AN: A transference of letters between Sirius and his Mum. The song is "Walk on" by U2, my fav group. The lyrics are show in red, dialogue in bold, and letter as normal. read on! and please review.
Jan. 18, 1991
Dear Sirius- They took my son away from me you know. They never asked me if I would be able to take it. After all the fighting I did for the Order of Phoenix with you. And then they took you away, without the kindness of a trial. How much can I say in one letter? one measly letter for every year. That's not enough. Dear god, what you must do for a letter. My sickness has gotten worse since you know. Because of Heartache. I've got nothing left to live for.
And love is not the easy thing
the only baggage you can bring
and love is not the easy thing
its all that you can't leave behind
Sometime in the cold winter of 1991
Dear Mum- Dear god, I miss you so much. I'm sorry for everything I did. But I never betrayed them mum. Never give up. Never stop fighting. I'll get out of here one day. Stay strong. Don't let the cancer get you mum. I love you.
P.S. you get a letter in exchange for a weeks food. They read them to us of course, so you can't tell me how to escape or anything. God, I don't recognize my own penmanship. Don't give up on me Mum, don't give up on yourself.
And if the darkness is to keep us apart
and if the daylight feels like it's a long way off
and if your glass heart should crack
and for a second you turn back
oh no, be strong
Walk on, Walk on
What you got they can't deny it
Can't sell it, can't buy it
Walk on Walk on
Stay safe tonight
March 21, 1992
Dear Sirius- You tell me to be strong, but what's the point? I've got nothing. You'll never get out. Get used to it. Go crazy in peace. Spare my heart the torment of thinking maybe this will be that day they free you. I've stopped the chemotherapy. I have no one left to live for. I'd be happier with my friends in Heaven. If there is such a place. I've given up Sirius. Why did you have to go and do this to me?
And I know it aches
and you heart it breaks
and you can only take so much
Walk on
Late 1992
Dear Mum- Don't say such things. I'll get out. Get back on your medicines. I need you mum. I need someone to believe in me. I hope you still do. I love you mum. Please say you love me?
Home..... I can't say where it is but I know I'm going home
That's where the Hurt is
June 15, 1993
Dear Sirius- I don't know if I know what love is anymore. Good-bye.
"What? Good-bye?" crocked Sirius, after the guard had read him his letter. That was the day Fudge came for his annual inspection. And Sirius saw it. On the obituaries page.
Mrs. Virgo Black.
June 16, 1993
Died at age 63
Breast Cancer
No living family
Private funeral
"I asked you not to forget me mum. How could you do this to me?" Then and there, Sirius vowed to get out, to rescue anyone he might have left, so they never would have to die alone. And he'd start... with Harry.
All that you fashion
all that you make
all that you build
all that you break
all that you measure
all that you steal
All that you can't leave behind
