"Innocence"
Hey, everyone! Sorry part five took so long, but I got into a fight with my computer and floppy disk that caused extreme frustration and anger... Computer won. *sigh* Oh, well. At least part six is finally here, so I finally won. That's modern technology for you.
Disclaimer: Sailor Moon and all related characters and so on and so forth belong to Naoko Takeuchi and Pioneer. Only the plot belongs to me, so please don't sue for the only $.25 that I have to my name. I like to drink tea for lunch...
On with the show!!
Oh, by the way, this part is told strictly from Usagi's POV, as in first-person. If you don't like it written this way and think I should do succeeding chapters in my previous method, do say so. But I won't change this one. Good day and strawberries to you. :)
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I'm here in my bed again, all the Senshi having returned to theirs, but for the first time since I have learned of this deadly secret I have hope. Hope for the future, hope for my kingdom, hope for my daughter. I know now that even if I shan't survive this undertaking, I know she will be cared for. I have wasted too many years worrying over Mamoru and Raye. Now, finally, I can find within myself forgiveness, should they return to the reunion. At least they have the chance to be happy together. I owe them that.
Night has come again, following day as it has done and will continue to do, long after I am gone. The night is beautiful, peaceful, serene. Funny, I think, is why I am named after such a peaceful feeling, when most of the time my life is naught but turmoil.
There is so much to do, so much to prepare for. The time between now and the reunion is coming to a close, and I have done but so little. Haruka, Michiru, and Ami say they will be here for me throughout the course of my illness, whether or not I should survive.
We have done so much already, ever since we were but teenagers we have faced the deadliest creatures Earth has ever seen. And yet, I always knew the end would come, but I imagined it in the grasp of a youma or the power of the Imperium Silver Crystal, not within the shadow of a deadly disease. So many times I have faced death, in destroying a youma or in a victim I could not save, and I sit here now, contemplating my own.
Yes, I know I said that I am hopeful; but hope isn't an easy emotion to hold on to when your world falls apart around you. It is so much easier to let go; to stop fighting and give up. But that is the coward's way out; I am not a coward, I could not possibly be with the things I have done.
It's true I wasn't the bravest Senshi during my youth, but I like to think I have matured since then. It is surprising what marriage and motherhood can change in a person.
More people should be arriving in the morning. The reunion is but two days away, and already I grow anxious to see my friends again. Oh, how we have drifted apart these past few years; too busy with careers or love lives, and my divorce from Mamoru. All these things have made us strangers, and I long for the closeness and innocence we once shared.
The day is over; it is time for sleep. My mind and body are undeniably tired, and I expect tomorrow shall prove eventful.
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Well, what do you think? Is it getting interesting? At least you know what's wrong, now. Please, review!
Lady Pluto