Finding Him
Chapter 4 : The Kiss
by : Sakeena deathstalkker@yahoo.com


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One night after we had eaten, I felt the same throb in my head whenever the images occur. My head began to whirl, and I dropped the plates I was supposed to wash.

Aya came to assist me to ask me how I felt, but I shoved her away. "Call your brother," I told her. I was too dangerous for her.

"But why? What's wrong?"

"Call your brother!" I cried at her, holding my head. "Quick! Call him! And don't come back! Just stay in your room. Lock the door. Stay there."

"But --"

The spinning became faster.

"Just do as I say!"

She obeyed me and called her brother who was in his room, but didn't go up her own room to lock herself in. To her surprise, Ran told her the same thing. She hurried up the stares, confused.

Then it came. But the difference was that I no longer saw the images. I watched it all happen with my eyes, how I fought, what I did. But I was not in control of my body. I was a mere spectator.

I used my martial arts skills to fight Ran, but he fought back, until several minutes later, after the dining room was wrecked and nothing more was left to be wrecked, he got control of me, sitting atop of me , pinning my arms beside me head with his strong hands. My body began to wiggle free.

"Think of something!" he ordered me.

"What?" I asked him.

"Think of other things. Don't keep your mind blank."

"But what will I think of?"

It was all to hard. My head felt like it was going to explode. I began to scream and wildly tried to get him off me. Then there was the other side of me, begging him to help me. "Don't let me go, Ran! Doooon't!"

It probably reached Aya and we both heard her scramble down the stairs, but before she could see us, Ran ordered her sternly to lock herself in the room. She was going to protest but Ran was too stern. He meant what he said.

"Try to fight it."

"How?"

"Think of something."

"I'm trying."

"Think of your father."

And I did. An image of my father. He was bounded with thick cords, unconscious. My fury began to rise.

Dadddeeeeee!

I struggled more wildly.

"It's not working. It's becoming worse."

"The flowers. The flower shop."

The flowers reminded me of my very nice dream, the dream I had when I murdered two students. It crashed my soul. The two sides of me clashes very badly, and my struggling became more furious.

Everything good in my mind would come out as bad. And everything bad would become worse. There was no safe thing to think about.

"Help me, Ran.." I whispered helplessly, meeting his eyes during the few dormant seconds I had. Then the attack of my mind came again.

Before anything else could happen, his face dropped down very close to mine, his eyes calm. He said nothing and just stared back at me..

I was still fighting furiously.

Then his lips touched mine. It was longer than peck, and my body began to respond to it far from expectation. I began to calm down. The longer it gets, the calmer by body became. When my body became quite calm, it was past ten seconds that he was kissing me.

Nobody had ever kissed me before.

He released me afterwards. I was too shocked to move from my position, and I just lied there, unblinkingly staring at the ceiling. He too was probably shocked by what he did, but he was good at hiding his feelings. He stood up and began arranging the kitchen.

When I regained myself, I was too upset. I couldn't believe myself. I was pretty ungrateful instead. "I can't believe you'd do that! What did you do that for?" I demanded furiously.

He didn't answer and just continued to do what he was doing, like my feelings didn't matter. This upset me even more. Angrily, I spun him around and slapped him across the face. His expression didn't change. Then it occurred to me it was probably a part of the deal.

Try to stop me any way you can.

I was even the one who said it. He was just keeping his part of the bargain. What more, I was a parasite, a danger and a total bitch. I couldn't bring myself to apologize to him yet. I was too confused. So I ran off and locked myself in my room.


The next day, though, I was in total good mood. I was determined to ask for apology. But I woke up too late to find the two Fujimiyas gone. Aya to her school and Ran probably to the flower shop.

I decided to cook lunch for him. One way of apology. I was not much of a cook but I could give it a try.

The outcome was not as good as my father's cooking, but not nearly as bad as my mother's. I wanted to make a set of four ,but I had no more time and no more ingredients that I could only make one. Then I went to go to the flower shop.

"Sorry I'm late," I told them. Omi was the first to greet me, followed by the two others. Of course Fujimiya was as cold as ice, though the presence of Sakura warmed him up.

"So whatcha bringing with you?" Kudou asked with a silly smile, putting an arm around me.

I hugged the paper bag containing Ran's lunch. He'll tease me all right. "No-nothing."

The door opened. A girl came in and it sent Yoji off to her like dog. I was pleased that Kudou stopped bugging me at the sight of that girl which I noticed was the one to whom his interest was highly vested upon.

I went directly to Ran who was inside talking to a girl. Or rather, the girl was talking to him. But I barely noticed the girl and when I did it was too late. The three other boys were watching with amusement.

"Fujimiya, I'm so sorry about what happened last night. I should not have doubted your motives." I bowed deeply to him. I meant it from the bottom of my heart. I didn't wait for him to say anything. I continued talking nonstop to defend myself. "I shouldn't have done what I did. It's all me, I swear. And..you can do that to me again..whaaat I mean is you can do that again if you want to..gosh what am I saying? if you hafta do it, then do it. Then I gave him his lunch. "As a sign of my deep repentance.."


He accepted it, rather hesitantly. Then I realized why.

Sakura. Sakura was staring at us. She was the girl I barely noticed. "Do what?" she asked both of us.

He didn't say anything as usual. Just left me to sort out the new mess I created. I stepped back. "Ah. Do what?" I asked innocently. "But of course. Nothing you'd take interest on. Nothing in particular, really..."

But Sakura's suspicions were already aroused.

Then my invader. He came again.



kill

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NOOO!

My hands both landed on my ears to top the voices from coming. Her? Sakura? But why?

"Leave me aloneee!" I cried out. Everybody looked at me , surprised. Only Ran knew what was going on.

"Ran it's happening again!"

"What's happening?" Hidaka asked.

"Take me somewhere ! Take me somewhere! Take me somewhere !!!" I pleaded Ran.

But where would he take me? I would not be able to hold on much longer. He better do something fast.

"Sakuraaaa! Leave! Leave now!! Or...or....I will kill you!!!!"

It was all too much for her. Omi saw what was happening and though he had no clue, decided to ask the customers to leave. Ken rushed to Sakura and Yoji's girl who refused to leave and just guarded both of them. Yoji and Ran took me on in a fight. My body was beginning to fight and no images blurred my vision. Again I was a mere spectator as I saw my body act as though some strings were used to pull it like a puppet.

It was Yoji who was able to render me helpless this time as he was able to corner me. "Yoji.. help me.." I was able to say.

"What's going on?" Kudou asked ran who was behind him as he held my wrists tightly.

"Don't release her," Ran advised.

"What will I do? This girl's powerful!"

"Kiss her."

"What?" Kudou asked out loud. He knew his girl was still there.

My initial reaction was not far from Kudou's. I was well aware by that time how much of a flirt Kudou could be and I doubted his motives. I guess I preferred Ran to kiss me instead. But then I decided to pay a much more mature view over it all.

It's all for me.

Kudou kissed me alright. Shorter one, but my body needed more and Ran saw the need, so he asked Yoji to kiss me more, much to the girl's fury.

My body gave the same reaction to a kiss. I didn't know a kiss could act like a depressant. Maybe it never was supposed to be. I had just some weird reaction to some things. And kiss was one of those things.

It was my second kiss. Darn. Two kisses on two different men for two consecutive days. This time, Yoji was getting carried away. Angrily, I pushed him away when I was in control of myself and gave him a slap on his face.

I just never learn.

But the next day I apologized and gave Kudou his lunch I cooked for him.

And that was how they figured out what happened between me and Ran.


Sakura and Yoji's girl who was named Erinko had cornered me and demanded I explain myself that same afternoon. Gheeze, didn't they understand what just happened? But one thing was clear, though: I blew it for Yoji. I felt sorry for him.

That same night, the night of the day of my second kiss, I could not sleep. Restless but tired. Anxious about something. I was scared.

"What do you want?" Ran asked without turning to look at me as I stood in my bathrobe by his door, carrying a pillow and a blanket. He was on a jeans and gray shirt, both arms crossed beneath his head, his eyes on the ceiling. He was not asleep yet either, though the light on his room was off. He seemed to be thinking.

"I'm scared," I told him frankly.

He looked at me without moving from his position and probably saw from the way I looked what I meant.

Before he could ask again, I asked him first. "Can I sleep here with you?"

I knew it was rather unbecoming to ask of that, but I must be frank of how I feel. I definitely could not sleep with Aya because I may hurt her.

He sat up. "Fine. I'll sleep on the floor."

I stopped him. "No don't. I'll sleep on the floor. This is your room after all."

"I said I'll sleep on the floor."

Irritating. "I said you don't have to because this is your room. I'll sleep on the floor."

"This is my room all right, so I'll do what I want when I want to."

Here we go again. I rolled my eyes. "Let's sleep on the bed." Silently he looked at me as though I didn't know what I was talking about. "Well, what are you so scared of? I don't think there's anything wrong with that unless we do something I>wrong /I>."

I got my way. It was like a dare to him or more of an insult to him I guess to be called scared by an insane girl like me and that was why he agreed. I kept to my side of the bed. We were both silent for a long while and still I could not sleep.

"Ran?" I mumbled.

I just heard a faint "huh?"

"I'm sorry. Very sorry."

He said nothing. I didn't expect him to.

"I trust your motives. I'll always will."

"Good night," was all his reply.

"Good night."

And thank you.

That time I wanted to kiss him.


Shinzo Ryuugasaki was the founder of the Ryuugasaki School of martial arts where I taught. His grandson Seiji was a student of mine.

Seiji was pretty close to Ken as Gen was attached to Omi. I didn't know for sure how the two lads became involved with the mess.

Seiji and Gen were good friends, and it was quite obvious. As Ken had predicted, something was wrong with Gen lately which the boy didn't bother telling Omi. It was Seiji who spilled it all.

Yuki Ohno, a high school girl, older sister of Gen Ohno was kidnapped. This Yuki, according to Ken, was Omi's second love interest. Though the mutual relationship was comparatively slow, it was clear they both liked each other. Poor Omi.

The cops told the Ohno family like what they told me. And if there was one person who understood Gen quite well, it was me.

I had this strange feeling all these kidnappings were done by only one syndicate. Whatever their intention was I didn't know, and neither did the boys. I didn't care either. But I would find Yuki and my father.

Ken and Omi worked all alone with me. It was my decision to exclude Ran and Yoji from our our project. For one thing, I already owed Ran a lot, and I feared I would just place him and Aya, and even Sakura in much danger. Yoji on the other hand seemed to do a good job on Erinko and the last thing I wanted was to blow it up all for him.

Two days later, Aya Fujimiya was gone. She was kidnapped as well. This inevitably dragged Ran into the mess.





April 2000 © Sakeena