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Chapter 1: I
can't forget
"Li!
No!" Sakura moaned, turning and tossing in her sleep. "Why did you
have to leave me?" As she whimpered, Kero looked at her, concerned. This
was the 5th time that she had woken him up that night with her
nightmares. Shaking her gently, Kero woke up the Cardmistress.
"Are
you okay?" Sakura sat up, hugging her knees to her chest sniffling softly.
The pain on her face was clear.
"I
keep on dreaming about him…" she whispered. "It hurts…" Kero
hated the Chinese Brat. Fiercely. He had left Sakura five years ago, and had
never returned. Not a single letter, phone call, or message. It had torn her
up, leaving behind a shell of the girl she had once been. "I can't sleep
like this…" she said hollowly. Kero returned with a cup of warmed milk and
she drank deeply, wiping her mouth with her sleeve when she finished.
"Thanks." Kero smiled, grateful to help.
"No
prob. I'll be in bed if you need me." He hopped back into his drawer. Thinking
to himself, Kero drifted off to sleep amidst Sakura's shallow breathing.
The next
morning, Kero confronted Tomoyo about Sakura's mental health. "She's getting
all these nightmares and I don't know what to do!" he exclaimed, almost
hysterical. "And they're all about the brat!" Tomoyo winced.
"You mean
Li Syaoran?" Kero nodded, so upset he couldn't speak. Tomoyo sighed. "She won't
get over him. I've tried! You've seen me. Every morning, we go to the park, or go shopping, or something, but she
just acts so depressed and everything. Sometimes she won't even speak to me."
As Tomoyo spoke, Kero suddenly thought of a way to cheer Sakura up.
"Okay,
since it's the summer, we can go to Hong Kong and actually drag Li back here!
And when he sees Sakura, he'll want to stay!" Tomoyo laughed at Kero's
outrageous idea.
"Reality
check, Kero-chan. What about Meilin?" Kero looked crestfallen.
"Oh.
Her."
Tomoyo
suddenly looked determined. "My mother is going on a business trip to Hong Kong
in a few days, and I was going to stay with Sakura. But we can go get Syaoran
if we want. I mean, this is for Sakura. Look at how this tears her up…"
Kero nodded and gritted his teeth. "If it's for
Sakura….."
Sakura
Kinnimoto was in the park, walking by herself. She used to enjoy rollerblading,
but now, it just didn't hold any fun for her. Actually, to her, nothing was
fun. Ever since he had left. And now even Tomoyo and Kero had left on
what they called "urgent business". As she looked down at the ground, she
didn't notice a couple of young teenagers standing in front of her. When she
bumped into them, she looked up, mumbling a word of apology. One of the girls
in the group took her elbow.
"What's
wrong with you, girl? Have some fun!" Surprised, Sakura showed a small smile.
The girl put her arm around Sakura and introduced herself. "I'm Hilde and these
are my friends Yukari and Ming. How 'bout hanging out with us today?" Her
friends agreed enthusiastically.
Sakura
shook her head, wanting to be alone. "Thanks, but no thanks. I kind of want to
be alone today." The girls sighed and waved, walking away. Thinking to herself,
Sakura thought about what she was going to do today. Walk, go home, watch TV on
the couch, fall asleep…the usual. Except she would try not to fall asleep,
because that was when the dreams came. Changing her mind suddenly, she ran to
catch up with the girls. Anything would be better than seeing him again
only to wake up sobbing.
Later
that night, Sakura dressed in her favourite clothes and rushed out to join her
new friends as they headed toward the party. "Wait..what kind of party is
this?" Sakura asked nervously.
Ming
giggled. "You'll find out when we get there! It's really fun." They entered a
warehouse with pounding music and screaming teenagers. Sakura looked around for
her new friends, and they dragged her to the bar, ordering a drink for her.
Eyeing it nervously, she picked it up gingerly and sipped. Yukari watched her
face as Sakura struggled to get it down.
"Hey,
it's pretty good!" she exclaimed. Downing the whole thing, she asked the
bartender for more. Her friends laughed and dragged her over to a deserted
corner.
"There's
something that tastes even better, and it'll help you feel a lot better." Hilde
whispered. "But this is only for you, make sure no one sees you. Here." She
handed Sakura a packet.
"Hoe?
What is this?" she asked curiously. Sniffing it, her frown deepened. "I'm not
sure about this…."
"Oh, come
on!" Ming breathed. "We've all tried it. It makes you feel really good. And
it's not like you'll get addicted or anything, see, we're all fine!"
"And
besides," Hilde added, "You won't feel so down anymore." Sakura still didn't
look convinced.
"Are you
guys sure about this? I mean, no one and nothing can help me get out of this
mood. Only one person can..and I won't see him ever again." As she said that,
tears welled up, threatening to spill over.
Yukari
sighed in exasperation. " We promise, this will help you. We've all been like
you, totally down, but this really helps. Just try it."
But..I can't do this….what about Tomoyo and Kero? And my dad? They will
be really disappointed in me…a nasty little voice whispered in her head: But
they're not here, are they? They probably don't even care about what you do. But..what about Syaoran? Where
is he now? Probably in Hong Kong married to Meilin right now! Remember, he left
you! But he promised to come back..do you really believe that?
Sakura
had no answer. Looking down at the tiny little packet Hilde had drawn out of
her purse, she made up her mind. "Okay, I'll do it. There's nothing else that
will help me, anyway. Nothing else to live for…."
"Alright,
girl!" Ming laughed, giving her a high five. Sakura mustered up a small smile,
but inside she felt hollow and empty…exactly like the day that he had left her.
A/N:: so,
how do you like it? I think my ending isn't very good…I'll probably change it
if anybody agrees. There will be more chapters soon if I get some feedback, and
PLz tell me if itz good or not. I'll be really grateful for some reviews.