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I dream of him.
He sits, watching
as his people rebuild, unable to do it himself. He is King now; they
will not have him dirty his hands with the mundane. No one
would let the Fanaleans do so- he is the hero of the planet Gaea.
My Van is restless, I can feel it. Merle tries to make him happy,
but she cannot. He reaches for me unknowingly, calling for me to
return.
It is strange.
For so long the Ryugin have been viewed as monsters, yet now one sits upon
the throne of the most powerful of kingdoms. He need not hide his
wings, his beauty, from anyone anymore, but he still does so. It's
selfish of me to be glad, but for now, I am the only one he show that side
of himself to.
I do not read the
Tarot anymore; the cards lie hidden in a drawer, and I hope to forget about
them. I cannot bring myself to throw them away, much to my chagrin.
My childhood is gone, and I have done away with childish things.
Yukari and Amano-sempai
are happy, and I wish I wasn't so jealous. I do not desire Amano
for myself- no, I wish that Van and I could share that together, the happiness
of a couple. I never kissed him.
I wonder what would
have happened if I had. How would his kisses have tasted? Now,
at night, I'll stare up at the sky where Gaea should be, dreaming.
I can feel his strong arms around me, and he whispers my name.
"Hitomi, Aishiterou," he says, and I smile up at him, giggling as his feathers
tickle my face. His eyes cling to my face lovingly....
It is not healthy
for me to dwell so much on him. He is my soulmate, yet we are
worlds apart. We cannot be together... cannot... but I still dream
of him.
I brush a tear from
my eye. Baka! I tell myself. You swore you wouldn't cry anymore
Still, the sky is
brilliant tonight. I wish... I wish I could be back with you, Van!
I wish I could watch as Fanelia recovers!
As though he was thinking
the same thing, a brilliant light forms in the heavens. The
column descends, and there is Van, his wings unfurled. He is not
with a dragon, nor is Escaflowne with him, yet he is the most majestic
sight I have ever seen. In the past year he has truly become King.
The Angel has come to Earth, and this time, I will follow him wherever
he leads until eternity ends.
He is confused; I
can see it in his eyes. Then those same eyes alight on me, and the
joy that fills them is everything I could wish for and more. I sprint
towards him, almost bowling him over with my enthusiasm. He catches
me and brings me tightly against his chest, and I feel his heart pounding.
Like in my daydream, I smile up at him. Wrapping my arms around his
neck, I burry my face in the curve of his nbeck. "Hitomi, Aishiterou,"
he whispers.
The light is starting
to pull us upward- if I'm going to stay on Earth, I'm going to have to
let Van go. I look up into his eyes and he can see the decision written
in my expression. With a laugh that epitomizes happiness, he scoops
me up and lunges into the air.
The light around us
brightens as we race upwards into the sky. Farewell, Amano, Yukari,
'kaasan. I'm sure you'll understand. Finally the light fades
and we are in the air above a place that could only be on Gaea.
Folding his wings
backwards, Van starts to plummet towards the ground, and as much as I trust
him, a small scream catches in my throat. He catches a last gust
of wind and lands gracefully on a ledge, a mischevious grin dancing on
his lips.
I resist the urge
to hit him. Van will never change, nor would I want to change him.
He will always be a touch childish at times. So instead I raise my
face to kiss him. Our first kiss.
His kiss is as sweet
as I had dreamt it would be, but even better because it was finally real.
He is startled by my action, but sets me down without breaking the kiss.
His hand catches the back of my neck and I wish this would never end.
I know it won't. We make our own fate, and mine is going to be here,
with this man, for the rest of eternity... and beyond.
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