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~written in datapad format~
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Well, I've had a workout and a soak in the tub, and I feel much better. Physically, at least. I'm still nervous and jumpy and worried. A servant came and asked if I was hungry, which made me realize that I was and she just brought in a huge tray of really gourmet looking food. Especially the dessert. Umm, umm, umm. I feel sort of guilty indulging like this when things are so dire, but I have to eat, don't I? And I did all of the responsible things that needed to be done before wasting my time on irresponsible things.
Padmé, Rabé and Eirtaé came back just after I finished my workout and I helped get Padmé ready for the Senate session before I got in the fresher. I would have taken a longer bath, but I want to watch the broadcast of the Senate session.
Our room has two holopads, and I've got one playing the session and the other playing the latest holodrama. I'm trying to have fun, but I think I'm just too responsible now. It's all that annoying training we've been going through these past months. I keep wondering if Padmé needs my help, and how things will go with the Senate. Now that I've walked a day in her shoes, I feel a lot more sympathetic. I know what it's like now to have to act Queenly and confident when you're really quaking with nervousness. Of course, Padmé is the Queen for a reason–she's good at it–but I'm sure she still gets nervous.
Ooh, wait–it's coming on–and there's Padmé!
I'll write more later, 'kay?
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