Okay as usual I don't own the characters or the song which is Full of Grace by Sarah McLachlan.
I know this isn't very strong. But I needed something to write to lead them up to the next part which will be the final chapter of this little saga. In this chapter Harry is pretty stupid still and doesn't realize he said something really really wrong to Ginny. He thinks Ginny hates him cuz he almost kissed her. Well r/r people. Thanks for the support so far. Love y'all
Chapter 4
Harry sat in the library thinking, not about the history paper he was supposed to be writing, but about Ginny. A month ago at Christmas he had almost kissed her and now it seemed as if she was avoiding him like the plague. He knew he had done something wrong when he tried to kiss her. He scared her away. Who was he kidding when he decided he wanted to fall in love with her. She had never really loved him, she had only a school-girl crush on him, because he was the famous Harry Potter. She had gotten over that crush and moved on with her life. And now because he was a stupid git, he scared her off because he couldn't hide his feelings for her.
That's what made these past few months the worst. She wouldn't even look at him. Everytime she saw him coming she would turn the other way. No words were spoken between the two since that night. It hurt him more than he would admit, even to himself. He had nothing to take his mind off of her, not even homework could. Quidditch could've taken his mind her maybe. But this winter was particularly bad, Snow storms happened almost everynight. On the nights it didn't snow the wind blew ruthlessly, it whisled through the castle too, making it cold almost everywhere. Harry, like the rest of the students was dressed in layers to keep the cold out, but it was still there, nothing helped. He felt cold on the inside, close to his heart and it was because she wouldn't talk to him, or even look at him.
(The winter here's cold and bitter
It's chilled us to the bone
We haven't seen the sun for weeks
Too long too far from home.)
"Why does she do this to me," Harry thought. "Why do I love her? I feel like I need her. It's almost as if I can't function without her." He threw down his quill getting fed up with this or that Goblin rebellion. His mind couldn't stay there. When he looked down all he saw was Ginny's red hair, and the way it smelled. He closed his thinking about Ginny's own brown eyes. Her soft lips. He sighed deeply. This wasn't helping he needed to concentrate. Ginny wasn't even in the picture since she wasn't even talking to him right now. "I need to move on, I need to get her out of my mind. Who am I kidding, I need her." He put his head and arms down on the table. "Too bad she doesn't need me."
(I feel just like I'm sinking
And I claw for solid ground
I'm pulled down by the under to
I never thought I could feel so low
Oh darkness I feel like letting go.)
"I need to let her go. It's not healthy for me or her, if I stare longingly at her. If she's in my mind nothing else is, I have to push her out. She doesn't need this, a freak with a scar, looking at her with puppy dog eyes every 15 minutes. I just need to find something to get her out of my mind. I need to let her go. We'll all be happier." He laughed a little. "Yeah that's easier said that done." Harry looked down at his paper again. He knew it would take ever ounce of strenght he had to make him concentrate on it. But there she was again, is mind making him see a perfect image of her. If only he could stop thinking about her, could stop loving her. He thought that she would never love him back the way that he loved her. Maybe by letting her go he could love her much better. If he did that he wouldn't make her feel uncomfortable by trying to kiss her. She wouldn't have to go out of her way to stay away from him. She could just be Ginny again, even if it isn't the Ginny who had a crush on him so long ago. Even if it isn't the Ginny who worshiped the ground he walked on. Even though it hurt him that Ginny didn't love him, he liked this Ginny much better. The Ginny who was his friend, not the Ginny that hero-worshiped him. But now cuz he almost kissed her... she wasn't even Ginny the friend anymore. But if he gave up these stupid fantasies about loving her, maybe he could get that Ginny back.
(If all of the strengh and all of the courage
Come and lift me from this place
I know I could love you much better than this
Full of grace
Full of grace
My love)
Just as Harry was about to get up and find Ginny, Hermione ploped own in the chair across from him. "Hiya, Harry, working on the History of Magic paper I see. I was going to just read over mine. Did you want me to proofread yours too?"
Harry looked down at his empty parchment. "Erm... I seem not to have gotten a lot done."
Hermione also looked at his work. "Oy I see that." Then she looked a little closer at Harry. "Is something wrong?"
Harry sighed and tried to hide that something was on his mind, but Hermione knew better than that. So she poked and poked until he finally let her know what was going on. And to Harry's relief he felt a little better after talking about it. Especially to Hermione, who was smark and would know what to do.
"So you almost kissed her at Christmas, and she hasn't spoken to you since?" asked Hermione in a calm voice.
Harry looked at her wondering why she didn't look so shocked that he seemed to be in love with Ron's little sister. "Hermione, aren't you shocked that this happened, you know me falling in love with Ginny?"
Hermione smiled a little. "Oh Harry I figured that out ages ago. I saw you looking over at her. Although I was a little confused after I saw you guys not talking this last month. But now I know what happened. Did anything else happen Christmas night?"
Harry looked thoughtful for a minute. "Well I left kind of quickly. Do you reckon I should've stayed and talked to her a bit more?"
Hermione, just sat and thought for a minute.
"Well that's okay, I was just going to find her and talk to her about it. Apologize a lot and all that. Maybe then we could be friends again." Harry said. "I just have to learn not to love her, that's all. I mean, it would probably just end up like what happened with Cho and I, we'd get together and fight constantly. And I just can't risk losing my friendship with Ginny cuz I have these stupid feelings for her right?" Harry continued to just rattle on, he didn't realize that Hermione wasn't really listening to him, that she seemed to be off in her own little world thinking about Harry's predicament.
(So it's better this way, I said
Having seen this place before
Where everything you said and did
Hurts us all the more
It's just that we stayed, too long
In this same old sickly skin
I'm pulled down by the undertow,
I never thought I could feel so low
Oh darkness I feel like letting go)
Hermione just jumped up and said quickly, "Harry promise me you won't talk to Ginny just yet. Wait say a week or two?"
Harry looked confused, "Why Her-"
Hermione looked exasperated. "Oh Harry, I'm smart, just listen to me for once, will you."
A little dazed and confused, Harry nodded back.
With that Hermione, siftly left the library leaving Harry alone with his questions. She had an idea. She knew in her heart that Harry and Ginny were fated to be together. It just seems that fate needed a little push from time to time. In two weeks there would be a Valentine's Day Dance at Hogwarts. With Ron's help, she could give Harry the courage and strenght he needed to confront Ginny with his feelings. The only problem was, was how on Earth were they going to do it without Harry realizing it.
(If all of the strenght
And all of the courage
Come and lift me from this place
I know I could love you much better than this
Full of grace
Full of grace
My love)
I know this isn't very strong. But I needed something to write to lead them up to the next part which will be the final chapter of this little saga. In this chapter Harry is pretty stupid still and doesn't realize he said something really really wrong to Ginny. He thinks Ginny hates him cuz he almost kissed her. Well r/r people. Thanks for the support so far. Love y'all
Chapter 4
Harry sat in the library thinking, not about the history paper he was supposed to be writing, but about Ginny. A month ago at Christmas he had almost kissed her and now it seemed as if she was avoiding him like the plague. He knew he had done something wrong when he tried to kiss her. He scared her away. Who was he kidding when he decided he wanted to fall in love with her. She had never really loved him, she had only a school-girl crush on him, because he was the famous Harry Potter. She had gotten over that crush and moved on with her life. And now because he was a stupid git, he scared her off because he couldn't hide his feelings for her.
That's what made these past few months the worst. She wouldn't even look at him. Everytime she saw him coming she would turn the other way. No words were spoken between the two since that night. It hurt him more than he would admit, even to himself. He had nothing to take his mind off of her, not even homework could. Quidditch could've taken his mind her maybe. But this winter was particularly bad, Snow storms happened almost everynight. On the nights it didn't snow the wind blew ruthlessly, it whisled through the castle too, making it cold almost everywhere. Harry, like the rest of the students was dressed in layers to keep the cold out, but it was still there, nothing helped. He felt cold on the inside, close to his heart and it was because she wouldn't talk to him, or even look at him.
(The winter here's cold and bitter
It's chilled us to the bone
We haven't seen the sun for weeks
Too long too far from home.)
"Why does she do this to me," Harry thought. "Why do I love her? I feel like I need her. It's almost as if I can't function without her." He threw down his quill getting fed up with this or that Goblin rebellion. His mind couldn't stay there. When he looked down all he saw was Ginny's red hair, and the way it smelled. He closed his thinking about Ginny's own brown eyes. Her soft lips. He sighed deeply. This wasn't helping he needed to concentrate. Ginny wasn't even in the picture since she wasn't even talking to him right now. "I need to move on, I need to get her out of my mind. Who am I kidding, I need her." He put his head and arms down on the table. "Too bad she doesn't need me."
(I feel just like I'm sinking
And I claw for solid ground
I'm pulled down by the under to
I never thought I could feel so low
Oh darkness I feel like letting go.)
"I need to let her go. It's not healthy for me or her, if I stare longingly at her. If she's in my mind nothing else is, I have to push her out. She doesn't need this, a freak with a scar, looking at her with puppy dog eyes every 15 minutes. I just need to find something to get her out of my mind. I need to let her go. We'll all be happier." He laughed a little. "Yeah that's easier said that done." Harry looked down at his paper again. He knew it would take ever ounce of strenght he had to make him concentrate on it. But there she was again, is mind making him see a perfect image of her. If only he could stop thinking about her, could stop loving her. He thought that she would never love him back the way that he loved her. Maybe by letting her go he could love her much better. If he did that he wouldn't make her feel uncomfortable by trying to kiss her. She wouldn't have to go out of her way to stay away from him. She could just be Ginny again, even if it isn't the Ginny who had a crush on him so long ago. Even if it isn't the Ginny who worshiped the ground he walked on. Even though it hurt him that Ginny didn't love him, he liked this Ginny much better. The Ginny who was his friend, not the Ginny that hero-worshiped him. But now cuz he almost kissed her... she wasn't even Ginny the friend anymore. But if he gave up these stupid fantasies about loving her, maybe he could get that Ginny back.
(If all of the strengh and all of the courage
Come and lift me from this place
I know I could love you much better than this
Full of grace
Full of grace
My love)
Just as Harry was about to get up and find Ginny, Hermione ploped own in the chair across from him. "Hiya, Harry, working on the History of Magic paper I see. I was going to just read over mine. Did you want me to proofread yours too?"
Harry looked down at his empty parchment. "Erm... I seem not to have gotten a lot done."
Hermione also looked at his work. "Oy I see that." Then she looked a little closer at Harry. "Is something wrong?"
Harry sighed and tried to hide that something was on his mind, but Hermione knew better than that. So she poked and poked until he finally let her know what was going on. And to Harry's relief he felt a little better after talking about it. Especially to Hermione, who was smark and would know what to do.
"So you almost kissed her at Christmas, and she hasn't spoken to you since?" asked Hermione in a calm voice.
Harry looked at her wondering why she didn't look so shocked that he seemed to be in love with Ron's little sister. "Hermione, aren't you shocked that this happened, you know me falling in love with Ginny?"
Hermione smiled a little. "Oh Harry I figured that out ages ago. I saw you looking over at her. Although I was a little confused after I saw you guys not talking this last month. But now I know what happened. Did anything else happen Christmas night?"
Harry looked thoughtful for a minute. "Well I left kind of quickly. Do you reckon I should've stayed and talked to her a bit more?"
Hermione, just sat and thought for a minute.
"Well that's okay, I was just going to find her and talk to her about it. Apologize a lot and all that. Maybe then we could be friends again." Harry said. "I just have to learn not to love her, that's all. I mean, it would probably just end up like what happened with Cho and I, we'd get together and fight constantly. And I just can't risk losing my friendship with Ginny cuz I have these stupid feelings for her right?" Harry continued to just rattle on, he didn't realize that Hermione wasn't really listening to him, that she seemed to be off in her own little world thinking about Harry's predicament.
(So it's better this way, I said
Having seen this place before
Where everything you said and did
Hurts us all the more
It's just that we stayed, too long
In this same old sickly skin
I'm pulled down by the undertow,
I never thought I could feel so low
Oh darkness I feel like letting go)
Hermione just jumped up and said quickly, "Harry promise me you won't talk to Ginny just yet. Wait say a week or two?"
Harry looked confused, "Why Her-"
Hermione looked exasperated. "Oh Harry, I'm smart, just listen to me for once, will you."
A little dazed and confused, Harry nodded back.
With that Hermione, siftly left the library leaving Harry alone with his questions. She had an idea. She knew in her heart that Harry and Ginny were fated to be together. It just seems that fate needed a little push from time to time. In two weeks there would be a Valentine's Day Dance at Hogwarts. With Ron's help, she could give Harry the courage and strenght he needed to confront Ginny with his feelings. The only problem was, was how on Earth were they going to do it without Harry realizing it.
(If all of the strenght
And all of the courage
Come and lift me from this place
I know I could love you much better than this
Full of grace
Full of grace
My love)