7
It
was a lonely morning on Yavin4. Luke was at the table with the apprentices. It
was a typical morning for the big family, though all in the enormous dining
room felt Irene's absence. Even the food had lost its usual taste. The once
noisy apprentices were silently eating, every word sipped like the hot bread in
the middle of the table.
"When
will she come back?" Finally Valene did the question all in the room were
thinking about. Luke's spoon trembled for a moment. Irene'd left the Academy
four days before on the Moonlight Shadow,
her own spaceship, a tiny old Alderaanian mercantile. Luke had asked her if
she wanted a companion a co-pilot a nurse, someone. But she'd smiled and shaken
her head softly. The hatch of the ship had closed behind her silently.
"I
don't know, yesterday we talked. She only said she had found my and Obi-Wan's
house and that she liked my old bed room…"
Adam's
mind put together Irene Luke and a bedroom and he was now trying to cover his
mouth but he couldn't help it and everyone heard him laughing. Luke silenced.
Adam slipped under the table. Luke followed the apprentice under the table.
Adam saw the blond head approaching and ran. The other apprentices were all
watching the hunting under the table.
Adam
gained the exit but Luke didn't want to let him go. His first motivations were
slowly leaving the place to a truly wish of amusement. When their Master came
out of under the table the apprentices saw a delighted smile on his face. Hujan,
Liby and Faje started clapping rhythmically their hands, acclaiming Luke.
"Master
Luke, Master Luke!"
Valene
and Dakana instead were shouting loudly to incite Adam. The young Wookiee
looked at Luke running after Adam in the dining room. He wasn't interested and
turned to Derek, near him. The Wookiee growled at the boy. For the first time
Derek answered him, he had understood his language.
"Well,
friend, I'm Corellian, on my planet there aren't many Jedi, two in our whole
history. My father didn't believe in the Force before I saved him, avoiding him
to fall down from a ladder. He's still trying to find a rational reason for
what I've done." Grrakkj smiled and talked again. "Your uncle knows another
Corellian like my father?" the Wookiee barked, "Who? General Solo?! It's
impossible, how your uncle can…" but Grrakkj barked again. "Your uncle is
Chewbecca?! Wow!" They kept on talking for a while when suddenly Luke jumped
over them and landed on the table.
"Master?!"
Luke
was exhausted but happy. He was panting, smiling like a child. Adam knelt on
the floor, panting too, with the same delighted smile on the face. The game was
over. Luke descended from the table and called his apprentices with a gesture
of the hand. The group formed around him in a second. Master and apprentices
moved, heading toward the outside of the Temple, when the intercom beeped.
"Master
Luke, the Moonlight Shadow's just
landed. Hangar 2/RE." The children shouted and jumped. Luke wanted to run and
after the first meters he did it, followed by his joyful apprentices.
The
hatch slowly opened, the ramp lowered. In the silence of the hangar a shadow
appeared in the doorstep. Luke was still panting. The other young guys were
anxious to see Irene. The hooded figure descended silently when without a word
she ran down to Luke. The hood fell behind the head. Luke opened his arms to
welcome Irene and the woman threw herself in that warm embrace. Luke's arms
closed behind her back.
The
apprentices surrounded Irene and Luke. The Jedi Master slowly opened his arms
again and Irene moved away, kissing every apprentice embracing everyone again
and again. Luke followed the scene with a little smile. He was obviously happy
because Irene now was a complete Jedi apprentice, probably a Jedi. But the
inner part of his happiness was something that he didn't want to admit. He was
happy simply because she was there again, near him.
"Master
Luke."
Luke
drew a step toward Irene. The apprentices had been dismissed and were playing
and chattering in the hangar.
"Yes?"
"Is
there a place where we can talk?"
Luke
nodded and pointed at the entrance of the hangar. Irene followed him silently.
When
the noisy group was far from them Luke stopped and turned to Irene. The apprentice breathed slowly then talked.
"I…I
wanted to ask you to test my lightsaber."
Luke
relaxed, nodding. For a moment he had trembled listening to her voice. Irene
shyly picked up her lightsaber and looked at the bright handle for a moment
before to give it to Luke.
The
Master examined the handle. It was perfect. Irene had lightly carved something
on it. Luke read the basics symbols on the silvery surface. It was the Jedi
code. Finally the Jedi Master pushed a little lilac button and a light blue
blade lightened his face. The color was pure and uniform. He tested it before him. Finally nodding, he
quenched the lightsaber and gave it back to Irene.
"It's
perfect…I think…" Irene felt her hearth in her throat. And if…"No, it's better
for us to wait." Luke's voice was a thoughtful whisper. The Jedi Master looked
straight in her eyes for a moment, forcing her to look in his. "Be careful with
it, Irene. You can surely hold it at your belt but keep an eye on it. Don't
leave it in a place where the younger Padawan can find it."
"Don't
worry Master."
The
intercom called Luke again.
"A
call for Master Luke. You can receive it in the hangar, Master."
Luke
did a light shrug and reached a column in a corner of the hangar. The screen
blinked for a moment then Han's face appeared in the little square.
"Han?
What's the matter?!"
"Hi
kid!"
"I
told you not to call me kid…"
"I'
know, I know…but kid," Han smiled pleasantly while Luke was shaking his head
"I'm here to invite the Jedi of the New Order to the inauguration of Chewo
Coruscant."
"It's
complete?! It's fantastic! When is the inauguration?"
"It's
in…wait I've the invitation somewhere…" Han's head disappeared for a long
moment, and then popped up again. His eyes were reading something that Luke
couldn't see. "It's in…25 standard hours…"
"25?"
"You
know Leia is electric and she's set all a month ago. The party…the
transports…everything…"
"But
she can't travel in hyperspace!"
"It's
what I told her but she repeated that the doctor gave her the permission and
he'll come with us on the Falcon
so…you see, I've accepted."
"She's
a leader…"
"Sometimes
I think I married the Emperor!"
They
both laughed. Luke then sighed.
"Well,
Han, tell me the place for the rendezvous and we'll see in less then 25
standard hours…my ship will precede yours."
"What
are you trying to say? Your younger brother is better than my older Falcon?!
We'll see!"
They
laughed again then Han dialed the co-ordinates of Chewo Coruscant.
"It's
in the Core of the Core…" commented Luke, reading on the screen.
"Leia
wants it in the same place of the old one…"
"Then
friend…see you."
"Bye!"
The
screen blinked and turned black.
The
corridor was noisy like a stable. The apprentices were preparing their stuff.
The Star Horse was waiting in the
hangar. Luke and Irene had divided the apprentices in two groups and were
everywhere. The younger were, as always, the worst problem. Luke had opened and
closed wardrobes for three hours trying to dress up the children who found
really funny run around in and out of the rooms.
"Stop!"
Luke's voice thundered in the corridor and everyone silenced.
Finally
every apprentice had a sack and now was waiting, in an ordered silent row, for
Luke to move.
The
hatch closed and Luke was on his way to the cockpit, where Irene was waiting
for him, when someone knocked on the door. Luke felt a known presence and
jumped back to open the hatch again.
"Have
you got other two seats?" Lukas's voice made Luke smile.
"Yeah
sure, jump in!" Rjssdek threw inside two sacks and gracefully jumped in after
them. Lukas needed a little help from Luke but he did it and the hatch closed,
not to open again.
"I'm
glad to see you Lukas." Then he turned toward Rjssdek and smiled, "Master
Rjssdek." Said formally.
"Master
Luke." The tall man answered in the same serious voice then they laughed and
embraced each other.
Luke's
comlink beeped. It was Irene.
"I'm
coming, Lukas and Master Rjssdek are here!"
"I
know, I know, but we can't waste time, you can talk in the hyperspace."
"Is
she the boss now Master?" asked smiling Lukas.
Luke
answered with a light shrug and ran away.
The
white wall of light lines before him was a quite usual vision but Luke was
keeping on looking at it, voluntarily avoiding any contact with his co-pilot.
Irene had given up understanding her Master the first time he had closed his
mind to her. But she still felt that it was all her fault. She wanted to cry.
The
coldness in the cockpit was something more than psychological and Lukas realized
immediately that something was wrong. Rjssdek had asked him to go and see and
he had gone and seen. Luke was a piece of ice in the Force, a strong cold
presence. Irene's desperation had done a big bleeding hole in his heart and he
couldn't help her. Stopping on the entrance the young man called Irene with a
gesture. The woman turned immediately, glad to see him. Lukas did a light
movement with the head and Irene got up, following him out of the cockpit. Luke
didn't turn, even if Lukas's presence had touched him.
"What's
going on, Irene?!" Asked the man in an accusing voice. Lukas was whispering, as
if Luke or the others, wanting to do it, wouldn't have been able to listen to
them. Irene sighed.
"It's
impossible that you don't know…" Lukas's unbelief was now plain and
uncontrollable.
"But
it's the truth!" Immediately her eyes fell on the floor. Lukas felt guilty for
what he had thought and patted on her shoulder, trying to apologize.
"Irene,
I…I didn't mean that it was your fault."
"Probably
it is…"Whispered the woman, looking absently at the metallic panel behind
Lukas's shoulders. The man startled but Irene spoke again before he could build
a comprehensible question. "He didn't want it to happen, but probably there's
something wrong with our friendship." The tears that she had kept back until
then now were watering her cheeks and Lukas's hand that was caressing them.
Desperate
laments soon filled the corridor.
In
the cockpit someone else was crying, desperately, lying on the instruments.
Luke's face was a mask of sorrow; his beautiful eyes were two fissures and the
tears rolled down on the control panels, leaving the salty taste of the pain.
Pain that was tearing him apart.
Crying
like a child, a frightened child alone in the dark, the marvelous extraordinary
Jedi knelt down.
Doubts.
It was all about doubts.
What
came first?
Himself?
No, of course.
Irene?
No, again.
The
Academy? Yes…probably.
The
Galaxy? You've got a point, Luke!
It
was like walking on a rope between two planets: balance was fundamental. He had
been walking to the bigger planet that needed him, leaving his own little
amount of rocks. Was it the right thing to do? A good Jedi whatever it cost?
Irene's
doubts came from the same point. Feeling something for each other, and his mind
was avoiding classifying that 'something', was somehow dangerous?
Slowly
he sank on the floor as if something had hit him.
Ben…Yoda…father…He
needed a hand, a warm touch to heal his broken heart.
Son…Luke
expected Ben to answer to his pray but, surprisingly, his father's presence
covered his shoulders with a fatherly tenderness. Why are you crying?
Father…what do I have
to do?
Wait, my dear son.
Everyone needs you, needs the Academy. Give yourself the time to rebuild it
all.
Yes but, Irene…needs me
too.
And you need her. Ask
her to help you.
Help me?
Talk with her. Don't
make her feel guilty, and don't scold yourself.
The
presence left the cockpit as light as a whisper.
Luke
was still lying on the ground, lost in his thoughts so deeply that he didn't
notice Irene until her hand touched his back. The body was shaken one last time
before the man looked up at her and saw her eyes reddened by the tears. The
sight of his gloomy red eyes made the woman smile tenderly. Luke didn't reply
to that smile so Irene used the soft handkerchief Lukas had given her to dry
the tears from his face.
The
man was docile in her hands and let her clean his face without moving; every
wall he had built up between him and his heart had fallen, in those conditions
he wasn't neither able to imagine a movement to take him away from that warm
hug and he could only stand motionless while Irene was pulling him up from the
floor and leaving gently him on his seat.
He
felt he needed that contact only when Irene moved away silently.
His
hand stretched out immediately and blindly grabbed hers. The woman stopped,
surprised by that reaction, and turned to look at him. Luke looked up at her
and the disbelief disappeared, wiped away by a delicate happiness. Her fingers
gradually closed around his, unsure like those of a teenager fallen in love for
the first time. Luke tightened the hold and Irene came closer to him sitting on
his left side. Their hands were still holding each other. For a long moment,
out of reality above any perception, they talked without words, reading in each
other's eyes.
The
slight touch of their lips came as a natural consequence, without hidden
motives. The circle closed, the road ended, on the curve of their two profiles
lightened by the running stars. Irene slowly slipped on his legs and bent the
head down on his chest. Luke's gloved hand gave him the warmth of her back
while he was caressing her.
Irene
hid their hands under her chin and the man kissed her forehead placing then the
head on her shoulder.
Luke's
voice breezed above the seat without breaking the unreal silence of the
cockpit, suspended beyond reality with them. "Will you help me?"
She
answered in a way that only Luke could understand and his lips cropped in a
smile when he felt his hand grabbed tightly with a sigh of happiness.
A shadow moved in the corridor. Luke's eyes
opened, his eyebrows frowned. Irene's perceptions were foggy and she only felt
a friendly phantom not far from her; she was sure it was a friendly person that
had gone away because Luke had immediately relaxed, without trying to rise.
