Serenity sat at a small vanity table that evening before supper brushing out her long pink hair. "Why couldn't my hair be more like my mother's?" Serenity complained to herself. For the first time in her life, Serenity knew what it was like to want to impress someone. Countless times before she would pretty herself for a ball or other social occasion with the intent to gather the handsome men around her, or to look pretty for one of her boy friends. But that was so vauge, with out real depth. Wanting to be pretty for Helios made Serenity feel as if she were drowning in a deep lake, only drowning wasn't pleasent and this feeling was. She put on a pretty mint green dinner gown and went to the dinning hall. All through supper Serenity hardly listened to her father's dull prattle with Helios as they conversed on politics and alliances and such. The young woman hardly tasted the food she ate, all her power was focused on Helios. The way his jaw moved when he talked, the way a slight breeze moved his hair, the gracefully, powerfull movments of his arms and hands as he cut his chicken breast and then speared it on a fork. It would be all too soon when this short one day visit would come to an end.
After dinner Helios caught Serenity alone in one of the few coridors. "You couldn't take your eyes off me tonight could you?" he demanded, gripping her by the upper arms. Serenity blinked and smiled a little.
"Do you love me Serenity?" Helios's voice softened.
"I love you Helios. I love you." Serenity whispered as she brushed his bangs off his face. Serenity kissed Helios gently, slowly. She let the feeling of his lips on hers sink into her soul. She felt one of his hands move from her arm to the nape of her neck, the other sank to her waist. They parted to take a breath of air and Helios spoke. "I'm sorry."
"For what?" breathed Serenity, feeling weak in the arms of her love.
"For kissing you. I shouldn't have done that. It's not fair to you."
"Not fair?" whispered Serenity, her voice takeing on an edge.
"We can't continue this way love. I'm a priest and this Earth is to be my soul concern. It was my fault for letting you fall in love with me. I made a promise long ago that I would be this world's gaurdian."
"You also made a promise to me."
"And I've met that promise."
Serenity turned away. Tears were filling her eyes. She had let herself submit to this love and now it was being torn from her. She had clung to a lie for five years? She realized every romance she had ever had was ended because it didn't equal that memory of Helios. Was this to end too because of an oath? "But... don't you love me?"
"More than I should." murmured Helious sadly, his eyes deep with pain.
"Haven't you already broken your oath? You thought of me for five years! You've kissed me twice! Is that not enough to break your damnable oath?"
"Perhaps. But if I'm to cling to the shards of my promise than I have to stop here. We have to stop here. I'll never forgive myself. At least nothing furthur happend. We are of age and it could have..."
"I wish it had so I could have not wasted five years of my life dreaming a lie!" Serenity shoved Helios against the wall and pinned him there. She was strong for so small a girl. The princess kissed Helios feircly before storming off. The soft feeling of his loveing lips on her's had faded. Now she only felt the hard force of her last kiss and it stung bitterly. But Serenity knew that Helios was right. Who else would remain inside the Earth to give strength to the Golden Crystal? To protect her father? No one else could do that. But no one else could ever make Serenity feel the way Helios made her feel. It was hopeless.
The next day Serenity happily returned to Crystal Tokyo. She immediatly ran to find Sailor Venus, one of her favorite confidents, she had remained very girlish even though she was in her mid-thirties. Serenity fell to the blond's lap and sobbed her story out.
"When I fought as Sailor V in England, I love a boy very much, but he fell for my best friend. I left England heartbroken and let him think I was dead. In away, Helios has fallen for your friend, your father. He made an oath and he loves this planet so much he will sacrafice anything for it. But you will find love again. Don't worry. There are plenty of fish in the sea."
"I hate it when people say that!" wailed Serenity, hopelessly. "Helios loves me! I know he does! I saw the pain in his eyes when he chose one promise over another. I can't live without him Minako!"
Venus smoothed her Princess's hair gently and told her to dry her eyes. "There isn't anything you can do. Just try and move on. Occupy your mind with other things, like your studies for example. Take up a hobby, do anything that will keep you very focused on something other than Helios. I know how it hurts." Serenity found herself nodding, drying the last of her tears and then walking mechanicly to dinner. Her face was a mask of her usual pleasent, bubbly self, but her eyes were dark with hurt and tragedy. Few noticed though, for few were watching anything but their plates.
Next Chapter: Serenity goes out of her way to get Helios to notice her, but only pushes him furthur away. Whats a small lady to do? How about getting some help from an old friend?
After dinner Helios caught Serenity alone in one of the few coridors. "You couldn't take your eyes off me tonight could you?" he demanded, gripping her by the upper arms. Serenity blinked and smiled a little.
"Do you love me Serenity?" Helios's voice softened.
"I love you Helios. I love you." Serenity whispered as she brushed his bangs off his face. Serenity kissed Helios gently, slowly. She let the feeling of his lips on hers sink into her soul. She felt one of his hands move from her arm to the nape of her neck, the other sank to her waist. They parted to take a breath of air and Helios spoke. "I'm sorry."
"For what?" breathed Serenity, feeling weak in the arms of her love.
"For kissing you. I shouldn't have done that. It's not fair to you."
"Not fair?" whispered Serenity, her voice takeing on an edge.
"We can't continue this way love. I'm a priest and this Earth is to be my soul concern. It was my fault for letting you fall in love with me. I made a promise long ago that I would be this world's gaurdian."
"You also made a promise to me."
"And I've met that promise."
Serenity turned away. Tears were filling her eyes. She had let herself submit to this love and now it was being torn from her. She had clung to a lie for five years? She realized every romance she had ever had was ended because it didn't equal that memory of Helios. Was this to end too because of an oath? "But... don't you love me?"
"More than I should." murmured Helious sadly, his eyes deep with pain.
"Haven't you already broken your oath? You thought of me for five years! You've kissed me twice! Is that not enough to break your damnable oath?"
"Perhaps. But if I'm to cling to the shards of my promise than I have to stop here. We have to stop here. I'll never forgive myself. At least nothing furthur happend. We are of age and it could have..."
"I wish it had so I could have not wasted five years of my life dreaming a lie!" Serenity shoved Helios against the wall and pinned him there. She was strong for so small a girl. The princess kissed Helios feircly before storming off. The soft feeling of his loveing lips on her's had faded. Now she only felt the hard force of her last kiss and it stung bitterly. But Serenity knew that Helios was right. Who else would remain inside the Earth to give strength to the Golden Crystal? To protect her father? No one else could do that. But no one else could ever make Serenity feel the way Helios made her feel. It was hopeless.
The next day Serenity happily returned to Crystal Tokyo. She immediatly ran to find Sailor Venus, one of her favorite confidents, she had remained very girlish even though she was in her mid-thirties. Serenity fell to the blond's lap and sobbed her story out.
"When I fought as Sailor V in England, I love a boy very much, but he fell for my best friend. I left England heartbroken and let him think I was dead. In away, Helios has fallen for your friend, your father. He made an oath and he loves this planet so much he will sacrafice anything for it. But you will find love again. Don't worry. There are plenty of fish in the sea."
"I hate it when people say that!" wailed Serenity, hopelessly. "Helios loves me! I know he does! I saw the pain in his eyes when he chose one promise over another. I can't live without him Minako!"
Venus smoothed her Princess's hair gently and told her to dry her eyes. "There isn't anything you can do. Just try and move on. Occupy your mind with other things, like your studies for example. Take up a hobby, do anything that will keep you very focused on something other than Helios. I know how it hurts." Serenity found herself nodding, drying the last of her tears and then walking mechanicly to dinner. Her face was a mask of her usual pleasent, bubbly self, but her eyes were dark with hurt and tragedy. Few noticed though, for few were watching anything but their plates.
Next Chapter: Serenity goes out of her way to get Helios to notice her, but only pushes him furthur away. Whats a small lady to do? How about getting some help from an old friend?