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Thoughts from the Tears
Chapter 4
I walked to park.
Why? I don't know. I mean, I could have chosen the zoo or someplace that would
have cheered me up, but I went to the lonely 'ol park. I guess that shows how
stupid I really am. I sat down on a bench and stared into the sparkling pond. It's
so beautiful. Why couldn't my life be this pretty and peaceful? Tears
started flooding my eyes and started racing down my face like a waterfall, and
yet, I seemed to have no control over them. It was strange, call me crazy if
you'd like, but the tears seemed to say something to me! The teller of the
message was that ghostly voice again. It spoke with anger and frustration.
Why do you even
care?!? You don't *need* a "pretty and peaceful" world. This
peacefulness is deceiving you! It wants you to *think* that it is beautiful,
but it's not. It's ugly and evil. [AN: ironic how an evil voice is saying how the beauty
is ugly and evil, isn't it?!] The bight colors, the pastel colors are *all*
evil. And so are all your "friends," as you call them. You don't
need them! They don't care about you at all!
My own voice
interrupted, Yes, I *do* need them! They *do* care for me, as I do them! As
the battle between the voices in my head, I continued to cry. They've
got you brainwashed, don't you see that?! Wouldn't they have come to see if you
were all right if they were your "friends?"
I finally
understood what she was saying. It was almost like seeing the light at the end
of the tunnel. [AN: So, cliché, isn't it though?] I spoke softly to myself. Maybe
she's right. Maybe they really don't care about me. The voice spoke again.
That's right. You don't need them. All you need is me. "No," I
stated contradicted out loud and bluntly, "all I need is ME."
You're right.
But, with my help, you can give your "friends" the payback that they
deserve! Are you willing to accept my generous offer? I smile viciously and wiped
the remaining tears away from my face like unwanted trash. "Yes," I
hissed. With that, I closed my eyes thinking of only evil thoughts. As a black
cloud surrounded me, it covered up any purity that was left inside me.
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He he he! Yet
another cliffhanger!!! I'm sorry! But I just can't seem to help it! ^ ^; Sorry
if the convos inside Usagi's head got you confused… I hope it didn't though… Just 5 more and I'll post the next chapter!!!