come to me?" Mrs. Ketchum asked.
"I promise." Ash agreed. A sigh of relief fell over him.
"All right honey." Mrs. Ketchum gave in, "I love you."
"I love you too." Ash replied and he hung up the phone. All of a sudden Pikachu ran up to him.
"Hey Pikachu!" Ash greeted his little Poke'mon while he softly rubbed it's back.
"Pikachu..." Pikachu cooed softly.
"Already eat breakfast?" Ash asked.
"Pi." Pikachu replied.
"Well come on with me and let me eat." Ash instructed as he set Pikachu on his shoulder.
As Ash walked into the semi-large dinning room everyone stared at him. All minds curious of what the mother-son talk was about, yet they wondered why it was so short.
"Uh.." Ash began. They all turned back to their food and began their small chatting between one another. Ash took a seat next to Misty and Pikachu went to go play with Togepi. She turned to face him and gave him a plate.
"Thanks." Ash said.
"Uh-huh." Misty replied.
"So..." Brock began, "Uh what did your mom say?"
"Why do you care?" Ash glared at Brock.
"Never mind then." Brock replied. Misty looked at the two. Sometimes she thought those two didn't like each other compared to them liking Team Rocket. For some reason this week to a turn for disaster between the two. You could almost call them rivals. They were best friends till this upcoming week, and she couldn't take it anymore.
"Guys! Grow up!" Misty interrupted. Everyone stared at her, "I've had enough of you two! All you have done is argue this past week over a dumb lousy talk!"
Brock spat out his milk in his mouth and argued, "He started it!"
"What?! I don't think so." Ash argued back.
"Well I tried to help you but no....." Brock replied.
"No what? Huh?" Ash asked with intrigue.
"You wouldn't listen!" Brock yelled. Brock got up from the table and grabbed his plate. He placed it in the sink, "Excuse me."
Am I arguing over her?
Am I protecting what I believe?
Am I denying the truth about how I feel?
But...How do I know it's real?
Is he protecting us from the outside world?
Is he just being stubborn and crazy,
But he could be telling me the words,
That always seemed so hazy.
I never thought I would feel this way,
This deep down gut thought,
For her love I'd do almost anything,
Except' get caught.
Is he scared from telling everyone?
Is he hiding in the dim light,
Is he all on his own?
Who tells our love only at night?
Why do I think these thoughts?
Because, because It's so hard to say,
But sooner or later I'll have to chose,
Before I have to lose.
I don't want to lose her/him,
But I don't want to make her/him cry,
I just want to let truth be known,
But all I can do is lie.
"I never dreamed I could feel this way." Ash explained to his Pikachu who listened carefully.
"Pikachu." Pikachu replied.
"What?" Ash asked, "I can never tell her."
"Pi, Pikachu pi, Pi-pi-pi?" Pikachu asked.
"Yeah she kissed me...twice." Ash sighed, "Why is this so hard? I'm fighting with Brock just cause I don't want to talk about it. Am I that shy? I won't even tell Misty how I feel..."
"Pikachu!" Pikachu yelled.
"I can't she might not feel the same way..." Ash began.
"Pikachu! Pika, Pikachu pi Pikachu pi pi pi Pikachu!" Pikachu explained.
"Yeah but.." Ash's voice trailed off.
"Pika!" Pikachu yelled.
"Maybe sooner or later I'll tell her." Ash sighed, "But first I got to understand it myself."
~~In Misty's room~~
"Why do I have to feel this way?" Misty asked her little Poke'mon who looked at her confusingly, "I know you don't understand but.. but maybe one day you will"
Who'd a thought I'd have these feelings for him? But he makes me feel magical and when he talks him makes the magic come to life. Maybe he is right of hiding his feelings, I mean who would' want a so-called *older brother* making sure you did everything right? God knows I wouldn't. For you I will. Such splendid words, coming from such a young heart. There must be a lot of pressure from Brock, his mom, even....me.
"Togepi I'm going to talk to Ash. Want to come?" Misty asked. Togepi nodded.
As Misty walked down the Professors hall she gazed at the windows which held within its wraths the dawning of a sunny, beautiful day. She sighed, God did she want some sort of relationship to happen between her and Ash. Maybe one day they'd finally say the words they've been longing to say to one another. Maybe one day he'll become a Poke'mon Master and he'll start to think of other things like her for example. Maybe one day all their wishes will come true, and maybe one day they'll have kids and get married. Maybe one day... one day.
Misty had never worried much about life she was a carefree girl, on a grand adventure with her two best friends, and her child. She dared to even think of them as more than best friends till the day she understood the depth of love. The day when she finally understood that she loved Ash. The day when she discovered how much he cared about someone. May it seem impossible two people whom disagree and swear they hate each join together to become one. It may seem impossible but she knew one day it had to come true. True words left unspoken for quite some time would one day be heard, around the world, around the universe and around their hearts. Two could never compare too the way Ash and Misty bonded. Maybe one day she would finally say I love you, maybe one day...
As she steeped up to Ash's door she took a deep breath and looked down to her small egg. It smiled up to her giving her the look of, 'I know you can do it mom.' This smile gave Misty the strength to knock on his door. Silence. Pure silence.
"Who is it?" Ash asked.
"It's me.. Misty." Misty replied.
"Hold on." Ash instructed as he got up and unlocked the door. He creaked the door open and stared dead lock to Misty's eyes and knew he was in love. Her eyes had already token his heart but still she gave him more, love, a reason for living, a life, everything.
"H.. Hi." Ash stuttered, "Come in."
"Thanks." Misty replied as she walked in and sat on the middle of his bed. Ash closed the door making sure to lock it and turned around to face Misty. He quickly took a seat next to her.
"Are you okay Ash?" Misty asked.
"Yeah I'm fine it's just that......." Ash's voice trailed off.
"What is it Ash?" Misty asked, "Can't you trust me?"
"It's just that Brock is making such a big deal about such a little thing." Ash explained.
Love... a little thing?
"Oh..." Misty sighed in shock after what she just heard, 'Big deal out of such a little thing.' Was love such a little thing?
"I don't mean that those... that those kisses were nothing, it's just that it's not Brock's responsibility." Ash explained.
"That's true but he's just being a friend." Misty tried to explain, "Who knows where we could be in a couple of years? He just wants to make the future easier on us."
"But who said something will happen in a couple of years?" Ash asked.
"No one, but what if something does happen?" Misty asked.
"To tell you the truth, I don't want anything to happen." Ash confessed, "No relationships, no love nothing."
Misty looked at him heart broken, a tear came from her right eye. Was this whole thought of the two getting together begging to go down the drain? Misty stood up and walked out of the room. Ash stood clueless and never got to finish his sentence, 'Because if I do start a relationship with you I want to be able to spend every minute with you. Not to let Poke'mon interfere.' Ash sighed, the words just came too late.
As for Misty, she was depressed, scared, and alone. She lay there flat on her bed weeping about what Ash had said, 'To tell you the truth, I don't want anything to happen, No relationships, no love nothing.'
Was is true? Did Ash feel nothing for the girl who felt so much for him?
Misty had gone throughout the day as did Ash not speaking to anyone, ignoring all human and Poke'mon contact. Living off what they had in their rooms. Even Pikachu's many times of begging and pleading to come out.
Mirror, Mirror don't lie to me,
Why don't I like the girl I see,
The girl I see standing in front of me,
Why don't I think before I speak,
I should have listened to that voice inside of me,
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind,
To say the kind of things I said last night,
Mirror, Mirror hanging on the wall,
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all,
Mirror, Mirror I wish you could lie to me,
and bring my baby back to me,
Why did I let myself walk away?
When all I had to was to say was I'm sorry.
I let my pride get in my way,
Here in the moment I was to blame,
I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind,
Now in the cold in the day I realize,
Mirror, Mirror hanging on the wall,
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all,
Mirror, Mirror I wish you could lie to me,
and bring my baby back to me,
If only wishes could be dreams, and all my dreams could come true,
There would be here two of us here standing in front of you,
If you could show me that someone I use to be,
Bring back my baby, bring back my baby.
Mirror, Mirror hanging on the wall,
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all,
Mirror, Mirror I wish you could lie to me,
and bring my baby back,
Bring my baby back.
Mirror, Mirror hanging on the wall,
You don't have to tell me who's the biggest fool of all,
Mirror, Mirror I wish you could lie to me,
and bring my baby back,
Bring my baby back.
To me...
Mirror, mirror don't lie to me,
Show me what you want to see,
To me,
Mirror, mirror.
~~About 10 o' clock that night~~
Ash could hardly stand ignoring everyone even Brock. The outside world, created for humans and Poke'mon alike. But was the outside world ready to handle his feelings and emotions? No. Or maybe? No it could never work. Or maybe it would. Ash wanted so much to tell Misty how sorry he was, but would she even listen to his everlasting words?
"I got to go get Misty back!" Ash suddenly said to his empty room, "And no one's going to stop me!"
Ash unlocked the door and creeped outside. It was dark and spooky. The moon's glow made Ash shiver upon every step. He knew he had to make up with Misty. He just had to. God Misty had done so much for him. Save his life, kept him straight, helped him through his journey in the Poke'mon world and in his own world. He walked down to Misty's room and slowly opened the door. He peeked inside to see Misty on her bed, still weeping. She turned and looked at Ash. A sour look came upon Misty's face. It told Ash to leave but all he wanted, all he wanted was Misty back. He took two more steps inside and walked up to her. She was in a huddle with the covers on her legs. He sat down on the other end of the bed and there was silence.
"I'm sorry." Ash confessed.
"Why should I forgive you?" Misty asked.
"You never let me finish my sentence.." Ash explained.
"What does it matter anymore?" Misty asked.
"I just want to say.." Ash's voice tailed off, "Because if I do start a relationship with you I want to be able to spend every minute with you. Not to let Poke'mon interfere." Misty was touched at the words but she just couldn't except it.
"Do you think that's going to make me go fall in love with you?" Misty asked, "Is that what you want?"
"No." Ash shook his head.
"Then what? huh? No apology is going to get rid of the pain you put me through." Misty explained, "So what do you want?"
"I just wanted my friend back." Ash confessed. Misty was shocked at his gentle words. She was wrong, she still loved this, this boy. His gentle words would stay forever in her heart, the only problem seems to be, and will he love her?
"Oh Ash... I'm sorry." Misty begged for forgiveness.
"It's alright, I understand that you don't want me in your life." Ash replied, "Goodbye Misty."
"Ash where are you going?" Misty asked with concern in her voice.
"Somewhere where you don't have to deal with me." Ash explained. He stood up and began to walk out the door.
A love wasted away, left for the dead. Why was a love so strong, so valued that meant so much, leaving just now?
"Ash... can I just tell you one thing?" Misty asked.
"What? Make it quick." Ash ordered.
"I love you." Misty confessed. All her emotions left her heart and waited for an answer. Ash turned and looked at her. She know knew she cared the same way he cared about her.
"You do?" Ash asked in disbelief.
"Yes Ash I do. I love you." Misty repeated. Ash turned around and walked back over to Misty. He stared deep down into Misty's loving eyes. He turned back around, and walked the other way. This left Misty in shock.
"There's a problem." Ash explained looking down to the floor.
Misty knew what was coming. She wouldn't blame him. She could just picture the words coming out of his mouth, 'I don't love you.'
"Misty Kasumi Ketchum doesn't sound good, I think Misty Satoshi Ketchum sounds better." Ash explained as he turned around and gave Misty a loving smile. Misty jumped up and ran to him. Ash expecting nothing more than a hug got a full on kiss. He fluttered his eyes closed and fell into this world called, 'love'. This world was amazing, even her breath smelt good. Must be that new toothpaste Ash thought. They soon began to use their arms, wrapping around one another felt rather good, even Ash thought so. I guess this isn't going to be that bad, I wonder what else comes with having a girlfriend... Ash thought, A love of my life.
As their world began to end, Misty fluttered her eyes open and stared into Ash's eyes. She gave out a soft sigh and took his hand and led him to the bed. Misty gave out a yawn and hopefully Ash was smart enough what it meant.
"You tired?" Ash asked.
Figures, Misty thought, " Yeah sort of."
"Me too." Ash yawned, "Come on get under the covers." Misty did as told and Ash soon followed behind her. He got into a comfortable position and Misty rested her head against Ash's head.
"Can I ask you a question?" Misty asked.
"Mhhhmmmm...." Ash replied.
"What's wrong with Kasumi?" Misty asked.
"Nothing really, I just wanted to make you nervous." Ash explained. Misty gave him a smile then playfully nudged his right arm.
"So what do you think Brock will say now?" Misty asked.
"Who knows, who cares?" Ash explained, "All I know is I'm happy."
"Me too.." Misty yawned and began to flutter her eyes close. With that Ash bent down and kissed her head. With a quick sigh Ash fell into *their* dream world.
Was it right for a young man and a young lady to fall in love so early in their lives? Or was it trust, something deep down that made them believe---no, made them *know* they would spend the rest of their lives together? But as these two young ones become one in this world, they become stronger, not only physical but mentally. Someone you can lean your back on when you need it, a shoulder to cry on, a best friend. As their world turned, their hearts now turned with it.
As the morning dawned the sun gently rose and spread it's flames of heat and warmth through the open windows. It peeked through the window and shined upon Ash and Misty. The glass reflected it so it hit them dead center in the eyes. Ash rose up softly trying not to wake up Misty. He stretched his arms and yawned quietly. He stood up and looked down to his best friend. He pulled the covers on the floor to her and wrapped them around her. She snuggled into the warmth of the covers and hid her face underneath them.
Ash walked over to the window and looked outside. For some reason, a word he never thought he say suddenly felt right to say. It's so romantic Ash thought. He opened the window and felt the mornings-chill swift across his face. Why hadn't he ever woken up this early before to enjoy the sunrise? Who knows? But now he has a reason to do so, Misty.
Misty could feel the chill run down her spine and slowly arose from her laying position. She rubbed her eyes and looked around for Ash. In front of her eyes he stood looking outside. She smiled and quietly got up from the bed and creped her way to Ash. The sound of the floorboard startled Ash, but he knew who is was, Misty of coarse. As soon as she came by, she thought he didn't know she was behind him. Ash turned around and said, "Good morning."
"I thought you didn't hear me." Misty explained.
"I'm not that dense.." Ash replied.
"I never said you were." Misty sighed, "It's beautiful isn't it?"
"So beautiful that we should stay up here all day." Ash replied.
"No, I know you want to get away from Brock." Misty explained, "How about I go talk to him first?"
"Please." Ash replied.
"I'll go in a few minutes." Misty explained, "I want to see the sun rise... with you."
The two sat on the mini sofa that Ash had moved to face the early morning's sun. The looked outside as the Pidgey and Spearow flew around the sun's morning dawn.
I never thought I could feel this way, this way. It's amazing someone in my life might just be loving me. This is way better than a dream, It's real life. Ash thought to himself as the sun rose up high.
I never felt my heart beat so fast, It's so crazy. I never thought I would feel this way, He smiles and I get dizzy and starry eyed. Misty thought.
"I didn't know I could.." Ash's voice trailed off.
"I never dreamed I would..." Misty added.
"I never thought I could feel this way." Ash and Misty replied together. They both looked at each other and laughed, "You read my mind Ash."
"You read mine." Ash replied.
"We read each other's." Misty counter attacked.
"Perfect." Ash sighed, "You going to talk to Brock?"
"Yeah, yeah, I'm going Mr. Poke'mon Master." Misty sighed, "I'll be right back."
"You better be back!" Ash yelled as she walked out the door. As she did Pikachu and Togepi came running inside, "Togepi I thought you were in here last night."
"Togepi! Togi!" Togepi replied.
"Oh.." Ash trailed off. What the hell did that egg just say? Ash thought.
"Pikachu!" Pikachu cheered.
"Huh?" Ash asked, "I really do need a Poke'mon guide."
"Piakchu, pi, pi, Pikachu." Pikachu explained.
"Yeah whatever." Ash sighed, "I'm going to hit the shower, tell Misty when she comes back up that I'll be out in a minute." Both Poke'mon nodded to him and walked over to the window.
~~On Misty's side~~
"So have you talked to Ash?" Brock asked as he passed her a plate of pancakes. She had not yet started to talk with Brock about uh.. their situation.
"Uh.. a little more than talk..." Misty stuttered.
"Spill it." Brock ordered.
"No." Misty replied with a stern face.
"What?" Brock asked, "What did you say?"
"I said it perfectly clear, No!" Misty replied.
"I'll leave you two alone now." Professor Bella explained as she walked into the main hall.
"I have a right to know." Brock demanded.
"No you don't!" Ash yelled as he walked down the stairs. Misty felt a strange urge to go and kiss him. For he was dressed in a robe and his hair was now neatly combed and had a wet touch to it.
"Ash?" Brock asked.
"That's my name." Ash replied, "It's none of your business what Misty and me do."
"He's right!" Misty added.
"I am traveling with you two, I have a right to know what you two do behind my back." Brock explained, "You don't want to lose a friend do you?"
Ash and Misty were silent. Brock gave them a stern, determined look.
"I don't want to lose a friend, but I don't want to lose my best friend, Misty." Ash explained.
"So our friendship has meant nothing?" Brock cocked an eyebrow.
"It has meant so much but were you there when I almost life? Did you save my life? Did you help me when you were flirting with girls? Were you really a friend?" Ash asked. Brock looked at him in shock.
"Only Misty did that for me. She chose me over Danny, but you chose Professor Ivy. She saved my life, you saved a yourself. You were a friend but you could never replace Misty's spot in my heart, never." Ash explained, "And I think it's very perverted of you t want to know what Misty and I do." Misty walked up to him and stood besides him, "Ash just wants privacy, he's only a boy. I'm sure you don't want to talk about such subjects with him. Do you?"
"No.. no." Brock replied.
"If you leave the subject to be.. were friends." Ash offered, "If not, I don't know."
"I guess...." Brock's voice trailed off.
End of Chapter three. I'm so sorry this chapter is shorter than chapters two and three but in March it's hard to type with all these tests. Lets just hope Star Glider got to post this fast enough for you. Please review. I really enjoy reviews. One more part to come, hopefully out whenever Star Glider gets to it. Also Blue here's a notice: I finished Les Miserables!
Au Revior,
Sabrina the Teenage Witch
Love you all