Trickle - 26 - Spiders

"She didn't want to see what I would do, if Seifer didn't come back."

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This isn't real. I know he's alive. He has to be!

Backing away from the bed slowly, I stared at his body.

"No Seifer! Wake up! Come on, this isn't funny!"

It seemed we were miles apart. It seemed he could hear me, but he was deciding not to answer. He was watching me break down, and he wanted to listen to it. He was alive a minute ago...he was holding me seconds ago, but he was being cruel, and wanted to feel me die.

Not knowing what to do, I quickly ran out into the hall, and began banging on Squall's room door hysterically.

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"Squall! Come out! Something's wrong with Seifer!"

I was screaming, and was surprised to find out, that I only ended up waking him and Rinoa.

It took about 13 seconds for him to open the door. He stood there rubbing his eyes.

"What?!"

I could tell he was not fully awake, by the sound of his voice, and the way he looked so disoriented.

Rinoa appeared from the darkness of their room not saying anything, and ran into mine. We followed her.

"How could this happen? Did you wake up and find him like this?"

Squall's voice was shaky. He was nervous. It was hard to believe that the man responsible for the scar across his forehead may be dead.

He ran over, and began shaking Seifer quickly, giving him a few swift pats on the cheek. Rinoa stood there, with her head in her hands, shocked, and afraid to see Squall back away, and join us, because there was no hope.

I withdrew from the madness.

The room was still dark, no on had bothered to turn the light on. None of us seemed to notice at the time that the only light we had was a blue glow, which made us all look like we were dead.

"STOP IT! Stop hitting him!"

I crazily pulled Squall off of Seifer, who was lying there defenseless.

He just looked at me, and turned away angrily.

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It got silent.

"What are we going to do?!" Rinoa was pacing back and forth quickly, Squall sat on the edge of the bed, with his head in his hands, and I finally reached for the bottle.

"I don't know if this is going to work, but we could at least try." I sounded different. I was calm, but I was losing it. I was dead, but I was breathing.

Removing the cap, I tilted his head back, and poured our universe...our paradise into his mouth.

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We all stood and watched. All I needed to see was a simple twitch. A blink of his eyes, I need him to sit up, and hold me. We could laugh at the incident. No, we wouldn't even laugh about it. It'd only be brought back up, when there's a day we have to share the moment we each died.

With Seifer gone, a small part of all of us is dead. There wouldn't be life in the hallways anymore. There wouldn't be no one to make us feel small, because we need that sometimes. There wouldn't be no one to be afraid of. There'd be no one to love. No one to make you laugh when you need it, no one to tell you to go ahead cry, when there's something bothering you. In a unkind way, there'd be no one to feel special, because in their eyes, they had more than Seifer ever will.

Squall and Rinoa looked on, as I laid my head on his chest.

Please wake up Seifer.

"Give it time Quistis, it needs to sink in...Give it time."

Squall was trying to calm me down. I guess he could hear my mind screaming.

Come on, I feel you...come to me.

"We could still go Seifer...it's waiting for us...there's time...we could still go."

I ran my fingers down his hands. I'm so unstable. I feel so dizzy. I don't know how long I can hold on.

Rinoa buried her face in Squall's chest. She couldn't watch my face be so expressionless. She didn't want to hear me talking about leaving everyone behind. She didn't want to see what I would do, if Seifer didn't come back.

While a small part of everyone would be missing...if he doesn't wake up soon...EVERY part of me would be gone with him.

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"Dreams are made winding through my head." -System of a Down

Notes: I'm baaack! Sorry it took so long. I've been having some problems, and today... My boyfriend...*sniff* BROKE UP WITH ME! *Holding back tears* You're probably wondering why I'm telling you this...well...you guys are my reviewers...my friends, I think you have a right to know where I've been. I'm not sure if our relationship is enough to get so sad about. There wasn't much to save...I just thought that when he told me he cared about my well being...that he meant it. I knew it would end...I just didn't think it would today.

I'm going to go now...those that care...do me a favor...write me reviews? *Hopeful look in eyes*

Chapter 27 will be posted when I'm finished feeling guilty, and dumb.