Fallen Angel - Part 2
He's my fallen angel in a way. Sent straight from heaven. To torture me. It's not fair. The one man I am truly in love with , pays no attention to me. And when he does , it's "Potter' s Girlfriend" or " Mudblood. No . He dates Pansy Parkinson , a slimy Syltherin with a face like a pug. I love Draco so much. But he won't notice me . Ever.
My father is going to KILL me ! How could I let myself ? I swore I wouldn't -
that I would never - I couldn't - But no. It's like telling a little kid not to touch the hot stove , and the next thing you know , it's hands are all over it. I fell in love with a mud blood , plain , but pretty . Smart. Worthless to my father . Friend of Harry Potter. Everything in the Social sense was wrong with her. But she was perfect. Perfect to me. How could I let myself ? But you can't choose who you fall in love with. And I obviously didn't.
Harry would make so much fun of me. Ron would goggle at me , and then begin to laugh. My parents would probably disown me. However , I couldn't help but feel that I would do anything for him. And the worst part was , I could never admit it. He would laugh at me. Humiliate me. How could I let myself fall in love with you ?
I had always been good at controlling my emotions. I let nothing show. It was the way for a peaceful life in my house. My mother , ever so quiet , sat in a corner and read , never anything else. I think she was more afraid of my father than his victims were. My father , silent , calculating , cruel , heartless ... always sat in his study and worked. I never knew what about , but it wasn't that hard to figure out. He was Death Eater. Everyone knew that. He taught me to control my feelings , taught me that no one cared. But now I can't. I have never had that feeling before. I didn't like it. I had fallen in love with - Hermione ?
'Um , Hermione ?"
"Yeah Ron ?"
'Are you - you alright ?"
"Of course I am. Why ?"
"You seem , I dunno - off in your own little bubble ?'
"Don't be daft."
"I'm not !"
"Yes you are ! I'm perfectly fine ! And any way , since when have YOU cared?"
Ron gaped at me as I ran up the stairs. I could feel his eyes , almost see his jaw on the floor. I was so stupid sometimes ! I had been in love with Ron in my fourth year , and he had been too slow to notice. But now it was too late. But of course he still cared ... But Draco didn't. And that's what hurt.
"Wishin' and hopin'
And thinkin' and prayin'
planning and dreaming
each night of his charms
That won't get you into his arms
So if you are looking to find love
That you can share
all you gotta do
Is hold him
and kiss him , and love him
and show him that you care"
"uh - , uh Draco ?"
"Hmm ?"
"What are you doing ?'
"Taking a shower. What does it look like , Goyle ?"
"Well , you - uh , you were , singing !'
'Yeah , most people do ..."
"Oh. Uh , right ."
Malfoy shrugged. He had been singing , what he hoped Hermione was feeling. He gave a little chuckle , just thinking about the look on Snape's face if he ever went out with her. If she ever cared.
He's my fallen angel in a way. Sent straight from heaven. To torture me. It's not fair. The one man I am truly in love with , pays no attention to me. And when he does , it's "Potter' s Girlfriend" or " Mudblood. No . He dates Pansy Parkinson , a slimy Syltherin with a face like a pug. I love Draco so much. But he won't notice me . Ever.
My father is going to KILL me ! How could I let myself ? I swore I wouldn't -
that I would never - I couldn't - But no. It's like telling a little kid not to touch the hot stove , and the next thing you know , it's hands are all over it. I fell in love with a mud blood , plain , but pretty . Smart. Worthless to my father . Friend of Harry Potter. Everything in the Social sense was wrong with her. But she was perfect. Perfect to me. How could I let myself ? But you can't choose who you fall in love with. And I obviously didn't.
Harry would make so much fun of me. Ron would goggle at me , and then begin to laugh. My parents would probably disown me. However , I couldn't help but feel that I would do anything for him. And the worst part was , I could never admit it. He would laugh at me. Humiliate me. How could I let myself fall in love with you ?
I had always been good at controlling my emotions. I let nothing show. It was the way for a peaceful life in my house. My mother , ever so quiet , sat in a corner and read , never anything else. I think she was more afraid of my father than his victims were. My father , silent , calculating , cruel , heartless ... always sat in his study and worked. I never knew what about , but it wasn't that hard to figure out. He was Death Eater. Everyone knew that. He taught me to control my feelings , taught me that no one cared. But now I can't. I have never had that feeling before. I didn't like it. I had fallen in love with - Hermione ?
'Um , Hermione ?"
"Yeah Ron ?"
'Are you - you alright ?"
"Of course I am. Why ?"
"You seem , I dunno - off in your own little bubble ?'
"Don't be daft."
"I'm not !"
"Yes you are ! I'm perfectly fine ! And any way , since when have YOU cared?"
Ron gaped at me as I ran up the stairs. I could feel his eyes , almost see his jaw on the floor. I was so stupid sometimes ! I had been in love with Ron in my fourth year , and he had been too slow to notice. But now it was too late. But of course he still cared ... But Draco didn't. And that's what hurt.
"Wishin' and hopin'
And thinkin' and prayin'
planning and dreaming
each night of his charms
That won't get you into his arms
So if you are looking to find love
That you can share
all you gotta do
Is hold him
and kiss him , and love him
and show him that you care"
"uh - , uh Draco ?"
"Hmm ?"
"What are you doing ?'
"Taking a shower. What does it look like , Goyle ?"
"Well , you - uh , you were , singing !'
'Yeah , most people do ..."
"Oh. Uh , right ."
Malfoy shrugged. He had been singing , what he hoped Hermione was feeling. He gave a little chuckle , just thinking about the look on Snape's face if he ever went out with her. If she ever cared.