AUTHOR: Goddess Isa
EMAIL: goddessisa@aol.com
SUMMARY: Letters exchanged between Buffy and Angel during their time apart
SPOILER: Each part will spoil a different episode of Buffy &/or Angel from Season 4/Season 1 on. This one, however, spoils Graduation Day Part One.
DISCLAIMER: Joss and David own the characters. I've dealt with it - you have to too.
Dear Angel,
If I had enough words to tell you everything I'm feeling right now, I wouldn't need to write you. I'd be able to call you, if you're still in the mansion, and we'd be able to talk through this stuff.
Unfortunately, I don't have the words to express how I feel.
I feel abandoned, Angel. Like you left me for this big, bad world that you think is so great and you used the guise of my future to make me feel better. Guess what? It didn't work.
I feel like you left to get even with me. I don't know exactly what it is you're getting even with me for, but you have lots to choose from. It could be anything.
It's probably nothing.
It's probably just that like everyone else, you wanted tomove on.
Without me.
I'll accept it, sooner or later.
Give me time.
Love,
Buffy
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Dear Buffy,
I haven't left Sunnydale yet.
I can't bring myself to do it.
It's like this terrible curse is keeping me from leaving, yet it won't let me stay, either.
It's hard to explain.
I know you have to be hurting right now Buffy, but it'll get better, I promise it will.
I have to believe that so that I don't go crazy.
I have to believe that you'll find someone you love and marry him and forget all about me.
I have to believe that, even if my heart doesn't want me to. It's the only way to stay sane.
And even that isn't much help when you know the one thing you want can never be yours.
I love you forever.
Angel