Hi minna!! *waves to all her readers* Here is substory
three - things get a little confusing after this until
main title three, so bare with me. It will all make
sence. Soooo, is Mamoru alive? What do you think? hehe,
don't look at me! I don't even know ^_~
As always, HUGE thanks to everyone who emails me **HUGS**
If you've emailed me and I haven't gotten back to you,
please don't give up on me! I'm having problems at home
and I may not have access to my account for a while. As
soon as I can, I will write you back! *hugs*
HUGE thanks to my editor, Meara. Without her.... Kami,
don't want to think about how many errors this thing
would have in it ^^ A million and one thanks girl! *hugs*
Usual disclaimers, I don't own Sailor Moon - none of us
fanfic writers do but we borrow the characters to bring
you these stories ^^ that I hope you enjoy ^_^
Ja minna! See you at the bottom of the page ^_~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Days turn into weeks, weeks into months.
We held a small service for Mamoru, but Usagi
wasn't there long. She broke down in the middle
of it and Rei took her home. I watched my
friends break down and cry one by one; Mamoru
was liked by all. Motoki and Reika were as bad
as we were, and Usagi... Kami-sama, I've never
seen her like this.
Usagi didn't come to school for a long time.
I was beginning to wonder if she ever would. She
stayed in her room most of the time. Her face
became pale, her eyes dark and haunted. I grieved
for my best friend. She wants him so bad.
Why is that the only thing I can't give her?
-Makoto.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Don't Let Me Go: Broken Promises
Chapter: 3
By: Bethany
Edited by: Meara
Rated: PG
Send all comments, suggestions and
Tiggers to Bethany212@aol.com
Send all cows to my ittsui-chan,
Serenity Raye ^_^
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Makoto looked over at the empty desk that was
suppose to be occupied by Usagi and sighed. She had
came to school for a week, then stopped again. Today
was the third day she had missed.
Slowly the hands on the clock made their way
to the twelve and the three and the bell rang signaling
the end of the day. Makoto grabbed Ami by the arm and
left the school grounds.
Neither talked the entire way. A sense of doom was
rising and the girls hurried towards the Tsukino Residence.
After buzzing the doorbell three times, a short
blue haired woman opened it slowly. "Konnichi' wa
minna," she said sadly. "Usagi is in her room."
Makoto exchanged a worried glance with Ami and
turned back to Usagi's mom. "Ikuko-mama, can we go see
her?"
"If you can get her to open the door, your more
than welcome to," she sighed, opening the door. "Here,
take this cat with you. Usagi won't even let Luna in..."
she trailed off and went back to the kitchen.
Makoto climbed the stairs quickly, Ami directly
behind her. The door to Usagi's room was shut and locked.
"Usagi-chan, can we come in?" Ami whispered through the door.
Silence.
"Usagi-chan?" Makoto asked nervously.
Silence. Luna started pacing.
Makoto started feeling more worried than she was
already. She tried to turn the doorknob and found it
locked. "Usagi-chan!"
This time when no response came, Makoto kicked
the door in. It swung open.
"What the hell?!" Makoto rushed in to find Usagi's
body laid out on the floor, dried blood on her arm and
a gash where she had cut it.
Ami pushed down her nausea and pulled her computer
out, forcing herself to stay calm while seeing if her best
friend had succeeded in killing herself. First checking
for a pulse, and finding one; she opened her computer.
Shaking fingers dialed the emergency number and
Makoto screamed the information to the woman on the other
end. After dropping the phone back on its base, she turned
slowly to Ami. She swallowed hard and opened her mouth,
but words refused to come.
"She's alive..." Ami gasped, wrapping a shirt around
the wound on Usagi's arm. "She... she didn't cut it
right, and the-the blood flow stopped.. I -- we nee-"
A high-pitched scream sounded over and over and Ikuko
ran in the room towards her daughter. "USAGI!!"
~*~ T.U. Hospital ~*~
The constant sound of the coffee makers and coke
machines was the only sound through out the lobby. Every
now and again the sad sound of Ikuko's cries would come
from the far end of the room, and the girls would all look
up.
Motoki reached over and grabbed Reika's hand and
gently squeezed. Gratefully, Reika looked up and meet her
fiancée's eyes. "She has to be okay," she whispered,
more to herself than to him.
"She will be," he answered and looked back down at
the floor. Thoughts of loosing his best friend swam
through his head. 'Please Kami-sama, not Usagi too...
please.'
A young intern with light brown hair and tired hazel
eyes entered the room and looked almost surprised by the
amount of people there. "Ummm... Tsukino Usagi?"
Kenji and Ikuko immediately stood up, nine girls
and Motoki coming up behind them. The young man rubbed
his eyes. "I'm Doctor Wongh, Tsukino-san's doctor. You
are?"
Ikuko looked up with teary eyes. "We're her parents
and friends... please doctor, is she all right?"
Rubbing his blood shot eyes again, the man ran his
fingers through his hair. "She sustained some blood loss,
and is showing signs of being anemic. Other than that, I
see no reason to keep her here longer than a day at the
most. I would, however, strongly suggest that she get some
counseling."
Kenji nodded and unwrapped his arm from Ikuko's
shoulders to shake the man's hand. "Arigato Doctor."
The man smiled and started out of the room. "You may
see her, but only two at a time and not for long. She needs
rest. Room 218," he said then turned and was gone.
Minako let out the breath she had been holding in and
started crying. Slowly Rei reached over and put her arm
around her. "Shhh, Mina-chan. She's okay," she whispered.
Kenji and Ikuko left the room and the girls all sat
back down. "Motoki-san, go home and get some rest. You
too Reika-chan," Makoto suggested lightly, pouring her and
the girls some coffee.
"I want to see her before we leave," Motoki said,
wrapping his left arm around Reika.
No one responded, just sat down and continued to
loose themselves in their own thoughts.
~*~
A small frame topped with short black hair made it's
way down the stark white hallways. The smell of medicine
and sounds of machines filling her senses. Slowly she came
to a stop in front of a room; the numbers 218 in the middle
of the door. "Setsuna-mama, will it be alright?"
The Senshi of Pluto took in a deep breath and patted
the younger girl's head. "Hai Hotaru, all will be fine...
it has to be," she added under her breath.
The door opening sounded like a shotgun. It seemed
to fill previously silent corridor. Setsuna flinched and
pushed the heavy door open.
Inside revealed the outline of the Princess; her hair
down and falling around her. She was facing the window, the
sunset causing her hair to have a red hue. "Usagi-chan?"
Hotaru whispered.
Usagi didn't move. "Come in," she said quietly, her
lips barely moving at all.
The woman and young girl slowly came in the room and
stood next to the bed. For long moments none of them moved.
Finally Usagi turned and Setsuna stifled a gasp. Her
eyes were glazed over by tears, black smudges under
them, her skin was pale - almost white. The room's lack
of light was showing off just how much weight Usagi had
lost in the last couple of months.
Hotaru reached her hands out. "Princess, may I?"
Usagi looked down at the hands that could heal her...
and shook her head no. Without a word of explanation she
turned back to the window.
The uncomfortable silence was more than the Senshi
of Saturn could stand. Hotaru bruised herself with fixing
a fake plant that sat on the windowsill; and started
jabbering. "You need some colors in here, they would make
you feel better," she flashed Usagi and fake smile and
started wiping dust off the leaves. "I think some red
roses should do it..." the words no more than left her
mouth before she realized what she had done.
Usagi gasped and choked; her tear returning ten fold.
"No-" she coughed out. "No.. roses... Mamo-chan-" the
Princess threw herself down on the bed and continued
to cry into her pillows.
Hotaru stared as Setsuna sat down next to Usagi
and started rubbing her back soothingly. "Usagi-chan,
you must go on... I know how hard it will be. But
you really need to."
Usagi shook her head no and cried harder, shoving
her hand behind her to move Setsuna away from her.
"Leave me alone," she practically screamed.
Setsuna pulled her hand away like it was burning
and stood up. "If you need anything...." she mumbled
and left the room, Hotaru behind her.
~*~ Tsukino Household - two days later ~*~
Ikuko pushed the door to her daughter's bedroom
open and walked in all smiles. In her hands she had a
tray with potato soup and crackers. (AN: I love potato
soup ^^)
"Hello sweetie, you hungry?"
"No."
Ikuko ignored her daughter and sat the tray down
on the desk. "I brought you some soup and crackers."
"I'm not hungry."
"In a couple of hours we have that appointment with
Dr. Calloway, you need to shower first and eat something."
"I said I'm NOT hungry!" Usagi screamed and ran
past her mother.
Ikuko dropped the bowl of soup, splattering it all
over the floor. Tears filled her eyes. "Please Lord, I
want my little girl back..." she whispered, bending
down to clean up the mess.
Luna watched from the bed, her own eyes full of
tears. Resolutely she jumped from the bed and left to
follow Usagi.
An hour later Luna found Usagi in the park, on
the bench that she used to spend the evenings with
Mamoru on. She was looking at the spot he would sit,
tears falling down her face.
Luna jumped up in her lap and started purring.
"Usagi-chan, please stop this. Your torturing yourself,"
the cat informed, worry lining her voice.
Usagi hugged her guardian to her. "Luna, I miss
him so much. My whole body feels so empty without him.
I can't do this... I ache to be near him." Luna said
nothing... only purred louder.
Slowly the sun faded away and Luna realized that
they had sat there all day. "Usagi-chan, didn't you
have an appointment with the doctor today?"
"Hai... I'm not going. They can't help me," she
said sadly, a tear falling off her chin.
Luna started... but said nothing. She knew they
couldn't make Usagi go if she wasn't going to. Usagi
stood. "I.. I need some time by myself. Go on home
without me."
Luna started to protest, but stopped. She knew
where Usagi was going.
Usagi looked back to make sure she wasn't being
followed and started towards Azubu Apartments. Slowly
she went into the elevator and pushed the number twelve.
The doors moved to the side and Usagi went down the
hall, to the forth door on the left. The key in her hand
fit the lock and the door swung open. "Mamo-chan! I'm home!"
~~~~~~~~~~~~
hehe, well - whatcha think? Please email me!! ^^
And just a hint here - if you're reading this on
ASMR, you can get the next chapters earlier in the
week on my web page - Moon Bunny's Closet
http://www.geocities.com/Tokyo/9333
luvs -n- hugs minna-chan!
Bethany
Bethany212@aol.com
three - things get a little confusing after this until
main title three, so bare with me. It will all make
sence. Soooo, is Mamoru alive? What do you think? hehe,
don't look at me! I don't even know ^_~
As always, HUGE thanks to everyone who emails me **HUGS**
If you've emailed me and I haven't gotten back to you,
please don't give up on me! I'm having problems at home
and I may not have access to my account for a while. As
soon as I can, I will write you back! *hugs*
HUGE thanks to my editor, Meara. Without her.... Kami,
don't want to think about how many errors this thing
would have in it ^^ A million and one thanks girl! *hugs*
Usual disclaimers, I don't own Sailor Moon - none of us
fanfic writers do but we borrow the characters to bring
you these stories ^^ that I hope you enjoy ^_^
Ja minna! See you at the bottom of the page ^_~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Days turn into weeks, weeks into months.
We held a small service for Mamoru, but Usagi
wasn't there long. She broke down in the middle
of it and Rei took her home. I watched my
friends break down and cry one by one; Mamoru
was liked by all. Motoki and Reika were as bad
as we were, and Usagi... Kami-sama, I've never
seen her like this.
Usagi didn't come to school for a long time.
I was beginning to wonder if she ever would. She
stayed in her room most of the time. Her face
became pale, her eyes dark and haunted. I grieved
for my best friend. She wants him so bad.
Why is that the only thing I can't give her?
-Makoto.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Don't Let Me Go: Broken Promises
Chapter: 3
By: Bethany
Edited by: Meara
Rated: PG
Send all comments, suggestions and
Tiggers to Bethany212@aol.com
Send all cows to my ittsui-chan,
Serenity Raye ^_^
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Makoto looked over at the empty desk that was
suppose to be occupied by Usagi and sighed. She had
came to school for a week, then stopped again. Today
was the third day she had missed.
Slowly the hands on the clock made their way
to the twelve and the three and the bell rang signaling
the end of the day. Makoto grabbed Ami by the arm and
left the school grounds.
Neither talked the entire way. A sense of doom was
rising and the girls hurried towards the Tsukino Residence.
After buzzing the doorbell three times, a short
blue haired woman opened it slowly. "Konnichi' wa
minna," she said sadly. "Usagi is in her room."
Makoto exchanged a worried glance with Ami and
turned back to Usagi's mom. "Ikuko-mama, can we go see
her?"
"If you can get her to open the door, your more
than welcome to," she sighed, opening the door. "Here,
take this cat with you. Usagi won't even let Luna in..."
she trailed off and went back to the kitchen.
Makoto climbed the stairs quickly, Ami directly
behind her. The door to Usagi's room was shut and locked.
"Usagi-chan, can we come in?" Ami whispered through the door.
Silence.
"Usagi-chan?" Makoto asked nervously.
Silence. Luna started pacing.
Makoto started feeling more worried than she was
already. She tried to turn the doorknob and found it
locked. "Usagi-chan!"
This time when no response came, Makoto kicked
the door in. It swung open.
"What the hell?!" Makoto rushed in to find Usagi's
body laid out on the floor, dried blood on her arm and
a gash where she had cut it.
Ami pushed down her nausea and pulled her computer
out, forcing herself to stay calm while seeing if her best
friend had succeeded in killing herself. First checking
for a pulse, and finding one; she opened her computer.
Shaking fingers dialed the emergency number and
Makoto screamed the information to the woman on the other
end. After dropping the phone back on its base, she turned
slowly to Ami. She swallowed hard and opened her mouth,
but words refused to come.
"She's alive..." Ami gasped, wrapping a shirt around
the wound on Usagi's arm. "She... she didn't cut it
right, and the-the blood flow stopped.. I -- we nee-"
A high-pitched scream sounded over and over and Ikuko
ran in the room towards her daughter. "USAGI!!"
~*~ T.U. Hospital ~*~
The constant sound of the coffee makers and coke
machines was the only sound through out the lobby. Every
now and again the sad sound of Ikuko's cries would come
from the far end of the room, and the girls would all look
up.
Motoki reached over and grabbed Reika's hand and
gently squeezed. Gratefully, Reika looked up and meet her
fiancée's eyes. "She has to be okay," she whispered,
more to herself than to him.
"She will be," he answered and looked back down at
the floor. Thoughts of loosing his best friend swam
through his head. 'Please Kami-sama, not Usagi too...
please.'
A young intern with light brown hair and tired hazel
eyes entered the room and looked almost surprised by the
amount of people there. "Ummm... Tsukino Usagi?"
Kenji and Ikuko immediately stood up, nine girls
and Motoki coming up behind them. The young man rubbed
his eyes. "I'm Doctor Wongh, Tsukino-san's doctor. You
are?"
Ikuko looked up with teary eyes. "We're her parents
and friends... please doctor, is she all right?"
Rubbing his blood shot eyes again, the man ran his
fingers through his hair. "She sustained some blood loss,
and is showing signs of being anemic. Other than that, I
see no reason to keep her here longer than a day at the
most. I would, however, strongly suggest that she get some
counseling."
Kenji nodded and unwrapped his arm from Ikuko's
shoulders to shake the man's hand. "Arigato Doctor."
The man smiled and started out of the room. "You may
see her, but only two at a time and not for long. She needs
rest. Room 218," he said then turned and was gone.
Minako let out the breath she had been holding in and
started crying. Slowly Rei reached over and put her arm
around her. "Shhh, Mina-chan. She's okay," she whispered.
Kenji and Ikuko left the room and the girls all sat
back down. "Motoki-san, go home and get some rest. You
too Reika-chan," Makoto suggested lightly, pouring her and
the girls some coffee.
"I want to see her before we leave," Motoki said,
wrapping his left arm around Reika.
No one responded, just sat down and continued to
loose themselves in their own thoughts.
~*~
A small frame topped with short black hair made it's
way down the stark white hallways. The smell of medicine
and sounds of machines filling her senses. Slowly she came
to a stop in front of a room; the numbers 218 in the middle
of the door. "Setsuna-mama, will it be alright?"
The Senshi of Pluto took in a deep breath and patted
the younger girl's head. "Hai Hotaru, all will be fine...
it has to be," she added under her breath.
The door opening sounded like a shotgun. It seemed
to fill previously silent corridor. Setsuna flinched and
pushed the heavy door open.
Inside revealed the outline of the Princess; her hair
down and falling around her. She was facing the window, the
sunset causing her hair to have a red hue. "Usagi-chan?"
Hotaru whispered.
Usagi didn't move. "Come in," she said quietly, her
lips barely moving at all.
The woman and young girl slowly came in the room and
stood next to the bed. For long moments none of them moved.
Finally Usagi turned and Setsuna stifled a gasp. Her
eyes were glazed over by tears, black smudges under
them, her skin was pale - almost white. The room's lack
of light was showing off just how much weight Usagi had
lost in the last couple of months.
Hotaru reached her hands out. "Princess, may I?"
Usagi looked down at the hands that could heal her...
and shook her head no. Without a word of explanation she
turned back to the window.
The uncomfortable silence was more than the Senshi
of Saturn could stand. Hotaru bruised herself with fixing
a fake plant that sat on the windowsill; and started
jabbering. "You need some colors in here, they would make
you feel better," she flashed Usagi and fake smile and
started wiping dust off the leaves. "I think some red
roses should do it..." the words no more than left her
mouth before she realized what she had done.
Usagi gasped and choked; her tear returning ten fold.
"No-" she coughed out. "No.. roses... Mamo-chan-" the
Princess threw herself down on the bed and continued
to cry into her pillows.
Hotaru stared as Setsuna sat down next to Usagi
and started rubbing her back soothingly. "Usagi-chan,
you must go on... I know how hard it will be. But
you really need to."
Usagi shook her head no and cried harder, shoving
her hand behind her to move Setsuna away from her.
"Leave me alone," she practically screamed.
Setsuna pulled her hand away like it was burning
and stood up. "If you need anything...." she mumbled
and left the room, Hotaru behind her.
~*~ Tsukino Household - two days later ~*~
Ikuko pushed the door to her daughter's bedroom
open and walked in all smiles. In her hands she had a
tray with potato soup and crackers. (AN: I love potato
soup ^^)
"Hello sweetie, you hungry?"
"No."
Ikuko ignored her daughter and sat the tray down
on the desk. "I brought you some soup and crackers."
"I'm not hungry."
"In a couple of hours we have that appointment with
Dr. Calloway, you need to shower first and eat something."
"I said I'm NOT hungry!" Usagi screamed and ran
past her mother.
Ikuko dropped the bowl of soup, splattering it all
over the floor. Tears filled her eyes. "Please Lord, I
want my little girl back..." she whispered, bending
down to clean up the mess.
Luna watched from the bed, her own eyes full of
tears. Resolutely she jumped from the bed and left to
follow Usagi.
An hour later Luna found Usagi in the park, on
the bench that she used to spend the evenings with
Mamoru on. She was looking at the spot he would sit,
tears falling down her face.
Luna jumped up in her lap and started purring.
"Usagi-chan, please stop this. Your torturing yourself,"
the cat informed, worry lining her voice.
Usagi hugged her guardian to her. "Luna, I miss
him so much. My whole body feels so empty without him.
I can't do this... I ache to be near him." Luna said
nothing... only purred louder.
Slowly the sun faded away and Luna realized that
they had sat there all day. "Usagi-chan, didn't you
have an appointment with the doctor today?"
"Hai... I'm not going. They can't help me," she
said sadly, a tear falling off her chin.
Luna started... but said nothing. She knew they
couldn't make Usagi go if she wasn't going to. Usagi
stood. "I.. I need some time by myself. Go on home
without me."
Luna started to protest, but stopped. She knew
where Usagi was going.
Usagi looked back to make sure she wasn't being
followed and started towards Azubu Apartments. Slowly
she went into the elevator and pushed the number twelve.
The doors moved to the side and Usagi went down the
hall, to the forth door on the left. The key in her hand
fit the lock and the door swung open. "Mamo-chan! I'm home!"
~~~~~~~~~~~~
hehe, well - whatcha think? Please email me!! ^^
And just a hint here - if you're reading this on
ASMR, you can get the next chapters earlier in the
week on my web page - Moon Bunny's Closet
http://www.geocities.com/Tokyo/9333
luvs -n- hugs minna-chan!
Bethany
Bethany212@aol.com