***Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon
Chapter Two
There were lots of food vendors and game booths. Even though my stomach, for the first time ever, grumbled for food, my eyes caught the Ferris Wheel. I loved Ferris Wheels; it was my favorite ride in the Festival.
"Who wants to go on the Ferris Wheel with me?" I asked.
"I'm sorry, Usagi-chan, but I don't like them." Mako said shaking her head.
"Same here." Rei and Ami said together.
Minako, Yaten, and Taiki all shook their heads.
"I'll go with you." Seiya said.
"Are you sure?" I asked.
"Positive." He assured. "Let's get in line." He said pulling me along.
"I can't believe I just lied to her. I love the Ferris Wheel." Mako said, watching Seiya pulling me.
"I'll take you on it, later." Yaten said.
"Mako-chan we had to lie. Usagi-chan needs a guy's comfort right now, since Mamoru is gone." Minako said.
"Are you saying you want to replace Mamoru with Seiya?" Mako asked.
"No, of course not. We just want her to understand that she does have people other then us who care for her, and would do anything in order to keep her happy." Minako replied.
Seiya's hand was strong, but soft holding my hand in his. He stopped, but I didn't, I fell to the ground landing on my butt. Seiya laughed and put out his hand and helped me up. We were next in line and waited for the next bucket. We got on and it started to slowly move.
This reminded me so much of being with Mamo-chan. He always took me to amusement parks and fairs. We would always go on all the rides and ate till our stomachs couldn't take anymore food. I looked over at Seiya; he looked at me like I was the only one on that Ferris Wheel.
He was the only guy, other then Mamoru, who I would love to spend all my life with. But, I was destined to be with Mamoru. Anyway, I don't even know if he feels the same way about me, so I should just hide my feelings, the same way I hide my tears.
"Odango, what's the matter?" He asked.
"Nothing." I replied, ignoring what he called me.
"You can tell me… You know that, don't you?"
"Yeah, but you wouldn't want to know."
"Usagi, of course I would want to know, because I care about you. I want to help, but if you won't tell me, I can't help." He moved from his side of the bucket to my side and sat beside me. "Please tell me, I hate to ever see a frown upon your face."
"I don't know… I just hate it how everyday I know I might have to fight and hurt someone by doing it. I hate how Mamoru is over seas studying in America. And now Chibi-usa is gone back to the future, leaving me with no one…"
He interrupted me. "What do you mean your all alone? You have your friends and family, and you have me. So you shouldn't feel alone."
"I know that I have all of you, it's just that there's something missing inside of my heart, and it won't go away in till I find out what it is."
"Usagi you should know what it is that you're missing." He said and then looked out the window and frowned. "I wish it were me." He murmured.
We sat in silence as the Ferris Wheel moved around in circles. With each turn Seiya drifted further and further away. It was like he was in his own world, where I couldn't reach him. If only I could tell him. Tell him my secret that I was screaming inside.
"Seiya…I have to tell you something very important." I began hesitantly.
He turned to me, with sad puppy dog eyes. "What is it Odango?"
"I…" I started.
I was just about to tell him, when the Ferris Wheel came to a halt. And then the ride operator came to open the door. Seiya shrugged his shoulders and stepped out, and I followed disappointed. I gained up enough courage to tell him, and then reality came and stopped me. Was it a sign that I should just keep my mouth shut and hide my feelings?
We left out the exit where everyone was waiting except for Yaten and Makoto. "Where are Mako and Yaten?" I asked.
"Right there." Rei said pointing in the line for the Ferris Wheel.
"Mako-chan!" I shouted, getting her attention. "I thought you said you didn't like Ferris Wheels?"
"Oh, I do. I just rather going on with Yaten that's all." She said, and smiled.
I rolled my eyes. "Ok. Well, have fun, but not to much fun."
"Don't worry I will." She giggled. Yaten was blushing.
"Come on, Usagi let's go in the fun house!" Minako exclaimed pulling me with her.
We got in line. I looked over at Seiya, who was surrounded by girls along with Taiki. Rei and Ami tried to push the girls away, but they didn't go away. So Ami and Rei took them over to the clothing vendors where they weren't so noticeable.
"Usagi-chan I know how you feel about…" Mina started. I looked at her, my eyes widened. "…Seiya."
"What about him?" I asked.
"You love him, but you hide it, because you also love Mamoru. And you're afraid of your feelings because you think you might loose your feelings for Mamoru."
"I don't love him. I like him only as a friend."
"You're lying." She said. "I know you are because your nose twitches when you lie."
"Mina-chan, I don't know what to do. I love Mamo-chan so much, and it hurts to be thousands of miles away from him. But then when I'm with Seiya my hurt goes away and I only miss him a little. If only I was just a normal girl, and then I can just pick one, and not be destined to only be with him." I cried.
"Oh, Usagi." She said giving me a hug. "If you want I would take Seiya, so you won't have to feel so bad."
I laughed wiping away my tears. "No, that's ok. I brought myself into this mess, and I have to get myself out of it." I said and backed away. "I really am an Odango Atama."
"Of course, not." She paused. "Well, maybe sometimes…"
"It's ok, Minako."
"Next!" The guy said, and then collected our tickets.
We walked in the Fun House to a big room with mirrors. I felt small in that room of tall mirrors. It's like when you stand beside the ocean, all that life and mystery living under the deep blue water, and all you could do is wonder, what else is out there?
Back at the clothing vendors:
"Taiki lets go look at the books." Ami said pulling him along. "I'm sure they probably have so great literature books."
"Alright." Taiki said.
Rei and Seiya sat down and ate rice balls, while they were looking at the books.
"Seiya what's wrong? You look so gloomy." Rei asked and sipped her soda.
"Everything." He replied.
"Well, tell me the main problem." She said. "I think I may know."
"It's Usagi." He replied staring at the ground. "I like her so much, but I know I can't have her."
"Seiya, but there are other people out there."
"Yeah, I know, but you don't understand. I think about her every day, and when I go to sleep I dream about her, and I can't stand to be away from her for more then a day…"
Rei interrupted him. "You have it really bad, don't you."
"Have what?"
"You have it bad for you Usagi, and don't lie, because I see how you look at her."
Seiya's face turned bright red. "How do I look at her that's so different?"
Rei opened her mouth, but Ami and Taiki came back, so Rei stopped.
"Rei-chan lets go back to get meet everybody." Ami said holding a book to her chest.
"Ok." She replied hesitantly and stood up. She glanced over at Seiya who looked dumbfounded.
Back at the Fun House…
Once we were done we sat down on a bench and waited till Mako and Yaten were done on the Ferris Wheel.
"So, Usagi-chan, what do you think you're going to do now?" Minako asked.
"Nothing." I replied.
"Why nothing?" She asked. "You know you must do something, you can't just lead him on and then just forget about him."
"Minako, if you love something you have to set it free." I explained. "And that's exactly what I'm going to do. Seiya can find someone out there whose better then me and who can make him happy."
"But, what if he is only happy with you?" She asked.
I stared at the ground; I didn't know what to say. My mind went blank, and all I good feel was the rapid beating of my heart. With each beat I wanted to run further and further away, but I can't run away from my feelings and be scared forever. I looked up at the exit for the Ferris Wheel and saw Yaten and Makoto exchanging kisses. My heart grew sick I wish I was the one who was being kissed, but by Mamoru.
Chapter Two
There were lots of food vendors and game booths. Even though my stomach, for the first time ever, grumbled for food, my eyes caught the Ferris Wheel. I loved Ferris Wheels; it was my favorite ride in the Festival.
"Who wants to go on the Ferris Wheel with me?" I asked.
"I'm sorry, Usagi-chan, but I don't like them." Mako said shaking her head.
"Same here." Rei and Ami said together.
Minako, Yaten, and Taiki all shook their heads.
"I'll go with you." Seiya said.
"Are you sure?" I asked.
"Positive." He assured. "Let's get in line." He said pulling me along.
"I can't believe I just lied to her. I love the Ferris Wheel." Mako said, watching Seiya pulling me.
"I'll take you on it, later." Yaten said.
"Mako-chan we had to lie. Usagi-chan needs a guy's comfort right now, since Mamoru is gone." Minako said.
"Are you saying you want to replace Mamoru with Seiya?" Mako asked.
"No, of course not. We just want her to understand that she does have people other then us who care for her, and would do anything in order to keep her happy." Minako replied.
Seiya's hand was strong, but soft holding my hand in his. He stopped, but I didn't, I fell to the ground landing on my butt. Seiya laughed and put out his hand and helped me up. We were next in line and waited for the next bucket. We got on and it started to slowly move.
This reminded me so much of being with Mamo-chan. He always took me to amusement parks and fairs. We would always go on all the rides and ate till our stomachs couldn't take anymore food. I looked over at Seiya; he looked at me like I was the only one on that Ferris Wheel.
He was the only guy, other then Mamoru, who I would love to spend all my life with. But, I was destined to be with Mamoru. Anyway, I don't even know if he feels the same way about me, so I should just hide my feelings, the same way I hide my tears.
"Odango, what's the matter?" He asked.
"Nothing." I replied, ignoring what he called me.
"You can tell me… You know that, don't you?"
"Yeah, but you wouldn't want to know."
"Usagi, of course I would want to know, because I care about you. I want to help, but if you won't tell me, I can't help." He moved from his side of the bucket to my side and sat beside me. "Please tell me, I hate to ever see a frown upon your face."
"I don't know… I just hate it how everyday I know I might have to fight and hurt someone by doing it. I hate how Mamoru is over seas studying in America. And now Chibi-usa is gone back to the future, leaving me with no one…"
He interrupted me. "What do you mean your all alone? You have your friends and family, and you have me. So you shouldn't feel alone."
"I know that I have all of you, it's just that there's something missing inside of my heart, and it won't go away in till I find out what it is."
"Usagi you should know what it is that you're missing." He said and then looked out the window and frowned. "I wish it were me." He murmured.
We sat in silence as the Ferris Wheel moved around in circles. With each turn Seiya drifted further and further away. It was like he was in his own world, where I couldn't reach him. If only I could tell him. Tell him my secret that I was screaming inside.
"Seiya…I have to tell you something very important." I began hesitantly.
He turned to me, with sad puppy dog eyes. "What is it Odango?"
"I…" I started.
I was just about to tell him, when the Ferris Wheel came to a halt. And then the ride operator came to open the door. Seiya shrugged his shoulders and stepped out, and I followed disappointed. I gained up enough courage to tell him, and then reality came and stopped me. Was it a sign that I should just keep my mouth shut and hide my feelings?
We left out the exit where everyone was waiting except for Yaten and Makoto. "Where are Mako and Yaten?" I asked.
"Right there." Rei said pointing in the line for the Ferris Wheel.
"Mako-chan!" I shouted, getting her attention. "I thought you said you didn't like Ferris Wheels?"
"Oh, I do. I just rather going on with Yaten that's all." She said, and smiled.
I rolled my eyes. "Ok. Well, have fun, but not to much fun."
"Don't worry I will." She giggled. Yaten was blushing.
"Come on, Usagi let's go in the fun house!" Minako exclaimed pulling me with her.
We got in line. I looked over at Seiya, who was surrounded by girls along with Taiki. Rei and Ami tried to push the girls away, but they didn't go away. So Ami and Rei took them over to the clothing vendors where they weren't so noticeable.
"Usagi-chan I know how you feel about…" Mina started. I looked at her, my eyes widened. "…Seiya."
"What about him?" I asked.
"You love him, but you hide it, because you also love Mamoru. And you're afraid of your feelings because you think you might loose your feelings for Mamoru."
"I don't love him. I like him only as a friend."
"You're lying." She said. "I know you are because your nose twitches when you lie."
"Mina-chan, I don't know what to do. I love Mamo-chan so much, and it hurts to be thousands of miles away from him. But then when I'm with Seiya my hurt goes away and I only miss him a little. If only I was just a normal girl, and then I can just pick one, and not be destined to only be with him." I cried.
"Oh, Usagi." She said giving me a hug. "If you want I would take Seiya, so you won't have to feel so bad."
I laughed wiping away my tears. "No, that's ok. I brought myself into this mess, and I have to get myself out of it." I said and backed away. "I really am an Odango Atama."
"Of course, not." She paused. "Well, maybe sometimes…"
"It's ok, Minako."
"Next!" The guy said, and then collected our tickets.
We walked in the Fun House to a big room with mirrors. I felt small in that room of tall mirrors. It's like when you stand beside the ocean, all that life and mystery living under the deep blue water, and all you could do is wonder, what else is out there?
Back at the clothing vendors:
"Taiki lets go look at the books." Ami said pulling him along. "I'm sure they probably have so great literature books."
"Alright." Taiki said.
Rei and Seiya sat down and ate rice balls, while they were looking at the books.
"Seiya what's wrong? You look so gloomy." Rei asked and sipped her soda.
"Everything." He replied.
"Well, tell me the main problem." She said. "I think I may know."
"It's Usagi." He replied staring at the ground. "I like her so much, but I know I can't have her."
"Seiya, but there are other people out there."
"Yeah, I know, but you don't understand. I think about her every day, and when I go to sleep I dream about her, and I can't stand to be away from her for more then a day…"
Rei interrupted him. "You have it really bad, don't you."
"Have what?"
"You have it bad for you Usagi, and don't lie, because I see how you look at her."
Seiya's face turned bright red. "How do I look at her that's so different?"
Rei opened her mouth, but Ami and Taiki came back, so Rei stopped.
"Rei-chan lets go back to get meet everybody." Ami said holding a book to her chest.
"Ok." She replied hesitantly and stood up. She glanced over at Seiya who looked dumbfounded.
Back at the Fun House…
Once we were done we sat down on a bench and waited till Mako and Yaten were done on the Ferris Wheel.
"So, Usagi-chan, what do you think you're going to do now?" Minako asked.
"Nothing." I replied.
"Why nothing?" She asked. "You know you must do something, you can't just lead him on and then just forget about him."
"Minako, if you love something you have to set it free." I explained. "And that's exactly what I'm going to do. Seiya can find someone out there whose better then me and who can make him happy."
"But, what if he is only happy with you?" She asked.
I stared at the ground; I didn't know what to say. My mind went blank, and all I good feel was the rapid beating of my heart. With each beat I wanted to run further and further away, but I can't run away from my feelings and be scared forever. I looked up at the exit for the Ferris Wheel and saw Yaten and Makoto exchanging kisses. My heart grew sick I wish I was the one who was being kissed, but by Mamoru.