I don't know where this came from but it came form somewhere! Nutty
Disclaimer: The creative genius of Joss and David own Angel, Buffy and Cordelia. So don't sue cos i have no money until someone sits up and takes notice of my work, then gives me large amounts of dosh.
Summary: Angels Thoughts as he walks away from Buffy in the Yoko Factor.
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Walking Away - An Angels PoV
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What am i doing? I must be insane. I'm walking away from the only girl i have ever and will ever love with all my heart. She had that tired look on her face that she has when things aren't going her way. She has the whole world on her shoulders and no one who will help her carry the load. I used to help her carry it but then i became the heavest burden of all and i had to leave. I ask myself why am i here? The reason is that i couldn't let her go that one last time. We have a history, the most precious of which she can't remember. That was my choice but i couldn't let her walk away from me, angry with me, hating me. Cordelia had nagged and nagged in that whiney tone she has to go and make it up, but not to make-up too physically. Good old Cora. I know now why i am here. I'm here to see what she has choosen as my replacement. I meant every word i said, that she could move on and i wasn't allowed to. I want her to love and have someone who isn't afraid to love her back, while i don't want to be loved at all. Not even that was certain, i have a family and i feel for the first time that i belong somewhere.
Her blonde hair bobbed around her shoulders as she laughed awkwardly in the coridor, her eyes speaking all that couldn't be said. They said sorry, they said forgive me. They said STAY!, but i couldn't not now, not ever in her life time. If i stay there will be no control so instead i tell her things are OK between us and that all is forgiven. I think she knows deep down inside that i was only trying to help Faith. This wasn't about Faith, this was about closure and forgivness. Closure that we had different worlds and we couldn't let anything interfer with that. We had jobs to do and people to protect but i couldn't leave that bad blood between us. I think she has finally forgiven me for leaving after Graduation Day and knows why i did it.
Riley Finn? What sort of a name is Riley Finn? He sounds like a farmer from way down South. He looks like an over-grown Action Man in that gear. The gun? When have bullets ever killed a Vampire? Not from a hand-gun anyway. From what Cordelia had told me about him, he was a hotshot demon buster but he doesn't act like it. He's taller than me and he has this Arnie look about him. Do i sound jealous? He really had a problem with Vampires, i wonder how he handles Spike and his chip. I don't like him and i don't trust him. I told Buffy that and she just laughed. I don't think i'll ever like any man Buffy dates, i'm allowed to.
I start to walk away, willing myself not to look back. I did and she was reaching for her door handle and i knew that, that was closure. She wasn't going to sudden run into my arms and we would play happy families. Instead she is going to open that door and go back to farmer boy and lie in his arms. So instead i walk away, back to my family who will no doubt be ready with the holy water and the stakes incase me and Buffy did 'make-up'. Cordelia is always over cautious.
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Buffys Pov is chapter 1
Disclaimer: The creative genius of Joss and David own Angel, Buffy and Cordelia. So don't sue cos i have no money until someone sits up and takes notice of my work, then gives me large amounts of dosh.
Summary: Angels Thoughts as he walks away from Buffy in the Yoko Factor.
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Walking Away - An Angels PoV
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What am i doing? I must be insane. I'm walking away from the only girl i have ever and will ever love with all my heart. She had that tired look on her face that she has when things aren't going her way. She has the whole world on her shoulders and no one who will help her carry the load. I used to help her carry it but then i became the heavest burden of all and i had to leave. I ask myself why am i here? The reason is that i couldn't let her go that one last time. We have a history, the most precious of which she can't remember. That was my choice but i couldn't let her walk away from me, angry with me, hating me. Cordelia had nagged and nagged in that whiney tone she has to go and make it up, but not to make-up too physically. Good old Cora. I know now why i am here. I'm here to see what she has choosen as my replacement. I meant every word i said, that she could move on and i wasn't allowed to. I want her to love and have someone who isn't afraid to love her back, while i don't want to be loved at all. Not even that was certain, i have a family and i feel for the first time that i belong somewhere.
Her blonde hair bobbed around her shoulders as she laughed awkwardly in the coridor, her eyes speaking all that couldn't be said. They said sorry, they said forgive me. They said STAY!, but i couldn't not now, not ever in her life time. If i stay there will be no control so instead i tell her things are OK between us and that all is forgiven. I think she knows deep down inside that i was only trying to help Faith. This wasn't about Faith, this was about closure and forgivness. Closure that we had different worlds and we couldn't let anything interfer with that. We had jobs to do and people to protect but i couldn't leave that bad blood between us. I think she has finally forgiven me for leaving after Graduation Day and knows why i did it.
Riley Finn? What sort of a name is Riley Finn? He sounds like a farmer from way down South. He looks like an over-grown Action Man in that gear. The gun? When have bullets ever killed a Vampire? Not from a hand-gun anyway. From what Cordelia had told me about him, he was a hotshot demon buster but he doesn't act like it. He's taller than me and he has this Arnie look about him. Do i sound jealous? He really had a problem with Vampires, i wonder how he handles Spike and his chip. I don't like him and i don't trust him. I told Buffy that and she just laughed. I don't think i'll ever like any man Buffy dates, i'm allowed to.
I start to walk away, willing myself not to look back. I did and she was reaching for her door handle and i knew that, that was closure. She wasn't going to sudden run into my arms and we would play happy families. Instead she is going to open that door and go back to farmer boy and lie in his arms. So instead i walk away, back to my family who will no doubt be ready with the holy water and the stakes incase me and Buffy did 'make-up'. Cordelia is always over cautious.
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Buffys Pov is chapter 1