Wouldn't be great if it were True?
Kari's POV
I ran over to Izzy's hang out as soon as I left TK's apartment. It was nearest place that had a computer. It was an electronic cafe. Complete with coffee service and more importantly computer terminals. I tried to leave TK in a peaceful manor. I tried to be his friend. Fuck him, if he hated me now. Nevertheless, I lost my dearest and oldest friend. I couldn't help but want to cry. This is what happens when you toy with people's feelings. I dashed into the electronic cafe and sat at the terminal in the back of the room. It was a private both. "Digiport Open" I whispered. Suddenly I was in the digiworld. I marched through the digital world without my protector, Gatomon. I ran and ran until I found another d-terminal. I found the monitor embedded in a side of a canyon. I looked down the canyon and pulled my d3 out. It was the to Colorado. Taking a leap of faith. I jumped the canyon ledge from my side and slide into the d-terminal before smacking the canyon wall.
Though, for days, I wanted to leave him, the more I tried, the harder it was. Finally, I just gave up. It was better to realize I just love the stupid oaf than to fool myself otherwise.
I looked around and found trees and sorts. I ran as fast as I could until I found Willace's house. Still panting, I knocked on the front door. Frantically, i straightened out my appearance.
"Why hello, Kari." said Wilace's mom.
"Good day, Pam. Can Willace come out and play?" I asked.
"I'm sorry, Willace is sick. He hasn't eaten in days." she said
"Can I see him? I'm not worried about catching what he got. Its really important."
"I'm sorry, he doesn't want to be bothered now." she said. She had a whole different look about her. Maybe Willace told her how I broke his heart. The last time I saw him, I told him I wasn't ready to love anyone and yet I still managed to force him to lay me. No, she was just being a concerned mother. If she had known, she would have gave me a stern lecture before requesting I never returned.
"Did he say why?" I asked.
"He said he was feeling melancholy and I assume it has something to do with your relationship. Willace hasn't had many friends growing up. His best friends are these silly stuffed rabbits he carries around. I don't know what you did, but he won't talk to me like he used to. He used to be able to tell me everything. I'm sorry if I sound a bit detrimental. Honestly, I've never seen him like this. Was it something between you two?"
"Yes, it was my fault. I hurt him because I was too afraid to get close. But I need to see him. I need to tell him how I feel. I want to tell him I love him and I want to be with him always. Please, let me talk to him. I'm madly in love with him."
"I think Willace just needs some time."
"Okay, sorry to bother you." I said. Suddenly I don't know why, but I sniffled a bit and it built up until I sobbed. All right, so I faked it, but I was getting desperate.
"There, there, Kari, I know, Willace means a lot to you. Why don't you come in and grab some tissues and I'll go see if he's up."
"Thank you." I nodded and sniffled some more. If there is one thing I know how to do, was get what I wanted. I wanted Willace.
Willace's mom signaled an okay sign to me from down the all after she peaked in his room. I walked nervously to his room and knocked on it.
"Its open, mom." I heard. There was a sound from his room that sounded like a handball being tossed against the wall. I entered.
"Hi Willace." I said.
"Sure. Whatever." he said lying on his bed and tossing the ball at the wall.
"Hey, don't be like that." I said. "I came to tell you that I choose to be with you. I told TK and Davis to just be my friends. TK, hates me now. You're the one I want now."
"So I was just a last resort to you?" he said dryly.
"No, I told Him I couldn't see anymore. I told him I loved someone else. I'm madly in love with you Willace." I pleased. Then I laid beside him on the bed and snuggled to him. he pushed me away at first and but then he stopped resisting and I rested my head on him. I brushed my cheeks against his chest and then worked my way up to his neck.
"Stop Kari."
"Stop what?" I said gently and started sucking on his ear lobes.
"K-k-Kari." he said pushing me away. "I think we should talk."
"I'm listening, honey.
"Not here, I know just the place." he said seriously. "Mom, I'm gonna step out side for awhile, I think I need some fresh air."
"What Willace, honey?" she called from downstairs
"I said, I'm gonna get some ionized-oxygenation." I said.
"Oh, why didn't you just say you needed some fresh air?" she called. "Be home quarter to, and button up its gonna get cold after sun down. Make sure you bring Kari back for diner." Willace was turning red, but he slid into his disheveled and untied snickers on and we both walked out into the wilderness.
I held Willaces hand as he led me up a rocky path.
I sat on top of Willace's lap. He was sitting against a rock that looked over a cliff. It was a ledge that encompassed the forestry and lake that was basically Willace's back yard. I straddled over both his legs facing him. He looked at the ground often. Maybe he was nervous when I started at him. Once and a while our eyes would lock up.
I genuinely wanted him. He was everything to me. My sanity, I mean I fought myself days over the idea of actually falling for someone. My goodness and light was all I wanted to show because of him. This is why I wanted him to go away. I think we both needed each other, but I didn't want to need anyone. I like my independence and not having others worry about me.
"Kari?" he asked. "you wanna...I mean is that why you're here? Because we can, I don't care anymore. Its just sex."
"I think we shouldn't do it so much." I said distantly. Most of the time I'd be the one to ask, but Willace was always eager. He was a randy little boy.
"Oh...okay Kari" he said staring at the lake below us. The sun reflected off the water like tiny rubies. I've seen enough sunsets by the water to not have to see it. I liked the warmth from Willace. I closed my eyes and hugged him. Finally, I pushed him away and began to climb of him. We were right for each other, yet so wrong. I was afraid. What if I, Kari Kamiya, fell in love.
"Willace, don't say that. Its not just sex. Not with you anyway. It's something special. If you don't want me anymore, I understand. I was such a slut." I said. Even more weakly, I forced myself to say. "Good bye, my sweet Quiet American."
"Yeah, I thought I didn't want to be around you. I tried to fool myself to thinking I could just be friends, but the more I'm around you and every time I look in your eyes. I know I'm falling deeper and deeper. Thats why I've been mopping around at home. I want to forget you. Though its in vain." I opened Willace's computer and was about to lift my d3 up when he clung to my arm and whirled me around.
"Wait Kari, I just want to let you know, it's been fun running around with you. The truth is when I said I was falling deeper and deeper, I meant I was falling in love with you. I know you could never feel that way about me and I can't stop feeling that way about you. What I'm trying to say is that I'll always care about you and be there for you. I think I need you, but I want you to do whatever makes you the most happiest, even letting you go. But please stay away from me. Just stay the fuck away because if you keep hugging and kissing me, I'd just fall for you all over again."
"Willace, you're such a romantic. Its sickening. Its gross and I hate it. I hate it becuase..because...I...I" Willaces's eyes widened. "I have to go," I said. "Good bye, my...." I wish I had finished and said love, but I didn't. My gosh, he probably hates my guts now. He probably thinks I find his love is sickening. Really I don't mean that at all. I mean I find that some one actually loving me is sickening. I can understand if some one loves my body like Davis, or my friendship like TK. But me, the real me, who would love that? Now he thinks that I meant he was naive and I don't care about him. I'm such a terrible friend. Who ever said I was perfect? Why do people always expect that from me?
I dropped my d3. And walked over to a tear sniffling Willace. "Willace, I love you. I'm afraid of being in love. I mean its not like anything I've ever felt before. That's why I wanted to run. That's why I still want to run. Please don't hate me Willace."
Willace's POV
I sat on my rock at the top of a cliff. It was the best backyard a kid could have. It was the great open fields and serene beauty of Colorado. I can see all the way down the cliff face to my parent's summer home. There was a clear blue lake that mirrored the brilliant light sky. It was breath taking.
I sniffled and clutched on another rock looking over the lake water. It was beautiful at during a sunset. It looked like thousands of pieces of glass glittering by a fire. I cried way to much for a boy my age. We geniuses are messed up. Look at Izzy, he buries himself in his work and hides his emotions to everyone. Mentally, we are considered a next step in human progression and yet emotionally I'm regressed as a baby. There was a source of this regression. I hated it. I hated what this source did to me. At the same time, I love her. I wanted her to go away and to stay away from me forever.
"Please go. Just stay away, Kari." I sobbed. Her image was blurry. "I don't need a another heartbreak. I don't need to be dragged around at the end of your leash."
"But Willace, darling, I'm not afraid to admit it." she pleaded. I wanted so desperate to believe her. It didn't matter if I did. I'd take her anyway I can get her. I was at the end her leash and nothing could change that. "I love you, Will-will-baby." she continued.
Kari's POV
"Willace, look at me." I said. I wanted to him see me, not who I've become, but me, the 'real' me. I wanted to beg for him to stay with me.
"Willace!" I called. I reached up his chin and forced him to turn and face me. His tear stricken face hid his handsome features and brought out a certain boyish charm. "Will-will, I need you." I pulled him tight to me and squeezed him. If I let go, I was afraid he would run away like a scared dog. "Listen, Willace, you're not at the end of my leash. I'm at the end of yours. I'll do anything to be with you. I'll change. I promise."
"No Kari." he said wiping his tears away. It made me afraid he would push me away. "Don't change Kari. Don't ever change. I love you just the way you are. A perfect angel, my angel of light." he forced a smile. I couldn't help but gasp and let go of my embracing hug and leap into his arms again with my arms around his neck. HisGetting on my tippy toes to kiss him. He leaned in. He forced a kiss. Way to go Will-will! I thought. I pulled his face so it pressed up to mine. His hands ran down my back. I was finally free; rid of the expectation that I was perfect. I understand now no matter how imperfect I was, I'll always be perfect in his eyes.
Willace's POV
I don't know why I took her back. I'd find every excuse to take her back. Suddenly something clicked in my mind. For some reason I was reminded of my mom's old Rod Stewert tapes; "A Reason To Believe", in particular.
If I listened long enough to you,
I'd find a way to believe that it's all true.
Knowing that you lied, straight-faced, while I cried,
Still I'd look to find a reason to believe.
Someone like you makes it hard to live without somebody else.
Someone like you makes it easy to give, never think of myself.
If I gave you time to change my mind,
I'd find a way to leave the past behind.
Knowing that you lied, straight-faced, while I cried,
Still I'd look to find a reason to believe.
Someone like you makes it hard to live without somebody else.
Someone like you makes it easy to give, never think of myself.
Kari had lied to me, she was lying now. I thought nothing can make me believe she truly wants me. But like most things I thought were true, Kari did something to change it. She sat on my favorite rock and smiled at me. She tugged me toward her. I sat beside her. She pulled my face slowly and surely until my ears rested on her chest. I could hear her heart beat. It was steady and yet in a state of unrest and slightly faster than expected.
"My heart flutters when you're near." she said rocking me back and forth. This was the only reason I actually needed. I rather be a fool in love than a genius alone. I figure if I love her and she wants to be with me, who cares if she loves me. "Its because I love you." she smiled. I smiled. I didn't care. Though wouldn't it be great it were true.
Kari's POV
I ran over to Izzy's hang out as soon as I left TK's apartment. It was nearest place that had a computer. It was an electronic cafe. Complete with coffee service and more importantly computer terminals. I tried to leave TK in a peaceful manor. I tried to be his friend. Fuck him, if he hated me now. Nevertheless, I lost my dearest and oldest friend. I couldn't help but want to cry. This is what happens when you toy with people's feelings. I dashed into the electronic cafe and sat at the terminal in the back of the room. It was a private both. "Digiport Open" I whispered. Suddenly I was in the digiworld. I marched through the digital world without my protector, Gatomon. I ran and ran until I found another d-terminal. I found the monitor embedded in a side of a canyon. I looked down the canyon and pulled my d3 out. It was the to Colorado. Taking a leap of faith. I jumped the canyon ledge from my side and slide into the d-terminal before smacking the canyon wall.
Though, for days, I wanted to leave him, the more I tried, the harder it was. Finally, I just gave up. It was better to realize I just love the stupid oaf than to fool myself otherwise.
I looked around and found trees and sorts. I ran as fast as I could until I found Willace's house. Still panting, I knocked on the front door. Frantically, i straightened out my appearance.
"Why hello, Kari." said Wilace's mom.
"Good day, Pam. Can Willace come out and play?" I asked.
"I'm sorry, Willace is sick. He hasn't eaten in days." she said
"Can I see him? I'm not worried about catching what he got. Its really important."
"I'm sorry, he doesn't want to be bothered now." she said. She had a whole different look about her. Maybe Willace told her how I broke his heart. The last time I saw him, I told him I wasn't ready to love anyone and yet I still managed to force him to lay me. No, she was just being a concerned mother. If she had known, she would have gave me a stern lecture before requesting I never returned.
"Did he say why?" I asked.
"He said he was feeling melancholy and I assume it has something to do with your relationship. Willace hasn't had many friends growing up. His best friends are these silly stuffed rabbits he carries around. I don't know what you did, but he won't talk to me like he used to. He used to be able to tell me everything. I'm sorry if I sound a bit detrimental. Honestly, I've never seen him like this. Was it something between you two?"
"Yes, it was my fault. I hurt him because I was too afraid to get close. But I need to see him. I need to tell him how I feel. I want to tell him I love him and I want to be with him always. Please, let me talk to him. I'm madly in love with him."
"I think Willace just needs some time."
"Okay, sorry to bother you." I said. Suddenly I don't know why, but I sniffled a bit and it built up until I sobbed. All right, so I faked it, but I was getting desperate.
"There, there, Kari, I know, Willace means a lot to you. Why don't you come in and grab some tissues and I'll go see if he's up."
"Thank you." I nodded and sniffled some more. If there is one thing I know how to do, was get what I wanted. I wanted Willace.
Willace's mom signaled an okay sign to me from down the all after she peaked in his room. I walked nervously to his room and knocked on it.
"Its open, mom." I heard. There was a sound from his room that sounded like a handball being tossed against the wall. I entered.
"Hi Willace." I said.
"Sure. Whatever." he said lying on his bed and tossing the ball at the wall.
"Hey, don't be like that." I said. "I came to tell you that I choose to be with you. I told TK and Davis to just be my friends. TK, hates me now. You're the one I want now."
"So I was just a last resort to you?" he said dryly.
"No, I told Him I couldn't see anymore. I told him I loved someone else. I'm madly in love with you Willace." I pleased. Then I laid beside him on the bed and snuggled to him. he pushed me away at first and but then he stopped resisting and I rested my head on him. I brushed my cheeks against his chest and then worked my way up to his neck.
"Stop Kari."
"Stop what?" I said gently and started sucking on his ear lobes.
"K-k-Kari." he said pushing me away. "I think we should talk."
"I'm listening, honey.
"Not here, I know just the place." he said seriously. "Mom, I'm gonna step out side for awhile, I think I need some fresh air."
"What Willace, honey?" she called from downstairs
"I said, I'm gonna get some ionized-oxygenation." I said.
"Oh, why didn't you just say you needed some fresh air?" she called. "Be home quarter to, and button up its gonna get cold after sun down. Make sure you bring Kari back for diner." Willace was turning red, but he slid into his disheveled and untied snickers on and we both walked out into the wilderness.
I held Willaces hand as he led me up a rocky path.
I sat on top of Willace's lap. He was sitting against a rock that looked over a cliff. It was a ledge that encompassed the forestry and lake that was basically Willace's back yard. I straddled over both his legs facing him. He looked at the ground often. Maybe he was nervous when I started at him. Once and a while our eyes would lock up.
I genuinely wanted him. He was everything to me. My sanity, I mean I fought myself days over the idea of actually falling for someone. My goodness and light was all I wanted to show because of him. This is why I wanted him to go away. I think we both needed each other, but I didn't want to need anyone. I like my independence and not having others worry about me.
"Kari?" he asked. "you wanna...I mean is that why you're here? Because we can, I don't care anymore. Its just sex."
"I think we shouldn't do it so much." I said distantly. Most of the time I'd be the one to ask, but Willace was always eager. He was a randy little boy.
"Oh...okay Kari" he said staring at the lake below us. The sun reflected off the water like tiny rubies. I've seen enough sunsets by the water to not have to see it. I liked the warmth from Willace. I closed my eyes and hugged him. Finally, I pushed him away and began to climb of him. We were right for each other, yet so wrong. I was afraid. What if I, Kari Kamiya, fell in love.
"Willace, don't say that. Its not just sex. Not with you anyway. It's something special. If you don't want me anymore, I understand. I was such a slut." I said. Even more weakly, I forced myself to say. "Good bye, my sweet Quiet American."
"Yeah, I thought I didn't want to be around you. I tried to fool myself to thinking I could just be friends, but the more I'm around you and every time I look in your eyes. I know I'm falling deeper and deeper. Thats why I've been mopping around at home. I want to forget you. Though its in vain." I opened Willace's computer and was about to lift my d3 up when he clung to my arm and whirled me around.
"Wait Kari, I just want to let you know, it's been fun running around with you. The truth is when I said I was falling deeper and deeper, I meant I was falling in love with you. I know you could never feel that way about me and I can't stop feeling that way about you. What I'm trying to say is that I'll always care about you and be there for you. I think I need you, but I want you to do whatever makes you the most happiest, even letting you go. But please stay away from me. Just stay the fuck away because if you keep hugging and kissing me, I'd just fall for you all over again."
"Willace, you're such a romantic. Its sickening. Its gross and I hate it. I hate it becuase..because...I...I" Willaces's eyes widened. "I have to go," I said. "Good bye, my...." I wish I had finished and said love, but I didn't. My gosh, he probably hates my guts now. He probably thinks I find his love is sickening. Really I don't mean that at all. I mean I find that some one actually loving me is sickening. I can understand if some one loves my body like Davis, or my friendship like TK. But me, the real me, who would love that? Now he thinks that I meant he was naive and I don't care about him. I'm such a terrible friend. Who ever said I was perfect? Why do people always expect that from me?
I dropped my d3. And walked over to a tear sniffling Willace. "Willace, I love you. I'm afraid of being in love. I mean its not like anything I've ever felt before. That's why I wanted to run. That's why I still want to run. Please don't hate me Willace."
Willace's POV
I sat on my rock at the top of a cliff. It was the best backyard a kid could have. It was the great open fields and serene beauty of Colorado. I can see all the way down the cliff face to my parent's summer home. There was a clear blue lake that mirrored the brilliant light sky. It was breath taking.
I sniffled and clutched on another rock looking over the lake water. It was beautiful at during a sunset. It looked like thousands of pieces of glass glittering by a fire. I cried way to much for a boy my age. We geniuses are messed up. Look at Izzy, he buries himself in his work and hides his emotions to everyone. Mentally, we are considered a next step in human progression and yet emotionally I'm regressed as a baby. There was a source of this regression. I hated it. I hated what this source did to me. At the same time, I love her. I wanted her to go away and to stay away from me forever.
"Please go. Just stay away, Kari." I sobbed. Her image was blurry. "I don't need a another heartbreak. I don't need to be dragged around at the end of your leash."
"But Willace, darling, I'm not afraid to admit it." she pleaded. I wanted so desperate to believe her. It didn't matter if I did. I'd take her anyway I can get her. I was at the end her leash and nothing could change that. "I love you, Will-will-baby." she continued.
Kari's POV
"Willace, look at me." I said. I wanted to him see me, not who I've become, but me, the 'real' me. I wanted to beg for him to stay with me.
"Willace!" I called. I reached up his chin and forced him to turn and face me. His tear stricken face hid his handsome features and brought out a certain boyish charm. "Will-will, I need you." I pulled him tight to me and squeezed him. If I let go, I was afraid he would run away like a scared dog. "Listen, Willace, you're not at the end of my leash. I'm at the end of yours. I'll do anything to be with you. I'll change. I promise."
"No Kari." he said wiping his tears away. It made me afraid he would push me away. "Don't change Kari. Don't ever change. I love you just the way you are. A perfect angel, my angel of light." he forced a smile. I couldn't help but gasp and let go of my embracing hug and leap into his arms again with my arms around his neck. HisGetting on my tippy toes to kiss him. He leaned in. He forced a kiss. Way to go Will-will! I thought. I pulled his face so it pressed up to mine. His hands ran down my back. I was finally free; rid of the expectation that I was perfect. I understand now no matter how imperfect I was, I'll always be perfect in his eyes.
Willace's POV
I don't know why I took her back. I'd find every excuse to take her back. Suddenly something clicked in my mind. For some reason I was reminded of my mom's old Rod Stewert tapes; "A Reason To Believe", in particular.
If I listened long enough to you,
I'd find a way to believe that it's all true.
Knowing that you lied, straight-faced, while I cried,
Still I'd look to find a reason to believe.
Someone like you makes it hard to live without somebody else.
Someone like you makes it easy to give, never think of myself.
If I gave you time to change my mind,
I'd find a way to leave the past behind.
Knowing that you lied, straight-faced, while I cried,
Still I'd look to find a reason to believe.
Someone like you makes it hard to live without somebody else.
Someone like you makes it easy to give, never think of myself.
Kari had lied to me, she was lying now. I thought nothing can make me believe she truly wants me. But like most things I thought were true, Kari did something to change it. She sat on my favorite rock and smiled at me. She tugged me toward her. I sat beside her. She pulled my face slowly and surely until my ears rested on her chest. I could hear her heart beat. It was steady and yet in a state of unrest and slightly faster than expected.
"My heart flutters when you're near." she said rocking me back and forth. This was the only reason I actually needed. I rather be a fool in love than a genius alone. I figure if I love her and she wants to be with me, who cares if she loves me. "Its because I love you." she smiled. I smiled. I didn't care. Though wouldn't it be great it were true.