Depression
Part5
When Quatre fell into a deep sleep Wufei left he was pissed his target Trowa. Wufei walked into the living room and saw Trowa talking with Duo. Duo recognized that look and backed away just in time as Wufei punched Trowa in the jaw. A confused Trowa pushed him back.
"What's your problem?" yelled Trowa.
"Quit playing games with him." Wufei demanded.
"What?" What the hell? "You say you love him then why the hell are you with Heero? He saw you kissing him."
"He saw us?" Trowa tuned Wufei out and went into Quatre's bedroom.
Trowa watched Quatre sleep and then gently shook him awake. Quatre woke up and sat up as Trowa tried to find the words. "Quatre I always thought that I wasn't enough. I don't know how to... I love my sister and I didn't want to lose her then. I had found my family I... I'm sorry... I was with Heero for a night for comfort only we both just needed someone. I hurt so bad everyday that we were separated and I've never stopped loving you. Not ever. What I'm trying to say is I hope that someday you'll forgive me and that we can at least be friends I've missed you so much."
As Trowa began to leave. Quatre spoke up softly . "I do forgive you Trowa. I just don't have anything to give right now I don't know if I ever will. That's all I can offer right now."
"It's more than enough. It's a start."
After Trowa left the room Quatre got up. He heard Wufei and Duo leave it was pretty late. He waited until he heard Trowa go to his room then he decided to go for a walk.
Quatre walked on the wet grass still only dressed in a white T-shirt and boxes. The ground was freezing against his bare feet yet he continued to walk. When he reached the woods he felt a little lightheaded and his feet began to bleed from walking on some broken glass.
Quatre reached a clearing and fell to his knees and began to shout and yell out all of his emotions. He attacked the ground with his fists over and over. Trowa had heard him leave and followed from a distance.
Trowa went to him and wrapped his arms around Quatre. At first Quatre struggled but then he returned the embrace and cried his heart out. Trowa picked up his love and carried back to the cabin.
Quatre stared at the ceiling not saying a word. He just stared. Trowa had just finished cleaning Quatre's wounds and was now bandaging them. Trowa had never been so scared in his life his anger was so great. He wanted to kill Quatre's father but the bastard was already dead.
Trowa was on for silence but Quatre's silence disturbed him greatly. Quatre was always so happy and cheerful always putting others ahead of him self. The best friend and companion a person could have. Quatre's love was something he could always treasure. He brought Trowa out of his self hatred and taught him how to love.
Trowa watched Quatre and then covered him up. Quatre grabbed Trowa's arm but not in a hurtful manner. Quatre looked at Trowa with his hurt eyes. "I love you Quatre."
"I love you too but.." Quatre stopped.
"But what. You can tell me."
"I'm afraid. I'm alone and I'm afraid." Trowa pulled Quatre into a hug and Quatre reluctant at first returned it.
"You're not alone I'm right here." Quatre pulled Trowa in bed and let him hold him.
Trowa gently kissed Quatre on the lips and as he started to pull away Quatre pulled him back and deepened the kiss. Quatre smiled he was once again in the arms of his love. He lessened the hurt a little to know Trowa was with him but the fear was still there. Quatre fell asleep in Trowa's arms.
I won't let anyone come between us again. I promise. Then Trowa also fell asleep.
The next morning Quatre slowly opened his eyes. He was smiling he a had a nice dream for a change. In the dream he was wearing a white suit as was Trowa and they were exchanging vows surrounded by their dear friend. When Quatre turned to look at Trowa that side of the bed was empty.
"T Trowa. No not again." Quatre began to breathe heavily tears streaming down his face as he began to scream. "TROWA!"
TBC is anyone still reading? Did it totally suck these are questions and I need answers.