I do not own any of the ffvii characters, Squaresoft does, if I did I would be filthy rich with my own horse, and I don't have a horse now do I? Well, despite this little message, don't get it confused with the story. This fic is very serious and deals with what has happened to Seifer in the past. I hope to make this a chapter story but I want to get some good reviews for it if I'm going to continue, so anyone who reads ppllleeeaassee review thanx!
The Sadness Of It All
Chapter 1: A Blood Stained Past
It had been a cold night in the garden, mostly because they were traveling in icy northern waters. Everything had been weird sense Ulticimia's defeat. It was like none of it had ever happened, it all seemed to unreal, even to the people it happened to. Squall had taken the position of commander of SeeD while Cid handled most of the academic situations. Selphie was as cheerful as ever just being an honored SeeD and also happy that a certain cowboy had transferred to Balamb garden and became an actual SeeD. Rinoa was currently attending the Garden but was advanced to the senior class because of her help toward the Garden. Seifer had been allowed to return to the garden after it was proved by scientists in Esther that he was indeed possessed. Quistis was also happy because they had returned her instructors license back to her the second she returned.
Everything was all nice and dandy, but it just seemed to much like a fairy tale. Now that the story was over life was just boring. Quistis found herself at the training center out of boredom. She really wished that they would get harder monsters to fight Grats just weren't a challenge anymore. She attached her Save the Queen to her belt and decided to goto the secret area just to look at the view.
She walked in her heels making the only sound, it was so quiet. Though practically silent she wasn't the only one there, a tall strong figure stood straight looking out at the sights below.
"Seifer?" ha was surprised to see him there, lately he had been sticking to the rules to make everyone see that he had changed but now he was out past curfew. "What are you doing out here?"
"Actually I was thinking about what it would be like to...jump," his words sent chills down her spines. The balcony was high up more high than people realized. Seifer wanted to jump though...Why? Why would he want to die?
"Seifer...Wha...Why would you do something like that?" Quistis's voice quavered slightly as he turned around to face her. His eyes shot into her, they were cold yet beautiful. His expression was a deep frown but something showed a sadness in him...What was it...It was like it was almost a...Paranoia? No, she couldn't read it, for the first time in her life Quistis couldn't real Seifer's eyes.
"Blood," he replied simply but still it sounded deadly.
"Blood?" she repeated skeptically.
"To much blood," he took off one of his gloves and showed his hand to Quistis. She looked confused, his hand was an orangish red color, like dried blood but...but it was just like it had absorbed into his skin or something. "No matter how many times I wash my hands its aways there."
"But how?"
"I'm glad you never saw it...I don't think anybody real thought about it actually they just thought and still do think of me as evil, bad, scum of the earth...They don't realize how much blood there was..." he held back tears and swallowed hard to control a sob. "They don't realize how many people I killed, I was in the battle I fought too I killed my own soldiers..."
"Seifer it wasn't your..." he cut her off.
"I didn't care I just didn't care I sliced my Hyperion through anything near me, and it was fun...I admit it was fun not having a conscience, it was fun not worrying about anything, but...Hype, it just won't come off," he let silent tears win the battle. Quistis then felt more sorrow than she ever had. This was Seifer Almasy! The same Seifer Almasy who was a student who always made her love her job. The same Seifer Almasy who had insulted her day and day again. The same Seifer Almasy who excelled at the ranks of SeeD. What was happening to him?
"Seifer you fought as hard as you could to keep control of your mind, it wasn't your fault!" She was very insistent that it wasn't his fault. Quistis knew that Seifer would never do those thing she just saw it in his eyes.
"If you only knew..." he whispered thinking back to when Galbadia Garden had fought with Balamb Garden...
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Seifer strode through the swarm of fighting. People all over it was such fun, he swung at everything in his sight, killing countless numbers of people. As he ripped his Hyperion through one of his own soldiers blood was sprayed onto his face. He stopped, smiled sadistically and licked his lips.
He had made his way to where the battle was the thinnest and he heard crying. He looked down to see a little girl no older than seven or eight sitting on the ground crying. It sounded so distant though the child was right there. Seifer knelt down and smiled kindly at the little girl.
"What's your name?" he asked interestedly. He looked like he was studying her. She was thin wearing a green flowery dress, she had red hair and bid brown eyes.
"Eve," she sniffled and looked at Seifer. "Will..you please help me...Please?! I'm so scared," she pleaded with the young man.
"I can understand how you would be frightened," he spoke softly, not like a killer would. "What do you think of all this?"
"If..If I tell you will you help me?" he nodded in reply. "O..Okay then...I think that wars...and battles are sad."
"Sad? Why sad?"
"Well look around" she spoke in a squeeky voice while pointing her hand to the battle. "Some of the people fighting are only kids like me!!"
"I think they're a little older".
"Yeah..Yeah but they are still young! And they die, just die! Do the people killing each other realize that these people will never come back? They take something away from them that is like everything! Everybody has dreams, of becoming something, falling in love, and they have no chance at any of this now! They die before they even live...Its sad and scary," she rubbed her nose and sniffled again.
Seifer's eyes went wide as he realized what he had done. He had killed...But it wasn't at his will though was it. He had grabbed control of his body for three seconds making it enough for a single tear to stain his face before the sadistic gleam in his eyes returned. He stood up and Eve remained on the ground.
"You gonna help me now?" she asked hopefully.
"Your right you know..." he smiled in a twisted fashion. "And yes I will help you," he brought his weapon down to the girls heart killing her instantly. "Somebody as innocent as you shouldn't live in a world like this. Your welcome," he walked away from the body there was no going back now...
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"GOD DAMNIT!" Seifer shouted pulling out his Hyperion and struck the wall time and time again. "WHY DID THIS HAPPEN?!! IT WASN'T SUPPOSED TO BE THIS WAY!!! I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE!!!!" he threw his Hyperion over the balcony making it so it could never hurt another person again. Seifer collapsed onto the ground and his voice broke into a sobbing whisper. "I just can't live like this anymore".
"Seifer..." Quistis also whispered to his crying form, he must have been holding that in so long. She came down beside him and embraced him, his tears soaking her shoulder as he leaned into her. Quistis also began to cry. The just stayed like that for a long time.
"I'm so scared," he breathed.
"Of what?" she asked.
"I'll lose everything...I don't want to lose this moment," he pulled back and looked into her crystal blue eyes. Seifer lifted his un-gloved hand to her cheek and wiped away her tears. "I don't want to lose you."
"Haven't you learned anything? You will never lose me," and with that being said she reached down and kissed him passionately on the lips. Quistis was surprised by her actions, yet she couldn't pull away it felt so right in Seifer's arm. Even though he was a wreck she felt safe and warm in his embrace. This is where she belonged.
Finally they broke their kiss and looked at each other. Soon enough they were asleep in each others arms and for once in both of their lives they were happy. But somebody who happened to be watching was not, and planned to finally bring SeeD to the depths of hell...
To be continued...
The Sadness Of It All
Chapter 1: A Blood Stained Past
It had been a cold night in the garden, mostly because they were traveling in icy northern waters. Everything had been weird sense Ulticimia's defeat. It was like none of it had ever happened, it all seemed to unreal, even to the people it happened to. Squall had taken the position of commander of SeeD while Cid handled most of the academic situations. Selphie was as cheerful as ever just being an honored SeeD and also happy that a certain cowboy had transferred to Balamb garden and became an actual SeeD. Rinoa was currently attending the Garden but was advanced to the senior class because of her help toward the Garden. Seifer had been allowed to return to the garden after it was proved by scientists in Esther that he was indeed possessed. Quistis was also happy because they had returned her instructors license back to her the second she returned.
Everything was all nice and dandy, but it just seemed to much like a fairy tale. Now that the story was over life was just boring. Quistis found herself at the training center out of boredom. She really wished that they would get harder monsters to fight Grats just weren't a challenge anymore. She attached her Save the Queen to her belt and decided to goto the secret area just to look at the view.
She walked in her heels making the only sound, it was so quiet. Though practically silent she wasn't the only one there, a tall strong figure stood straight looking out at the sights below.
"Seifer?" ha was surprised to see him there, lately he had been sticking to the rules to make everyone see that he had changed but now he was out past curfew. "What are you doing out here?"
"Actually I was thinking about what it would be like to...jump," his words sent chills down her spines. The balcony was high up more high than people realized. Seifer wanted to jump though...Why? Why would he want to die?
"Seifer...Wha...Why would you do something like that?" Quistis's voice quavered slightly as he turned around to face her. His eyes shot into her, they were cold yet beautiful. His expression was a deep frown but something showed a sadness in him...What was it...It was like it was almost a...Paranoia? No, she couldn't read it, for the first time in her life Quistis couldn't real Seifer's eyes.
"Blood," he replied simply but still it sounded deadly.
"Blood?" she repeated skeptically.
"To much blood," he took off one of his gloves and showed his hand to Quistis. She looked confused, his hand was an orangish red color, like dried blood but...but it was just like it had absorbed into his skin or something. "No matter how many times I wash my hands its aways there."
"But how?"
"I'm glad you never saw it...I don't think anybody real thought about it actually they just thought and still do think of me as evil, bad, scum of the earth...They don't realize how much blood there was..." he held back tears and swallowed hard to control a sob. "They don't realize how many people I killed, I was in the battle I fought too I killed my own soldiers..."
"Seifer it wasn't your..." he cut her off.
"I didn't care I just didn't care I sliced my Hyperion through anything near me, and it was fun...I admit it was fun not having a conscience, it was fun not worrying about anything, but...Hype, it just won't come off," he let silent tears win the battle. Quistis then felt more sorrow than she ever had. This was Seifer Almasy! The same Seifer Almasy who was a student who always made her love her job. The same Seifer Almasy who had insulted her day and day again. The same Seifer Almasy who excelled at the ranks of SeeD. What was happening to him?
"Seifer you fought as hard as you could to keep control of your mind, it wasn't your fault!" She was very insistent that it wasn't his fault. Quistis knew that Seifer would never do those thing she just saw it in his eyes.
"If you only knew..." he whispered thinking back to when Galbadia Garden had fought with Balamb Garden...
*********
Seifer strode through the swarm of fighting. People all over it was such fun, he swung at everything in his sight, killing countless numbers of people. As he ripped his Hyperion through one of his own soldiers blood was sprayed onto his face. He stopped, smiled sadistically and licked his lips.
He had made his way to where the battle was the thinnest and he heard crying. He looked down to see a little girl no older than seven or eight sitting on the ground crying. It sounded so distant though the child was right there. Seifer knelt down and smiled kindly at the little girl.
"What's your name?" he asked interestedly. He looked like he was studying her. She was thin wearing a green flowery dress, she had red hair and bid brown eyes.
"Eve," she sniffled and looked at Seifer. "Will..you please help me...Please?! I'm so scared," she pleaded with the young man.
"I can understand how you would be frightened," he spoke softly, not like a killer would. "What do you think of all this?"
"If..If I tell you will you help me?" he nodded in reply. "O..Okay then...I think that wars...and battles are sad."
"Sad? Why sad?"
"Well look around" she spoke in a squeeky voice while pointing her hand to the battle. "Some of the people fighting are only kids like me!!"
"I think they're a little older".
"Yeah..Yeah but they are still young! And they die, just die! Do the people killing each other realize that these people will never come back? They take something away from them that is like everything! Everybody has dreams, of becoming something, falling in love, and they have no chance at any of this now! They die before they even live...Its sad and scary," she rubbed her nose and sniffled again.
Seifer's eyes went wide as he realized what he had done. He had killed...But it wasn't at his will though was it. He had grabbed control of his body for three seconds making it enough for a single tear to stain his face before the sadistic gleam in his eyes returned. He stood up and Eve remained on the ground.
"You gonna help me now?" she asked hopefully.
"Your right you know..." he smiled in a twisted fashion. "And yes I will help you," he brought his weapon down to the girls heart killing her instantly. "Somebody as innocent as you shouldn't live in a world like this. Your welcome," he walked away from the body there was no going back now...
*********
"GOD DAMNIT!" Seifer shouted pulling out his Hyperion and struck the wall time and time again. "WHY DID THIS HAPPEN?!! IT WASN'T SUPPOSED TO BE THIS WAY!!! I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE!!!!" he threw his Hyperion over the balcony making it so it could never hurt another person again. Seifer collapsed onto the ground and his voice broke into a sobbing whisper. "I just can't live like this anymore".
"Seifer..." Quistis also whispered to his crying form, he must have been holding that in so long. She came down beside him and embraced him, his tears soaking her shoulder as he leaned into her. Quistis also began to cry. The just stayed like that for a long time.
"I'm so scared," he breathed.
"Of what?" she asked.
"I'll lose everything...I don't want to lose this moment," he pulled back and looked into her crystal blue eyes. Seifer lifted his un-gloved hand to her cheek and wiped away her tears. "I don't want to lose you."
"Haven't you learned anything? You will never lose me," and with that being said she reached down and kissed him passionately on the lips. Quistis was surprised by her actions, yet she couldn't pull away it felt so right in Seifer's arm. Even though he was a wreck she felt safe and warm in his embrace. This is where she belonged.
Finally they broke their kiss and looked at each other. Soon enough they were asleep in each others arms and for once in both of their lives they were happy. But somebody who happened to be watching was not, and planned to finally bring SeeD to the depths of hell...
To be continued...