This is for Emily/Anifan1. A great thanks for asking me to continue --
but next time, be more careful what you wish for! ;;-)



My name is Tom Berenson.

My parents are helpless slaves like me. My little brother Jake is living in
constant danger of his life. I hate it, but what can I do about it?

My cousin Rachel is fighting alongside Jake. Her mother and sisters have
disappeared. If they're alive, they must be living in hiding, under miserable
conditions. I hate it, but what can I do about it?

Visser One (formerly Three), who is responsible for all of this, is getting
stronger every day. Now many of his loyal Yeerks, including the one in my
head, even have morph-capable bodies. I hate it, but what can I do about
it?

I think Visser One will surely win very soon. Then he'll kill or infest
everyone. I think the ones he kills will be the lucky ones. I hate it, but
what can I do about it?

I do know that all of us -- hosts, free people and aliens, and Yeerks
-- should have a better life. But let's face it, it's not Tom Berenson
who can accomplish that. Not one particle of it.

What's strange is that I used to try anyway. I used to fight the
power of the likes of Visser One. Yeah, believe it or not. I used to fight
Temrash, and later Talmas. Honestly. I tried to take control of my body
and all that. It seems real weird, looking back, but it's true.

Of course I don't do it anymore. What's the use, I mean? It would be no help
for anyone, only a symbolic gesture. Some people believe in symbolic
gestures, but I don't. Maybe if a gesture is seen by someone else, and it can
give him strength...but in my case, it would only be seen by Talmas 568. Who
would then punish me, and perhaps even my parents.

So no matter how hard I tried, I'd have no way to help anyone against the
Yeerks. I hate it, but what can I do about it?

A good thing that at least I'm clear about this. I realized it not long
after the experiments with Formula 71. See, the Yeerk scientists -- with a
little help from my sister-in-law -- had found out that it's impossible to
eliminate free will completely. So they decided to take back from their goal
a bit. The result was Formula 72, a successful drug.

At first they only gave it to a few of the most rebellious hosts, the
hosts like I used to be. But now it's becoming more widely used. They
predict that about ten years from now, it will be the common cure for host
rebellion.

And yeah, I hate that, too. But what on Earth can I do about it?