Love Me or Hate Me, I'm still Kari Kamiya
Kari's POV
I sat on my bed. I was way too tired from school. I liked making people happy. I rather not see anyone hurt because of me. So I just bottled in my feelings. My desires. It sort of bottled up inside until I was sinking into the "Dark Ocean". No one realized the true power of the "Dark Ocean". I was no longer the bearer of light. Just like it changed Ken's digivice to the black d3, it changed me. In a way I can't explain. I'm still Kari, more or less. I feel what Kari feels. We are...I mean I am concerned about others. Kari would be sensitive to that. However, I'm different. I try too hard to please everyone. TK, Davis, my brother Tai, my parents. Of course the only one I end up hurting is myself. Why can't I live for a change? I want to make everyone happy, but its always at my cost. Now I hurt Willace. On the way back from school...I won't even get into it. I gave into making myself happy. I indulged in love-less passion with a boy head over heels for me. He's such a sweet boy too, the boy I wanted to please the most. He deserved pleasing. Some days I think he's the only one that could make me feel good and make all the worries go away. And he always does, even when he's not around. I curl up in my bed with covers pulled down, slide my hands down my shorts and between my legs. I close my eyes and pictures his. He has light clear aqua eyes. What a cutie.
I moaned and quivered. Almost a bit too loud. Then came a knock at the door. Dammit! That just ruined my moment. Tai must have came home from soccer practice early.
"What is it?" I called hoping no one heard me."
"Can I come in?"
"Yeah, I was just napping." I said, hiding my irritation.
"Hey Kari, practice got rained out. Usually coach would just make up run in the rain, but today he told us to hit the showers. So you wanna order a pizza? Mom and Dad are going to be late again." he said.
"No I'm not hungry." I said. "I just want some alone time. I'm sort of tired. I might be coming down with something." I lied. If there were anything I was coming down with, it would probably be the love bug.
"Alright, but I'm getting cheese and sausage. Hey Kari, I've been meaning to have a heart to heart talk with you." he started. Oh no. "You know, bro to sis. Is something the matter? Cause you've been acting strange lately. Listen you can tell me anything."
I most certainly can not tell him everything. Especially my feeling for Willace. I hope I wasn't falling in love with him. That would really suck. The best thing to do was to play along with Tai.
"Is it about a certain blonde haired boy?" Tai pried some more. I nodded. "Well, I see, you're getting to that age where you're interested in boys your own age, or even older, but your still young and you have to take it easy."
"Yeah, I know what your saying Tai. But didn't you and Sora...."
"Yeah, well so what? Sora and I have known each other since tots and we've always been close." Tai stopped in his tracks to the next sentence. "I see what you mean. You've known TK just as long."
"You know, Tai, you've been a great help. It's great to finally get my crush of my chest. You're the best." I smiled. How much more of this discussion could I take?
"Well, anything Kari. What are big brothers for." He grinned. I'm sure he's gonna pat himself on the back and nominate himself brother of the year. Don't get me wrong. I love Tai, but face it, I need my space. Tai was finally getting up and leaving. I gave a sigh of relief
"Tai?" I called. "I'll have my half with anchovies and olives." I gave my fakest academy award-winning smile.
"Sure thing sis. If I don't puke." he gave a cute teasing big brother sneer.
"Its for Gatomon." Tai nodded and left shutting the door.
Thank goodness.
My mind drifted back to Willace. His blonde hair. He's so meek, yet strong. I enjoy holding him tight to me. I felt my skin tingle as my nipples hardened. I looked down and noticed I was feeling moist. Shamefully, I got up and closed my bedroom door and locked it.
To be continued....
Kari's POV
I sat on my bed. I was way too tired from school. I liked making people happy. I rather not see anyone hurt because of me. So I just bottled in my feelings. My desires. It sort of bottled up inside until I was sinking into the "Dark Ocean". No one realized the true power of the "Dark Ocean". I was no longer the bearer of light. Just like it changed Ken's digivice to the black d3, it changed me. In a way I can't explain. I'm still Kari, more or less. I feel what Kari feels. We are...I mean I am concerned about others. Kari would be sensitive to that. However, I'm different. I try too hard to please everyone. TK, Davis, my brother Tai, my parents. Of course the only one I end up hurting is myself. Why can't I live for a change? I want to make everyone happy, but its always at my cost. Now I hurt Willace. On the way back from school...I won't even get into it. I gave into making myself happy. I indulged in love-less passion with a boy head over heels for me. He's such a sweet boy too, the boy I wanted to please the most. He deserved pleasing. Some days I think he's the only one that could make me feel good and make all the worries go away. And he always does, even when he's not around. I curl up in my bed with covers pulled down, slide my hands down my shorts and between my legs. I close my eyes and pictures his. He has light clear aqua eyes. What a cutie.
I moaned and quivered. Almost a bit too loud. Then came a knock at the door. Dammit! That just ruined my moment. Tai must have came home from soccer practice early.
"What is it?" I called hoping no one heard me."
"Can I come in?"
"Yeah, I was just napping." I said, hiding my irritation.
"Hey Kari, practice got rained out. Usually coach would just make up run in the rain, but today he told us to hit the showers. So you wanna order a pizza? Mom and Dad are going to be late again." he said.
"No I'm not hungry." I said. "I just want some alone time. I'm sort of tired. I might be coming down with something." I lied. If there were anything I was coming down with, it would probably be the love bug.
"Alright, but I'm getting cheese and sausage. Hey Kari, I've been meaning to have a heart to heart talk with you." he started. Oh no. "You know, bro to sis. Is something the matter? Cause you've been acting strange lately. Listen you can tell me anything."
I most certainly can not tell him everything. Especially my feeling for Willace. I hope I wasn't falling in love with him. That would really suck. The best thing to do was to play along with Tai.
"Is it about a certain blonde haired boy?" Tai pried some more. I nodded. "Well, I see, you're getting to that age where you're interested in boys your own age, or even older, but your still young and you have to take it easy."
"Yeah, I know what your saying Tai. But didn't you and Sora...."
"Yeah, well so what? Sora and I have known each other since tots and we've always been close." Tai stopped in his tracks to the next sentence. "I see what you mean. You've known TK just as long."
"You know, Tai, you've been a great help. It's great to finally get my crush of my chest. You're the best." I smiled. How much more of this discussion could I take?
"Well, anything Kari. What are big brothers for." He grinned. I'm sure he's gonna pat himself on the back and nominate himself brother of the year. Don't get me wrong. I love Tai, but face it, I need my space. Tai was finally getting up and leaving. I gave a sigh of relief
"Tai?" I called. "I'll have my half with anchovies and olives." I gave my fakest academy award-winning smile.
"Sure thing sis. If I don't puke." he gave a cute teasing big brother sneer.
"Its for Gatomon." Tai nodded and left shutting the door.
Thank goodness.
My mind drifted back to Willace. His blonde hair. He's so meek, yet strong. I enjoy holding him tight to me. I felt my skin tingle as my nipples hardened. I looked down and noticed I was feeling moist. Shamefully, I got up and closed my bedroom door and locked it.
To be continued....