"Rain Emphasizes Loneliness"
By: Avalon Merquise
DramaQueen572@hotmail.com
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PART ONE
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Heero stood outside on Relena's porch. The rain was pouring, coming down in sheets. He was soaked to the bone, but he didn't notice. All he could think about was Relena Peacecraft. He needed to talk to her. He had to tell her how he felt. The war was finally over, at long last. They could all get on with their lives. No more fighting. No more killing. No more fearing for his life, or Relena's. And no more bottling things up. He could be normal. And this was the first step.
Heero had realized a while ago that he was really in love with Relena. But he didn't want to face that reality at first. He was supposed to be the Perfect Soldier. He couldn't let love get in his way in the middle of a war. At first he hadn't understood it. Relena knew his secret, so he had to kill her. He had promised her over and over that he would kill her, and he'd had the opportunity to do it more than once. And more often than not, he'd ended up rescuing her.
He told himself that he was only saving her so that he could be the one to kill her. But then he began seeing her face everywhere. But he still denied it. He wouldn't let himself believe he was in love with her. But then he'd risked his own life to protect her when Peacemillion rammed into Libra. It when then that he realized he truly loved her, with his whole heart, and he stopped denying it. He knew he would never kill her. He'd sooner kill himself.
Just seeing Relena though, her intense blue eyes, her golden hair, her warm smile, it made him crazy. He wanted her so badly. But he couldn't let her distract him from his mission. That was why, even though it pained him terribly, he always left her. He was always so cold to her. All he wanted was to be around Relena, but he was a Gundam pilot. It was his duty to fight.
Heero fought passionately to end the war. He hated seeing people die, innocent people getting hurt and losing their lives, families being torn apart, little girls' dogs being killed. He had dome it to them, but it was the war that had forced him to do it. He had to fight so that the war would end. No more death, no more tears, no more sadness and anger caused by him.
Sorrow and anger had taken over everyone's minds during the war, and love was left behind. There was no room left for love. Heero hated that. That was why he felt his place was on the battlefield. To eliminate sorrow and anger so that love could reign once again.
And he had succeeded! Not he himself, but everyone; the other Gundam pilots, the Preventers, their combined effort had brought this terrible war to a final end, and love was back. He could finally reveal his feelings to Relena.
He only hoped she still wanted him. When they first met, it was obvious she had feelings for him. He knew that, but he had still brushed her off. Then he realized that he cared deeply for her. But what if she had moved on? He didn't deserve her, after the way he'd been acting.
"Relena..." he whispered.
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By: Avalon Merquise
DramaQueen572@hotmail.com
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PART ONE
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Heero stood outside on Relena's porch. The rain was pouring, coming down in sheets. He was soaked to the bone, but he didn't notice. All he could think about was Relena Peacecraft. He needed to talk to her. He had to tell her how he felt. The war was finally over, at long last. They could all get on with their lives. No more fighting. No more killing. No more fearing for his life, or Relena's. And no more bottling things up. He could be normal. And this was the first step.
Heero had realized a while ago that he was really in love with Relena. But he didn't want to face that reality at first. He was supposed to be the Perfect Soldier. He couldn't let love get in his way in the middle of a war. At first he hadn't understood it. Relena knew his secret, so he had to kill her. He had promised her over and over that he would kill her, and he'd had the opportunity to do it more than once. And more often than not, he'd ended up rescuing her.
He told himself that he was only saving her so that he could be the one to kill her. But then he began seeing her face everywhere. But he still denied it. He wouldn't let himself believe he was in love with her. But then he'd risked his own life to protect her when Peacemillion rammed into Libra. It when then that he realized he truly loved her, with his whole heart, and he stopped denying it. He knew he would never kill her. He'd sooner kill himself.
Just seeing Relena though, her intense blue eyes, her golden hair, her warm smile, it made him crazy. He wanted her so badly. But he couldn't let her distract him from his mission. That was why, even though it pained him terribly, he always left her. He was always so cold to her. All he wanted was to be around Relena, but he was a Gundam pilot. It was his duty to fight.
Heero fought passionately to end the war. He hated seeing people die, innocent people getting hurt and losing their lives, families being torn apart, little girls' dogs being killed. He had dome it to them, but it was the war that had forced him to do it. He had to fight so that the war would end. No more death, no more tears, no more sadness and anger caused by him.
Sorrow and anger had taken over everyone's minds during the war, and love was left behind. There was no room left for love. Heero hated that. That was why he felt his place was on the battlefield. To eliminate sorrow and anger so that love could reign once again.
And he had succeeded! Not he himself, but everyone; the other Gundam pilots, the Preventers, their combined effort had brought this terrible war to a final end, and love was back. He could finally reveal his feelings to Relena.
He only hoped she still wanted him. When they first met, it was obvious she had feelings for him. He knew that, but he had still brushed her off. Then he realized that he cared deeply for her. But what if she had moved on? He didn't deserve her, after the way he'd been acting.
"Relena..." he whispered.
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