Here we are.. by the forth chapter if you are
still reading Authors notes.. Kami bless you *HUGS*
As always one million and two thanks to my
editor Meara, and HUGE thanks to everyone who
emails me **HUGS** love you all!
Usual disclaimers and all that jazz here...
Go read!
Luvs,
Bethany ^^
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Usagi is so very alone within herself,
so silent and lost. The light inside her,
the light that gave us all hope is dying,
even as I watch and there is nothing I can
do about it. She and Mamoru-san were one
soul in two bodies. Now half of her is gone
forever and she is wounded; perhaps fatally.
Kami-sama, guide me. How do I help my
Princess? I will always be at her side to
protect her. But will that be enough?
-Michiru.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Don't Let Me Go: Dreams
Chapter: 4 of Insanity
By: Bethany
Edited by: Meara
Rated: Pg? yeah, whatevea
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Clutching a rose scented pillow to her
chest, Usagi tossed and turned in her sleep.
Every now and again her voice would break and
she would call for Mamoru.
Luna watched her ward worriedly. "Poor
Usagi-chan... I wish I could help you."
Finally the tossing stopped and Usagi
cuddled deeper into the warmth of Mamoru's bed.
~*~ Dreams ~*~
A rose was laid before her, and Usagi
looked up at a pair of deep blue eyes. "Mamo-chan?
What are you doing here?" The day had been ended
wonderfully when Haruna-sensi had gave Usagi
detention for being late to class. Usagi wanted
to argue that it wasn't her fault that Mamoru
had kept her "occupied." But she knew better and
took her punishment with sagging shoulders.
"I had a little chat with your teacher, and
assured her it was not your fault you were late.
Now, would you like to come with me?"
The day was Valentine's Day - a beautiful,
chilly day that had delivered her a beautiful bouquet
of roses; sent right to the school from Mamoru. She
slipped one hand around the vase of roses and
clutched her school bag in her other. "Gladly."
After stopping to leave her roses and bag in his
car, the couple walked through the park hand in hand.
"Usako, we need to talk."
The blonde dithered and became uncomfortable with
the seriousness in her boyfriend's voice. "What is
it Mamo-chan?" she asked uneasily.
He remained silent and sat down on a bench.
Suddenly, with no warning at all, he pulled her down
into his lap and wrapped his arms tightly around her
waist. Mamoru wasn't normally a man who liked to show
affection in public, so this was a huge surprise to the
bunny on his lap. "What are you up to?" she joked, an
eyebrow raising up.
"Nothing," he shrugged, trying to ease the tension
out of her body. "Just wanted to hold you, is that so bad?"
Still looking quiet perplexed about his sudden
change in attitude, Usagi smiled briefly. "No, not bad...
just strange."
"Now your saying I'm strange?"
"No!" She yelped as he brought her closer and kissed
her cheek gently. "Now I KNOW your up to something."
"Usako, we do need to talk."
Almost satisfied that he wasn't going to dump her,
Usagi laid her head on his shoulder. "What do we need to
talk about?"
"You remember the essay I sent in a couple of months
ago, to that college in America?"
Usagi knitted her eyebrows together. "Hai, I remember,"
she answered after a few moments.
"Well, I got a letter back from them today. I was
accepted," He said it so quietly that if Usagi hadn't
been so close to his mouth, she wouldn't have heard it
at all.
"You've been accepted? You're going to school at
Harvard?" she asked, her voice rising with each word. "My
boyfriend is going to go to college at one of the best
schools in the world?! I'm so happy for you!" she squealed,
wrapping her slender arms around his neck.
Mamoru smiled sadly at her and returned the hug. "Yeah,
it's great. What I've always wanted."
Noting the sadness in his voice, the small girl
looked him in the eyes. "What? What's wrong?"
"I'll be leaving soon, Usako. For two years."
The smile on her lips almost faded before she caught
herself. "But that's what you've always wanted to do, you
should go. Don't.. don't worry about me. I'll always be
here, waiting for you."
A single tear got past her defenses and she
rubbed it away harshly, angry at herself for letting
Mamoru see it. "Usako, I promise, this will be the
last time I leave you alone. After I get that degree
we can be together forever."
"Forever..." she mouthed automatically.
"I'll be able to be a doctor, and make a good
life for you...for us," he continued, rocking slightly
back and forth. "I want to take care of you."
Usagi cuddled up deeper into the notch of
Mamoru's neck and placed a kiss there. "You'll be
back, I know you will."
"Hai, and when I come back I'll bring you a dozen
of every color rose. One each day until you have so many
roses that you will drown in them," he said lightly,
chuckling at the thought.
"But you only make red roses, ne?"
"Don't worry Usako, you'll get all your
heart's ever desired."
"All it desires is you," she said softly,
leaning up so she could peer into his eyes. "And
some ice cream."
He laughed joyously at her and kissed her
forehead. "Then let's go see if we can get you that
ice cream." Taking her hand, they walked back to
the Crown Cafe.
~*~ End Dream ~*~
Usagi tossed once more and threw her arm
over the edge of the bed. "Oh Mamo-chan, all I
ever wanted was you."
Luna fixed her eyes on the ring adorning Usagi's
left finger. "I wish you could have him, Usagi-chan.
Kami, but I wish you could."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`
short? yes.
off subject? probably.
Does it have a point? I hope so ^^
email! email is your friend! email is MY friend!
Email is GOOD! ^_^
Bethany212@aol.com
Luva!
Bethany
still reading Authors notes.. Kami bless you *HUGS*
As always one million and two thanks to my
editor Meara, and HUGE thanks to everyone who
emails me **HUGS** love you all!
Usual disclaimers and all that jazz here...
Go read!
Luvs,
Bethany ^^
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Usagi is so very alone within herself,
so silent and lost. The light inside her,
the light that gave us all hope is dying,
even as I watch and there is nothing I can
do about it. She and Mamoru-san were one
soul in two bodies. Now half of her is gone
forever and she is wounded; perhaps fatally.
Kami-sama, guide me. How do I help my
Princess? I will always be at her side to
protect her. But will that be enough?
-Michiru.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Don't Let Me Go: Dreams
Chapter: 4 of Insanity
By: Bethany
Edited by: Meara
Rated: Pg? yeah, whatevea
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Clutching a rose scented pillow to her
chest, Usagi tossed and turned in her sleep.
Every now and again her voice would break and
she would call for Mamoru.
Luna watched her ward worriedly. "Poor
Usagi-chan... I wish I could help you."
Finally the tossing stopped and Usagi
cuddled deeper into the warmth of Mamoru's bed.
~*~ Dreams ~*~
A rose was laid before her, and Usagi
looked up at a pair of deep blue eyes. "Mamo-chan?
What are you doing here?" The day had been ended
wonderfully when Haruna-sensi had gave Usagi
detention for being late to class. Usagi wanted
to argue that it wasn't her fault that Mamoru
had kept her "occupied." But she knew better and
took her punishment with sagging shoulders.
"I had a little chat with your teacher, and
assured her it was not your fault you were late.
Now, would you like to come with me?"
The day was Valentine's Day - a beautiful,
chilly day that had delivered her a beautiful bouquet
of roses; sent right to the school from Mamoru. She
slipped one hand around the vase of roses and
clutched her school bag in her other. "Gladly."
After stopping to leave her roses and bag in his
car, the couple walked through the park hand in hand.
"Usako, we need to talk."
The blonde dithered and became uncomfortable with
the seriousness in her boyfriend's voice. "What is
it Mamo-chan?" she asked uneasily.
He remained silent and sat down on a bench.
Suddenly, with no warning at all, he pulled her down
into his lap and wrapped his arms tightly around her
waist. Mamoru wasn't normally a man who liked to show
affection in public, so this was a huge surprise to the
bunny on his lap. "What are you up to?" she joked, an
eyebrow raising up.
"Nothing," he shrugged, trying to ease the tension
out of her body. "Just wanted to hold you, is that so bad?"
Still looking quiet perplexed about his sudden
change in attitude, Usagi smiled briefly. "No, not bad...
just strange."
"Now your saying I'm strange?"
"No!" She yelped as he brought her closer and kissed
her cheek gently. "Now I KNOW your up to something."
"Usako, we do need to talk."
Almost satisfied that he wasn't going to dump her,
Usagi laid her head on his shoulder. "What do we need to
talk about?"
"You remember the essay I sent in a couple of months
ago, to that college in America?"
Usagi knitted her eyebrows together. "Hai, I remember,"
she answered after a few moments.
"Well, I got a letter back from them today. I was
accepted," He said it so quietly that if Usagi hadn't
been so close to his mouth, she wouldn't have heard it
at all.
"You've been accepted? You're going to school at
Harvard?" she asked, her voice rising with each word. "My
boyfriend is going to go to college at one of the best
schools in the world?! I'm so happy for you!" she squealed,
wrapping her slender arms around his neck.
Mamoru smiled sadly at her and returned the hug. "Yeah,
it's great. What I've always wanted."
Noting the sadness in his voice, the small girl
looked him in the eyes. "What? What's wrong?"
"I'll be leaving soon, Usako. For two years."
The smile on her lips almost faded before she caught
herself. "But that's what you've always wanted to do, you
should go. Don't.. don't worry about me. I'll always be
here, waiting for you."
A single tear got past her defenses and she
rubbed it away harshly, angry at herself for letting
Mamoru see it. "Usako, I promise, this will be the
last time I leave you alone. After I get that degree
we can be together forever."
"Forever..." she mouthed automatically.
"I'll be able to be a doctor, and make a good
life for you...for us," he continued, rocking slightly
back and forth. "I want to take care of you."
Usagi cuddled up deeper into the notch of
Mamoru's neck and placed a kiss there. "You'll be
back, I know you will."
"Hai, and when I come back I'll bring you a dozen
of every color rose. One each day until you have so many
roses that you will drown in them," he said lightly,
chuckling at the thought.
"But you only make red roses, ne?"
"Don't worry Usako, you'll get all your
heart's ever desired."
"All it desires is you," she said softly,
leaning up so she could peer into his eyes. "And
some ice cream."
He laughed joyously at her and kissed her
forehead. "Then let's go see if we can get you that
ice cream." Taking her hand, they walked back to
the Crown Cafe.
~*~ End Dream ~*~
Usagi tossed once more and threw her arm
over the edge of the bed. "Oh Mamo-chan, all I
ever wanted was you."
Luna fixed her eyes on the ring adorning Usagi's
left finger. "I wish you could have him, Usagi-chan.
Kami, but I wish you could."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`
short? yes.
off subject? probably.
Does it have a point? I hope so ^^
email! email is your friend! email is MY friend!
Email is GOOD! ^_^
Bethany212@aol.com
Luva!
Bethany