This Kiss II
by Elizabeth (CuteDiva)
A/N- This is the second story from my VERY short Roswell series. I usually write Harry Potter fics, but I was suffering from writer's block in that area. Liz has just spent the night with Max, and she can't deny the truth from him anymore. Make sure you have watched the episode where Future Max visits Liz and the episode where Max and Tess go to the Intergallactic Summit before you read this fic. Ciao!
Max watched me carefully, and I came into realization of everything that had happened. Max had come here to test me, to see if I really was over him. Then, I gave in, and we ended up making love. It was the biggest mistake I had ever made, because now I would have to tell him the truth about everything. Or else, I would have to lie, and Max would hate me. But I couldn't be selfish. I couldn't let the world end just in order to pursue an awkward romance with an alien.
"This was a mistake," I repeated, forming a lie in my head. "We both got caught in the moment, and we both know this was wrong-"
"Then how come it wasn't wrong to sleep with Kyle?" Max interrupted, demanding an answer. "You haven't told me the whole story, and i don't think you would ever do that to me."
I was running out of ideas. I had to come up with something quick, or else I would end up squealing everything I knew.
"I slept with Kyle to prove you a point!" I said angrily, coming up with a story. "You and I don't belong together, and you know it!"
I pulled my sheets over me, hiding every inch of my skin.
I felt part of Max now, but I also knew I had done something very wrong. I had lost my virginity. I had put at risk the fate of two worlds. I had also hurt Max. I'd gone against all my morals and all I cared about. I felt tricked, but I knew I was the only one to blame.
"What happened last night was no mistake, and it wasn't just some reckless reaction," Max hissed, not being fooled. He tried to kiss me again, but I pushed him away from me. He took the hint, grabbed his clothes, and left through the window.
I sat there for a moment, stunned at all that had happened. Then, I started to cry. I cried so hard I couldn't control myself. I did the first logical thing I had done over the past few weeks.
I called Maria.
***
"Oh, you poor thing," Maria said to me as we both sat in my room. She hugged me, letting me cry on my shoulder. "To think just a few weeks ago, you told me the truth about you and Kyle, and now, you really did sleep with someone."
"It's all my fault, and now he's going to hate me so much," I said, and started bawling. I was shaking all over. Maria patted my head reassuringly.
"It's all going to be all right," she repeated over and over, hushing me gently. "It's going to be all right."
"I can't believe what I did, I must have been out of my mind!" I said, not being able to be calmed down. "What would my parents think if they knew? What will people say? What if I've changed the future all over again and I bring about the end of the world, just like Future Max said?"
I couldn't be comforted. My mind was a hurricane of negative thoughts and worries that were threatening to consume me, insanity trying to overtake me. My eyes stung from so much crying, and my ears buzzed from reprimanding myself on my own stupidity.
"Dumbass alien men, they're all alike," Maria said, more to herself than to me. She had been through exactly the same thing with Michael, and I could tell me going through this was bringing back bad memories to her.
"I don't know how it happened!" I exclaimed, shaking like a maniac. "He just kissed me, and I missed him so much, and I just lost control and got lost in the moment and, and..." I couldn't say anymore. I started crying again. I could still feel his skin against mine, as if he were still there. I could still remember how he had held me, and treated me like I were fragile, like a porcelain doll. He had been sweet, loving, and as confused as I was. He had a right to know the truth. But, would he believe me?
***
"Oh, hi, Liz!" said Mrs. Evans when she opened the door for me. "C'mon in! Max should be upstairs."
"Thanks, Mrs. Evans." I rushed up to the room, and paused as I was outside the door. I took a deep breath, then opened the door.
"Max?" I asked uncertainly. He was sitting on his bed, looking through his history book. He didn't answer me.
"Can I come in?" I asked again. No answer. I walked in and sat down next to him. He looked at me, crying silently. I bit my lip, then continued to speak. "I'm sorry for everything I said yesterday, and how I acted. It was all my fault." I looked to see if he was listening, but he just sat their and stared.
"I don't know what came over me, and why I did what I did- with, with you. I'm really, really sorry, and I'm ashamed of putting you through this." When I was done talking, he still just sat their, staring. I got creeped out. I grabbed my bag, slowly back way to the door, and had almost closed the door behind me.
"Liz, wait," he finally said to me. I turned around and looked at him, my eyes beginning to water.
"It was all my fault," Max said. "I should have taken your word and not put you in that situation. I risked the friendship we had built, just to test you. I violated your personal space, and made you do something you didn't want to do."
I could see the shame in his eyes. How could I accept his apology, when it was all my fault? How could I look him in the eye, knowing all that I had hidden from him?
Then, I did something that I had been doing a lot over the past few days.
I cried.
"What's wrong?" Max asked, as I buried my face in my hands.
"Oh, Max!" I cried, sobbing. "I didn't really sleep with Kyle! I've never gotten over you! It was all a lie!" The pressure was too much to bear, I couldn't hide no longer.
"Why did you lie?" Max asked quietly.
I just sat there for a while, silently, until I had gathered enough courage to tell him everything. My visit from Future Max. Our plan to make Max forget me. Everything. Max didn't say anything to me. He let me talk, he let me get it all out. He let me cry, and sob, and divulge the entire truth, until my heart ached so much that I lost control of my voice. That's when he uncertainly put his arm around my shoulders. He hugged me, more like a brother than a lover or a friend, and kissed my cheek. His hands felt warm on my face, and I closed my eyes, letting myself be surrounded by him. For a few seconds, I was completely peaceful. Then, Max let go of me, and looked me in the eyes, warmth and guilt dancing in them.
"I had no idea," Max started, his voice shaking, "what you were going through." He hugged me again, his embrace draining out my fears. Then, when we parted, I looked at him, question and confusion being revealed.
"What will happen to us now?" I asked him.
A/N: Ah ha! A true masterpiece, if I do say so myself. I don't know how long this series will be, but I want to read your reviews to know if I should continue it.
by Elizabeth (CuteDiva)
A/N- This is the second story from my VERY short Roswell series. I usually write Harry Potter fics, but I was suffering from writer's block in that area. Liz has just spent the night with Max, and she can't deny the truth from him anymore. Make sure you have watched the episode where Future Max visits Liz and the episode where Max and Tess go to the Intergallactic Summit before you read this fic. Ciao!
Max watched me carefully, and I came into realization of everything that had happened. Max had come here to test me, to see if I really was over him. Then, I gave in, and we ended up making love. It was the biggest mistake I had ever made, because now I would have to tell him the truth about everything. Or else, I would have to lie, and Max would hate me. But I couldn't be selfish. I couldn't let the world end just in order to pursue an awkward romance with an alien.
"This was a mistake," I repeated, forming a lie in my head. "We both got caught in the moment, and we both know this was wrong-"
"Then how come it wasn't wrong to sleep with Kyle?" Max interrupted, demanding an answer. "You haven't told me the whole story, and i don't think you would ever do that to me."
I was running out of ideas. I had to come up with something quick, or else I would end up squealing everything I knew.
"I slept with Kyle to prove you a point!" I said angrily, coming up with a story. "You and I don't belong together, and you know it!"
I pulled my sheets over me, hiding every inch of my skin.
I felt part of Max now, but I also knew I had done something very wrong. I had lost my virginity. I had put at risk the fate of two worlds. I had also hurt Max. I'd gone against all my morals and all I cared about. I felt tricked, but I knew I was the only one to blame.
"What happened last night was no mistake, and it wasn't just some reckless reaction," Max hissed, not being fooled. He tried to kiss me again, but I pushed him away from me. He took the hint, grabbed his clothes, and left through the window.
I sat there for a moment, stunned at all that had happened. Then, I started to cry. I cried so hard I couldn't control myself. I did the first logical thing I had done over the past few weeks.
I called Maria.
***
"Oh, you poor thing," Maria said to me as we both sat in my room. She hugged me, letting me cry on my shoulder. "To think just a few weeks ago, you told me the truth about you and Kyle, and now, you really did sleep with someone."
"It's all my fault, and now he's going to hate me so much," I said, and started bawling. I was shaking all over. Maria patted my head reassuringly.
"It's all going to be all right," she repeated over and over, hushing me gently. "It's going to be all right."
"I can't believe what I did, I must have been out of my mind!" I said, not being able to be calmed down. "What would my parents think if they knew? What will people say? What if I've changed the future all over again and I bring about the end of the world, just like Future Max said?"
I couldn't be comforted. My mind was a hurricane of negative thoughts and worries that were threatening to consume me, insanity trying to overtake me. My eyes stung from so much crying, and my ears buzzed from reprimanding myself on my own stupidity.
"Dumbass alien men, they're all alike," Maria said, more to herself than to me. She had been through exactly the same thing with Michael, and I could tell me going through this was bringing back bad memories to her.
"I don't know how it happened!" I exclaimed, shaking like a maniac. "He just kissed me, and I missed him so much, and I just lost control and got lost in the moment and, and..." I couldn't say anymore. I started crying again. I could still feel his skin against mine, as if he were still there. I could still remember how he had held me, and treated me like I were fragile, like a porcelain doll. He had been sweet, loving, and as confused as I was. He had a right to know the truth. But, would he believe me?
***
"Oh, hi, Liz!" said Mrs. Evans when she opened the door for me. "C'mon in! Max should be upstairs."
"Thanks, Mrs. Evans." I rushed up to the room, and paused as I was outside the door. I took a deep breath, then opened the door.
"Max?" I asked uncertainly. He was sitting on his bed, looking through his history book. He didn't answer me.
"Can I come in?" I asked again. No answer. I walked in and sat down next to him. He looked at me, crying silently. I bit my lip, then continued to speak. "I'm sorry for everything I said yesterday, and how I acted. It was all my fault." I looked to see if he was listening, but he just sat their and stared.
"I don't know what came over me, and why I did what I did- with, with you. I'm really, really sorry, and I'm ashamed of putting you through this." When I was done talking, he still just sat their, staring. I got creeped out. I grabbed my bag, slowly back way to the door, and had almost closed the door behind me.
"Liz, wait," he finally said to me. I turned around and looked at him, my eyes beginning to water.
"It was all my fault," Max said. "I should have taken your word and not put you in that situation. I risked the friendship we had built, just to test you. I violated your personal space, and made you do something you didn't want to do."
I could see the shame in his eyes. How could I accept his apology, when it was all my fault? How could I look him in the eye, knowing all that I had hidden from him?
Then, I did something that I had been doing a lot over the past few days.
I cried.
"What's wrong?" Max asked, as I buried my face in my hands.
"Oh, Max!" I cried, sobbing. "I didn't really sleep with Kyle! I've never gotten over you! It was all a lie!" The pressure was too much to bear, I couldn't hide no longer.
"Why did you lie?" Max asked quietly.
I just sat there for a while, silently, until I had gathered enough courage to tell him everything. My visit from Future Max. Our plan to make Max forget me. Everything. Max didn't say anything to me. He let me talk, he let me get it all out. He let me cry, and sob, and divulge the entire truth, until my heart ached so much that I lost control of my voice. That's when he uncertainly put his arm around my shoulders. He hugged me, more like a brother than a lover or a friend, and kissed my cheek. His hands felt warm on my face, and I closed my eyes, letting myself be surrounded by him. For a few seconds, I was completely peaceful. Then, Max let go of me, and looked me in the eyes, warmth and guilt dancing in them.
"I had no idea," Max started, his voice shaking, "what you were going through." He hugged me again, his embrace draining out my fears. Then, when we parted, I looked at him, question and confusion being revealed.
"What will happen to us now?" I asked him.
A/N: Ah ha! A true masterpiece, if I do say so myself. I don't know how long this series will be, but I want to read your reviews to know if I should continue it.