The Morning After
Title: Wild Hearts
Can't Be Broken
Author: Dannette
Summary: After losing Pacey and
Gretchen, Joey and Dawson are brought back together.
Note: Takes place after "Promicide".
CHAPTER 2: THE MORNING AFTER
Beep. Beep. Beep.
Joey groaned as the alarm of her
digital clock went off, the annoying sound invading her ears, refusing
to let Joey sleep in any more; Joey didn't want to wake up, but she knew
that she had taken too many days off of school anyways and plus there was
always Dawson...
Joey let a little smile spread across
her face when she thought about Dawson, he had really been there for her
last night. It had felt like old times, just her and Dawson watching old
movies, not caring about anything else but each other and whatever was
playing on the screen.
"Joey! Get ready for school!"
Joey sighed, Joey kicked off the
blankets that her body was entangled in, she threw her legs over the side
of her bed and looked down at the floor. Joey didn't know if she had the
guts to face everyone at school today, Joey had always been the strong
one as Dawson had commented last night but Joey didn't feel strong; Actually
Joey felt weak and helpless, and it was all Pacey's fault.
"Now Joey!"
Joey rolled her brown eyes and pushed
herself up from her bed and walked over to the walk-in closet in her room;
Joey grabbed a long sleeved white shirt and a pair of black pants and went
into the bathroom to change into the clothes she picked out. Joey sighed,
as she looked at her reflection in the mirror, there were dark circles
underneath her eyes, she looked like she hadn't been sleeping in days,
and well that was half true; Actually last night was the first night that
she got her full 12 hours sleep. Sighing once more Joey slipped out of
her bed clothes and slipped on the clothes she picked out, after getting
dressed Joey brushed her hair and pulled it back into a tight pony-tail
and then slipped on her black tennis shoes. Joey looked down at her watch,
she wanted to get to school a little earlier then usual, she wanted to
meet Dawson; Joey grabbed her jacket and backpack and ran out of the bathroom
and out of her room and into the kitchen, Joey grabbed an apple and smiled
at Bessie.
"Hey Jo, are you sure you're going
to be okay with going to school today?"
Bessie stared at Joey with a concerned
look in her eyes, Bessie was incredibly worried about Joey, she had seen
Joey this past week and what she saw was no good; Joey had looked so depressed
in the past few days and Bessie had no idea how to fix that, she didn't
know how to fix Joey, there was only one person she knew that could fix
Joey, Bessie only knew one person who could make Joey "Joey" again... unfortunately
that person was in pain as well.
"No not really, but if I'm going
to graduate, I'm going have to go back to school."
Joey hefted her backpack on her
left shoulder and waved at Bessie.
"If I have a mental breakdown, you'll
be the first one to know; Bye Bess, Alex."
Joey took a bite of the apple and
ran out the door before Bessie could say something in response.
[Capeside High]
"So senior prom, who's going to bring
it up?"
Dawson looked away from his locker
and stared at Jen, shaking his head, Dawson went back to trying to find
his math book; Jack laughed.
"Um, Jen, you kind of already brought
it up."
Jack leaned against a metal locker
and smiled at Jen when she leaned against the locker next to him.
"Well what happened? I was totally
trashed throughout the whole thing, and to make things worse I spent the
whole night with Drue. Ugh."
Jack smirked, Dawson slammed his
locker door shut in aggravation catching Jen and Jack's attention.
"What's your problem Dawson?" Jen
asked, giving Dawson a look.
Dawson sighed, "A lot of stuff happened
at prom that is way more important then you getting drunk."
Jack bit down on his lip, suddenly
feeling uncomfortable that he was literally in between Jen and Dawson.
Jack looked at Dawson and saw the anger etched on Dawson's face, what was
Dawson so angry about? Jack knew something big had happened at prom, but
since he was outside with Tobey, he had no idea what it was, but now he
was starting to get worried. First Joey had refused to talk to him and
now Dawson was slamming locker-doors shut and snapping at Jen.
Joey walked down the halls of Capeside
High, frantically trying to find Dawson; Joey could hear people whispering
things and she could feel their eyes on her, but right now, all that mattered
was finding Dawson. Joey pushed past a few people and then smiled to herself
when she saw Dawson by his locker.
"Hi."
Joey glanced at Jen and Jack, she
waved at them, but then instantly turned to Dawson and smiled at him. Dawson
stop staring at his locker and looked at Joey once she walked over to them,
Oh
geez... she looks beautiful, Dawson shook the thought of his mind as
quick as it came in, god why was he doing this to himself? He knew that
he could never win Joey back, there was no way, he could have her heart
back, he lost that a long time ago; Dawson smiled at Joey.
"Hey Jo, are you feeling better?"
Joey nodded and ignored the concerned
'what's up?' looks she was getting from Jack and Jen, she wasn't ready
to tell them what happened at senior prom yet.
"I'm okay, hey want to catch some
breakfast before class starts?"
Dawson nodded.
"Sure, let's go."
Joey smiled and waved at Jack and
Jen once more and took off with Dawson heading towards the cafeteria, Joey
usually didn't like eating at the cafeteria but she needed a few minutes
alone with Dawson, and if she had to succumb to school food, then so be
it.
Jen and Jack turned and looked at
each other; Jen shook her head, for once she had no idea what was going
on, sure her and Joey had gotten real close during their New York trip,
but she had no idea what was going on with her two friends.
"Don't ask me Jack."
Jen turned when she heard footsteps
and stared at Pacey, who had a tired look on his face. Jen went to say
hi to him but Pacey walked right past them ignoring them.
"Maybe it has something to do with
Pacey ignoring us."
Jen shrugged at Jack's suggestion.
"Oh great, Joey plus Dawson plus
Pacey equals big love triangle."
Joey sat down at one of the cafeteria
tables that had no one sitting in it, Joey place her tray of cafeteria
food on the table in front of her and smiled at Dawson, when he did the
same and sat down next to her.
"I wasn't really hungry, I just
wanted to spend a few minutes alone with you before school officially started."
Dawson nodded and pushed his tray
away from him.
"Same here, I would never want to
eat this food voluntarily Jo."
Joey laughed quietly at Dawson's
joke, but then she laughed once more when she thought, that it was probably
true. Joey pushed her tray next to Dawson's and looked around the cafeteria
and saw some people staring at her. "What's up Joey?"
Joey looked back at Dawson and sighed.
"It's just -- God, everyone is staring
at me Dawson! On the way to your locker, all I could hear was people whispering
things, probably about me."
Dawson looked away from Joey and
stared at some of the people, he sighed and turned back to Joey.
"Who cares Jo? When did you start
caring about what people think of you?"
Joey rolled her eyes.
"Since my ex-boyfriend told the
whole school that I make him feel like shit."
Dawson lowered his eyes, his anger
towards Pacey was growing every minute he saw Joey looking sad or troubled.
The pain she was going through, it just wasn't fair and Dawson wanted it
to stop for her, he wanted Joey to be happy, he wanted all the pain she
was feeling to go away, but he didn't know how to do that.
"That's Pacey's fault, not yours.
He was feeling bad and he lashed out at you, you didn't deserve it."
Joey closed her eyes and held them
closed for the longest time and then looked back up at Dawson.
"Do I make you feel like you're
nothing?"
Dawson stared at Joey, his eyes
held a shocked look in them; He never once thought that Joey would ask
him that, he thought she already knew what she made him feel like. Dawson
smiled sadly at his best friend.
"Joey. I didn't think I needed to
tell you how you made me feel, I thought you already knew how you made
me feel, but I guess this thing with Pacey has made you lose sight of that.
Joey Potter, you have never once made me feel like I'm nothing, actually
that is the furthest from how you make me feel. You make me feel whole
Jo, you make me feel like I'm something. My dreams, my aspirations,
my goals... they're all because of you, so when you ask me if you make
me feel like I'm nothing, you should already know the answer Joey."
Joey stared at Dawson, not sure
of what to say, his words were so beautiful, they held so much meaning.
Joey heard the first school bell, indicating that they got at least 5 minutes
to get to class before they were late; Joey continued to stare at Dawson,
not saying a word; Now it really felt like old times, just her and Dawson
staring into each other's eyes not planning on anything to say, just living
in that moment, just holding that gaze just long enough to tell each other
how much they cared about each other.
"Thank you." Joey finally said.
Dawson smiled and pushed himself
and reached his hand out to Joey, who took it; Dawson pulled Joey up and
smiled sweetly at her.
"No problem, school awaits."
Joey rolled her eyes.
"Just great."
Dawson laughed and he leaded him
and Joey towards their first class, math.
Pacey lingered in the background,
watching the scene lay out in front of him, with a sad look on his face.
Joey was happy, that was what he wanted her to be, but as much as he had
wanted that, he wanted to be the one that made her happy. But watching
Joey and Dawson, made him see that he could never be the one that made
Joey happy, sure he could make her happy for a little while, but he could
never completely make her happy, not like Dawson could. Dawson had this
ability, to make Joey happy to her fullest, Dawson could look into Joey's
eyes and know what she is feeling, Dawson could just be there and make
Joey smile big. Pacey had only had that ability over Andie, yeah he made
Andie incredibly happy, but that relationship was doomed, the minute Andie
told him the truth it was all over, and Joey had entered his life as this
constant reminder that all women in his life didn't have to be out to hurt
him, but Joey she was in love with him, and that made it worse when he
lashed out at her. It wasn't the women that hurt him, it wasn't the women
that destroyed the relationship... it was him. Pacey sighed, and took off
for his first class, history; Pacey let his eyes stare at Joey and Dawson
for a few more seconds before leaving as well.
[Math Class]
Joey flipped through her math textbook,
Mr. Williams, her math teacher had just told the class to just work on
some math problems; Joey stopped at page 19 and groaned, she hated math
the most out of all her school subjects. Dawson watched Joey flip through
math pages, he had to smile to himself, he knew for a fact Joey hated math
the most, he wished he could see her face, but all he could see was the
back of her head, but he could just see her face and it made him smile
even bigger.
"What are you smiling at?"
Joey asked Dawson, looking at him
over her shoulder; Dawson smirked and pulled his desk closer to Joey's.
"You. You got your 'I hate math'
looks on your face, it's entertaining."
Joey smiled, her brown eyes twinkling
back at Dawson, for a few minutes she let all of her problems stay unsolved,
and she just stared back at Dawson, her life-long friend, her human picker
upper.
"Well thank you mister Leery, for
taking pleasure in my pain."
Dawson smiled, and opened his mouth
to say something but the voice of Mr. Williams, made him shut his mouth.
"Excuse me you two little lovebirds,
you think you could pay attention to the math work, instead of each other?"
Joey blushed and turned the other
way and Dawson opened his math book and flipped to page 19, grabbing is
pencil Dawson started his math work, a red color rising in his face.
"Could you be anymore obvious Leery?"
Dawson glared once the hushed taunting
voice of Drue Valentine hissed into his left ear; God, words couldn't even
explain how much hatred Dawson had for Drue, the guy just seemed to live
on making other people's lives like living hells.
"Could you be any more annoying?"
Dawson turned around and glared
at Drue, who had a grin on his face.
"What can't handle the truth Leery?
It's all over your face--"
Drue brought his voice down to a
hush that only him and Dawson could hear.
"You love Joey Potter. You got the
look in your eyes man, the goofy smirk on your face, and the red color
on your face. She may not see it yet, but I can; You keep trying to tell
yourself that you two, that you and miss Potter over there are just friends,
and she may believe it, but we all know when you're home alone, you sit
alone staring at some framed picture of her thinking of the old times,
when she wanted you and not Whitter."
Dawson gritted his teeth and turned
the other way, deciding that ignoring Drue was the best way to go.
"Don't be angry, I was just being
man enough to tell you the truth."
Dawson slammed his math book shut
loudly and turned around to face Drue.
"Shut up."
Drue grinned.
"Aww, is the poor baby getting upset?
Hey when me and Potter were locked in together, a few weeks ago, I caught
a peek down her shirt, good pair of boobs."
Dawson jumped out of his desk and
lunged at Drue, grabbing everybody's attention.
Joey whirled around and saw Dawson
and Drue fighting, Joey pushed herself up and tried to push her way through
the crowd of students and Mr. Williams, she tried to reach Dawson but the
crowd was too large.
"You take that back!"
Dawson tightened his grip on Drue's
shirt collar.
"What? Can't handle to hear what
you're missing out on?"
Dawson punched Drue in the face;
Drue spit out blood and punched Dawson back.
"Hey you two! Stop it right now!"
Mr. Williams grabbed Dawson by the
shirt and pushed him to the side and then grabbed Drue.
"Both of you to the principal's
office right now!"
Mr. Williams led both Dawson and
Drue out of the math classroom.
Joey looked at Dawson as he was led
out of the classroom; Joey's brown eyes drilled into Dawson's and all she
could see was his hatred, hatred for Drue, hatred for Pacey, and a tint
of his love for her. Joey opened her mouth to say something but before
she could say anything Dawson was out of her sight and heading towards
the principal's office.
"Dawson."
[Principle's Office]
Dawson sat in a chair, the principal
staring at him, giving Dawson his best disappointed look.
"Mr. Leery, you are one of the best
behaved students in Capeside High, and then a few weeks before graduating
you decide to get into a fight? What's going on with you?"
Dawson rolled his eyes, sighing.
"Drue insulted a really good friend
of mine."
The principal sighed sadly.
"Well is it worth getting a suspension
for 3 days?"
Dawson nodded slowly.
"It sure was."
"Well good, because you're suspended
for 3 days, now leave Mr. Leery."
Dawson pushed himself up and walked
out of the principal's office and headed towards his locker.
Dawson grabbed all of his books out
of his locker and threw them into his backpack, zipping up his backpack
Dawson turned to leave but stopped when he saw Pacey standing in front
of him. There was a long silence, of the two boys just staring at each
other, Dawson didn't know what to say, he hated Pacey, right now he hated
Pacey for what he did to Joey.
"What do you want Pacey?"
Pacey raked his fingers through
his hair and stared at Dawson seriously.
"Why did you attack Drue?"
Dawson rolled his eyes, he hefted
his backpack on and brushed past Pacey, but turned around immediately when
Pacey grabbed his arm.
"Man, can't you answer a simple
question? Why did you attack Drue?"
Dawson pushed Pacey back.
"Screw you Pacey. I don't owe you
anything, you humiliated Joey in front of everybody!"
Pacey rolled his eyes.
"And why does that concern you?
You're not her boyfriend anymore..."
Pacey stopped when he saw Dawson's
eyes get a look in them.
"And maybe that's what bothering
you D, you're not her boyfriend and you still love her. That's it isn't
it? Damn it Dawson, you still love Joey! What the hell have you been doing
with my sister this whole time when you fully knew you were still in love
with Joey?"
Dawson tried to find the words to
explain what Pacey asked him, but he couldn't find the words. Dawson stared
at Pacey with a clueless look on his face.
"This little dance you and Joey
do, the one where you dance around your emotions for each other, is bullshit.
I'm damn sick of it! You two pretend you're over each other and me and
Gretchen get the short end of the sticks!"
Dawson glared.
"What do you care? You dumped Joey!
And in the most humiliating and cruel way I have ever seen!"
Pacey shook his head.
"I never set out to hurt anybody."
Dawson closed his eyes for a second.
"Maybe that is what made it worse
Pacey."
Pacey stared at Dawson as Dawson
turned around and walked out of Capeside High. Pacey turned around and
saw Jack staring at him.
"Jack."
Jack put his hand up.
"You know what, if Dawson makes
Joey happy, then so be it, obviously you can't make her happy, because
you can't even make yourself happy."
Jack smiled sadly at Pacey and then
walked away, he didn't hate Pacey, he just felt bad for him. All Pacey
wanted was love, and as much as he had hoped Joey could do that for him,
love him with everything she had, that wasn't enough... Pacey needed to
love himself, and that was something Joey couldn't help him with, something
no one could help Pacey with.
"Suspended for 3 days."
Jen looked up from her notebook
and stared at Joey.
"Yep, 3 days away from this hell
hole known as high school."
Jen grinned at Joey but then swiped
the grin off of her face; Jen noticed the look of grief on Joey's face
and immediately felt sorry for her little remark. Joey pushed her hair
back and stared at the tray of cafeteria food in front of her with a disgusted
look on her face.
"How am I supposed to eat this stuff
when Dawson is home suspended for 3 whole days, because of Drue Valentine?"
Joey looked up and smiled softly
when Jack sat down next to her; Jack stared at Joey and took her hand in
his under the cafeteria table, sure it wasn't a lot... but it was the best
thing Jack could do for Joey at the moment.
"I just don't understand guys! Sure
Drue is annoying as hell, but why does Dawson attack him now? Only about
2 weeks before graduation and he does this? What has gotten into him?"
Jen shrugged and took a bite of
her cream corn; Jack smiled sadly.
"Because he still loves you."
Joey and Jen both turned around
and stared at Jack.
"What did you say?"
Jack stared at Joey with a serious
look on his face.
"I said he loves you. Dawson still
loves you Joey, that is what has gotten into him, that is why he attacked
Drue, that is why he hates Pacey. Dawson Leery is completely and utterly
in love with you, he can't help himself, but as much as he tries to stop
loving you, he loves you even more. You don't control love, love controls
you."
Joey stared at Jack and then pushed
herself up and ran out of the cafeteria.
Jen scooted closer to Jack and gave
him a look.
"Where is she going?"
Jack stared after Joey, and then
turned to Jen.
"To him, to Dawson."