~CoNvIcTiOnS~
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Sirius hadn't felt this bad in ages. He had tried so hard to wipe that memory from his head completely... he had nearly succeeded. Sirius sat in the cave long into the night, just staring. Staring at the wall like he used to at Azkaban.
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Remus sat up in bed. Ah, a new day. Maybe I'll go visit Fi and Maddy. I haven't seen them since Sunday. He got up and got dressed. He did a few chores around the house; ate; then got some floo powder.
When he arrived at Maddy's place, she was still in bed. She wasn't sleeping so Remus decided to get her up.
"Maddy!" he yelled as he walked into her room. She glanced at him and pulled the covers over her head.
"Go 'way" she said drowsily. She had gotten very little sleep last night.
"Oh, come on! I'm inviting you and Fi to go... err... someplace!"
"What place?"
"I'll tell you when I decide where."
She grinned slightly and sat up. Her hair was flying everywhere and was falling into her face. Remus raised a brow.
"Well, I'll go alert Fi. Where shall we go?"
"How about if we just go to Hogsmeade and talk." She said with a bit of hopefulness that made Remus suspicious.
"Ok... I'll go. You get dressed and meet us at the usual spot." He said with a slight grin.
The usual spot. Haha, I don't want to know what you're going to do Remus. You haven't lost your fun streak at all. You just hid it.
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"Never let the opinion of others keep you
from doing what's right. Have the courage
to stand up for your beliefs even in the
Face of criticism."
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When Maddy met Fi and Remus by Zonkos they were laughing quite hard at the antics of a small boy standing on the other side of the store. They wouldn't tell Maddy, of course, what exactly he had done to make them laugh so hard, so Maddy just forgot about it.
They had a great time. Fi noticed Maddy's eyes lingering on the cave entrance. Remus caught that too.
"What are you looking at, Maddy?"
She turned to him quickly and shook her head. "Oh nothing."
Remus looked at her suspiciously then continued the conversation.
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The temperature had dropped nearly twenty degrees yet Sirius stayed in the cave. Winter was nearing but Sirius wanted to stay there... near everyone he cares about.
He coughed loudly. When he got over the coughing fit he peeked out into Hogsmeade. The streets were deserted for the nighttime except for a few teens hidden in the alleys doing who-knows-what.
His eyes skimmed over the few adults who were walking around, suddenly his eyes stopped on a pair of brilliant violet colored eyes. He stared. She stared back, and then began to make her way towards him. He pulled back and sat at the back of the cave, in a dark corner.
It took her a bit to get up to the area, as in the dark it's hard to travel up a steep hill through prickers and brush. When she made it in, Sirius had gotten into another coughing fit. She came in and sat beside him while he coughed so hard his eyes watered. When he finally gained control he stared at the ground. Whenever she was around his mood hardened.
"Sirius, I didn't mean what I said when you first got into Azkaban. I thought you were guilty but I was wrong, I don't hate you. As a matter of fact I don't hate you one little bit."
He still stared at the ground. He felt a lump in his throat. She had no idea what was wrong. No idea. Though that did help a little...
She suddenly reached over and hugged him. She had started crying. He jumped slightly from the suddenness of it but then tried to comfort her.
"I'm sorry..."
"For what?" she snapped looking up to him, her face blotched from tears.
His face-hardened. He stood up and walked to the other side of the cave. She noticed that his limp shone while he walked now.
"I'm sorry for everything have caused. All the crap that ruined everyone's lives. I'm sorry for leaving Remus alone. I'm sorry for causing you such pain. I'm sorry for making Fi be so mad at me. I'm sorry for what I did to Lily and James..."
"You didn't do anything to them!" She yelled, as she stood up to face him.
"Yes I did! Don't you understand? If I had just stopped thinking about only myself for a change I would have stayed their secret keeper and..." he started but was cut off by Maddy
"...And then they would have come after you till you told them! Either way it would end this way somehow!"
"BUT THEN I WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN SUCH A FUCKING WIMP AND HAVE TO LIVE WITH IT!"
His bad leg gave out and he collapsed. He lifted the edge of the robes enough to show Maddy his knee. It was horrible. A large chunk of meat was missing from it and it looked infected. His face was filled with rage. Suddenly she felt very scared. She had Fi had talked about Sirius and his temper. They decided it was best to avoid it... too late to think about that now...
"Look at that... see that Maddy? Do you know how I got that? Huh? Do you?"
"N-no..." she said nervously. His eyes widened a crazy look to them. Maybe Azkaban affected him more than we thought.
"I did it. I deserved it. I knew there was something odd about Peter... I shouldn't have trusted him..."
She sat back down and buried her face in her knees. I love you Sirius! Why are you doing this? It isn't your fault!
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Fi came out of the fireplace, and shook Remus awake.
"Wahh?"
He said still half asleep. She rolled her eyes and kept shaking him.
"A'right, I'm up, I'm up. What do you want?" He asked a little more bitterly than he meant to. HE wasn't a morning person and since the full moon was in a few days, that didn't help either.
"Well, I want to show you something."
Fi led Remus to Maddy's house. Lying on the couch, was Sirius. HE was looking rather feverish and Maddy was sitting on a chair. She glanced up at Remus.
"Hello. Fi, why did you bring him here? You could have told me first that I was going to have more company than you and Sirius."
Remus looked at Sirius. He frowned.
"Was he in the cave in this weather?" He asked looking outside to the newly fallen snow.
"Yes. I saw him when I went on a nighttime stroll so I went in. Not too pleasant. Lost his temper."
Fi stared at her.
"What happened?"
"Nothing. I calmed him down."
"Good thing. I haven't seen it, but I hear he can get pretty vicious."
"Dog thing." Remus said plainly.
"He's pretty sick. Coughs so bad he can't take a breath and his eyes water. It almost looks like he's crying! I gave him some potion to help that but it might wear off soon. Remus, you know good healing stuff don't you? His leg is pretty badly mangled..."
Remus took a look at it and put on a face of disgust.
"What happened?"
"I don't know exactly..."
"Who did it to him?"
"He did."
"WHAT? He did that to himself?"
Maddy nodded.
Remus remained quiet as he went home to grab something, and worked to heal Sirius' leg while Sirius slept.... If he woke up he wouldn't let anyone near him.
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I know I know its short, I'm sorry. I'll do better next time.
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Sirius hadn't felt this bad in ages. He had tried so hard to wipe that memory from his head completely... he had nearly succeeded. Sirius sat in the cave long into the night, just staring. Staring at the wall like he used to at Azkaban.
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Remus sat up in bed. Ah, a new day. Maybe I'll go visit Fi and Maddy. I haven't seen them since Sunday. He got up and got dressed. He did a few chores around the house; ate; then got some floo powder.
When he arrived at Maddy's place, she was still in bed. She wasn't sleeping so Remus decided to get her up.
"Maddy!" he yelled as he walked into her room. She glanced at him and pulled the covers over her head.
"Go 'way" she said drowsily. She had gotten very little sleep last night.
"Oh, come on! I'm inviting you and Fi to go... err... someplace!"
"What place?"
"I'll tell you when I decide where."
She grinned slightly and sat up. Her hair was flying everywhere and was falling into her face. Remus raised a brow.
"Well, I'll go alert Fi. Where shall we go?"
"How about if we just go to Hogsmeade and talk." She said with a bit of hopefulness that made Remus suspicious.
"Ok... I'll go. You get dressed and meet us at the usual spot." He said with a slight grin.
The usual spot. Haha, I don't want to know what you're going to do Remus. You haven't lost your fun streak at all. You just hid it.
~-~
"Never let the opinion of others keep you
from doing what's right. Have the courage
to stand up for your beliefs even in the
Face of criticism."
~-~
When Maddy met Fi and Remus by Zonkos they were laughing quite hard at the antics of a small boy standing on the other side of the store. They wouldn't tell Maddy, of course, what exactly he had done to make them laugh so hard, so Maddy just forgot about it.
They had a great time. Fi noticed Maddy's eyes lingering on the cave entrance. Remus caught that too.
"What are you looking at, Maddy?"
She turned to him quickly and shook her head. "Oh nothing."
Remus looked at her suspiciously then continued the conversation.
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The temperature had dropped nearly twenty degrees yet Sirius stayed in the cave. Winter was nearing but Sirius wanted to stay there... near everyone he cares about.
He coughed loudly. When he got over the coughing fit he peeked out into Hogsmeade. The streets were deserted for the nighttime except for a few teens hidden in the alleys doing who-knows-what.
His eyes skimmed over the few adults who were walking around, suddenly his eyes stopped on a pair of brilliant violet colored eyes. He stared. She stared back, and then began to make her way towards him. He pulled back and sat at the back of the cave, in a dark corner.
It took her a bit to get up to the area, as in the dark it's hard to travel up a steep hill through prickers and brush. When she made it in, Sirius had gotten into another coughing fit. She came in and sat beside him while he coughed so hard his eyes watered. When he finally gained control he stared at the ground. Whenever she was around his mood hardened.
"Sirius, I didn't mean what I said when you first got into Azkaban. I thought you were guilty but I was wrong, I don't hate you. As a matter of fact I don't hate you one little bit."
He still stared at the ground. He felt a lump in his throat. She had no idea what was wrong. No idea. Though that did help a little...
She suddenly reached over and hugged him. She had started crying. He jumped slightly from the suddenness of it but then tried to comfort her.
"I'm sorry..."
"For what?" she snapped looking up to him, her face blotched from tears.
His face-hardened. He stood up and walked to the other side of the cave. She noticed that his limp shone while he walked now.
"I'm sorry for everything have caused. All the crap that ruined everyone's lives. I'm sorry for leaving Remus alone. I'm sorry for causing you such pain. I'm sorry for making Fi be so mad at me. I'm sorry for what I did to Lily and James..."
"You didn't do anything to them!" She yelled, as she stood up to face him.
"Yes I did! Don't you understand? If I had just stopped thinking about only myself for a change I would have stayed their secret keeper and..." he started but was cut off by Maddy
"...And then they would have come after you till you told them! Either way it would end this way somehow!"
"BUT THEN I WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN SUCH A FUCKING WIMP AND HAVE TO LIVE WITH IT!"
His bad leg gave out and he collapsed. He lifted the edge of the robes enough to show Maddy his knee. It was horrible. A large chunk of meat was missing from it and it looked infected. His face was filled with rage. Suddenly she felt very scared. She had Fi had talked about Sirius and his temper. They decided it was best to avoid it... too late to think about that now...
"Look at that... see that Maddy? Do you know how I got that? Huh? Do you?"
"N-no..." she said nervously. His eyes widened a crazy look to them. Maybe Azkaban affected him more than we thought.
"I did it. I deserved it. I knew there was something odd about Peter... I shouldn't have trusted him..."
She sat back down and buried her face in her knees. I love you Sirius! Why are you doing this? It isn't your fault!
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Fi came out of the fireplace, and shook Remus awake.
"Wahh?"
He said still half asleep. She rolled her eyes and kept shaking him.
"A'right, I'm up, I'm up. What do you want?" He asked a little more bitterly than he meant to. HE wasn't a morning person and since the full moon was in a few days, that didn't help either.
"Well, I want to show you something."
Fi led Remus to Maddy's house. Lying on the couch, was Sirius. HE was looking rather feverish and Maddy was sitting on a chair. She glanced up at Remus.
"Hello. Fi, why did you bring him here? You could have told me first that I was going to have more company than you and Sirius."
Remus looked at Sirius. He frowned.
"Was he in the cave in this weather?" He asked looking outside to the newly fallen snow.
"Yes. I saw him when I went on a nighttime stroll so I went in. Not too pleasant. Lost his temper."
Fi stared at her.
"What happened?"
"Nothing. I calmed him down."
"Good thing. I haven't seen it, but I hear he can get pretty vicious."
"Dog thing." Remus said plainly.
"He's pretty sick. Coughs so bad he can't take a breath and his eyes water. It almost looks like he's crying! I gave him some potion to help that but it might wear off soon. Remus, you know good healing stuff don't you? His leg is pretty badly mangled..."
Remus took a look at it and put on a face of disgust.
"What happened?"
"I don't know exactly..."
"Who did it to him?"
"He did."
"WHAT? He did that to himself?"
Maddy nodded.
Remus remained quiet as he went home to grab something, and worked to heal Sirius' leg while Sirius slept.... If he woke up he wouldn't let anyone near him.
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I know I know its short, I'm sorry. I'll do better next time.