WNC15

Warriors Never Cry
Chapter 14
Story by: Cessy Angel


I didn't even know where I was going, through this silent and empty city of Kyoto, yet my legs continued as if taken over by an unknown force. Even at this point, I had to drag my feet so they would meet the soil. My eyes burned from all my shedding of tear, the sun's early rays touched my blood streaked face as I winced.

Ah, to be with you
It could have been like being with an angel

But how this had happened, I still couldn't believe it. That once, the now lifeless puppet hanging in my arms would smile at me, her eyes would sparkle like jewels, and her melodious voice would bring life to me even when I would be in the hardest depressions. And how did I repay her for all those times?

Even through all those times
I would be the demon

I did nothing. Nothing at all, even when my body would urge me to do such things as to kiss her and take her into an everlasting embrace, I could not bring myself to do these. But now it's too late, isn't it? I couldn't bring those days back to me, no matter how long I would wish for them, cry for them, they would never again be mine to change.

Do you how much you mean to me?
It would be cruel to look at your lips
And not feel the need to give them sweet kisses

Now she was like a shriveled flower, even if covered in the most horrible color of red, she would still be a beauty to me. Her face was covered in crimson, and so was I. The once pastel colors of her kimono were drenched with the same color, a deathly color. Yet so was I, but why did I deserve this life? Was it that Kami thought my purpose more important that hers? How could someone possibly bring death to such an innocent child?

My child, my little innocent child
Will you bring me joy when I shed tears?


Early risers came out of their houses and looked at us. No, not that us, only at me. From the corner of my eye I could see their widened eyes, their gaping mouths, and the way they whispered words of protection from the monster walking through the streets, and others going as far as calling my names under their breaths. Most of those people called me a Shinigami, and I see no other word that would describe me the better.

You would smile at me
And one day, I promise
I will smile back

The power of such people not wanting to see such a monster bore through me and my strength left for what seemed forever. I stumbled and my knees hit the dirt hard. I couldn't control it, I began to cry as if I were a child, my tears dropping onto the darkened cheek of the one I held close to me.

Let the snow fall on us both
I wont care if my body falls numb
Kiss my cheek and sweet sunshine will come


The townspeople approached me, and backed up in cowardice as I moved again. They couldn't possibly understand how I felt, who ever even understood me, once?

My feet grasped the ground and again I was walking to a place unknown. I lifted her body closer to mine, as if I were afraid she would catch a cold. I was going into insanity. And yet wasn't life itself insanity? I didn't know how people could live, knowing that all around them people died. And again, didn't I continue living after my fellow Oniwabanshuu had given their lives to me?

I need to feel your love
If it's lost, let me sleep
Forever until time takes me away

Daylight washed over the old building standing in front of me. It was only now that me feet stopped moving, and I stood there. Cold breezes passed me, and some sakura petals flew onto me and on her lifeless body. Why had I come here? I already knew the answer. There should be another way, but this is my choice. I alone could only make this decision. I should stop making excuses.

You don't need an excuse
Whatever you do, whatever you say
I'll always love you

My feet dragged my body towards the entrance. I was dragged. It seemed at if it were only my legs and feet that held life. I could see my reflection on the golden statue of the shrine in front of me, my eyes and face as lifeless as they were before. If she could see me now, she would for certain call me a Shinigami, only as a joke. Aa, that is what she would do.

Give me a kiss on rainy days
Give me a kiss on sunny days
I'll treasure them forever

I walked towards the statue. It was Kami-sama. I knew that even him could not possibly lift the pain I was suffering through. But I didn't expect him to heal any of my wounds. I would do it myself.

I set your body in front of the shrine and didn't let loose your hand. I would hold it forever. My hand brushed her cheek to wipe away the bloody streak, only to reveal precious porcelain skin. Eyes closed, but I wished so much to see those blue jewels before I left.

Open your eyes
Just once, all I ask
I feel so lonely, all I wanna do
Is to fall into its depths, let me be

My head laid against your neck, my arm encircling your waist and my other hand... reached the bottom of my leg, my fingers catching cold metal between a quick grasp. It was a gift from my brother, Yushiro. He would disagree with my choice, but he also told me to do what my heart told me to. The handle felt so cold against my palm, but with no less than a thought, I brought the dagger in my sight.

Don't think sad thoughts
All you'll do is bring misery
Remember, I'll be happy
I'll do this for you, and for you alone

This is my goodbye to the world, but it's also my greeting into the arms of an angel, or demon. Kami-sama, let me be with her, I have yet to ask anything more from the profoundness of my soul, my heart. Let me be with the one I love, my angel, my Misao.

Cold metal in my hands
But heavens smiles upon me

I let my final tears fall, and with one soft whisper, my hand clutches harder until I can feel it penetrating into my body and soul. The skin of my heart tore apart, and finally, crimson rushed out of my body. No one else's. It was the time to greet death's flower. I didn't greet it in fear, but in love.

I'm coming for you
You've ran away from me
But I'll see you

My whole body grew weak, and I leaned further onto her body. I could even smell lilacs. My eyes closed with the image of an angel in my mind.

I'll hug you
Kiss you

Now I coughed blood, but only onto the sleeve of my trenchcoat. I wouldn't dare to ruin your face with my blood, or maybe you would hurt as I hurt having your blood on my. Goodbye, my love. Or would it be a meeting? I see light. Yeah, I'll see you in heaven.

And I'll smile for you

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"No!" Kojirou woke from his sleep and looked around the room, his body was shaking and sweat poured from his forehead. Breathing hard, his teeth clenching into his lower lip, he saw the one next to him wake up and look back at him with sparkling blue eyes.

"Kojirou, what's wrong?" She asked in a soothing voice, the only voice that could possibly soothe the dark haired boy down. He looked back at her with blue eyes, silver droplets coming down his cheeks.

"Oh, Naome, it... it was that dream again. And... and..." He closed his eyes and tried to get the words out of his mouth. His hand clutched the bed sheets under him. "That man, he... he gave his life away, to be with the one he loves. Why... how could... why...?"

Naome whispered softly, her hand tightening around his own. "Shh, my love. Don't you see? Now he will be with the one he loves. He will be happy, as we are happy. And one day, both of them will be reborn." Her head leaned against his chest, and smile forming on her face as tears trickled down her face.

"I see now. Naome, I would do the same for you. To live without love, especially when you know that the one who truly did love you, is gone, what is there more? Aishiteru, my love." His lips found hers and they locked together.

"Aishiteru, Aoshi-sama, my Kojirou."

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Author's note: How'd you like the ending? My friend whacked me when she first read it, saying it was too sad, so I added the last part as a little mush spot. (Did you guess what happened to Aoshi and Misao?) I really enjoyed making this fanfic, I hope I'll get some others ideas to do soon. But for now, I'll be content with knowing that so many people liked this fic. Anyways, please review, tell me what you think!