***Hey you all. This one is another song fic type chapter. Funny enough it's by the same band that I used in my last story. This one is called "Into the Dark" by the Julianna Theory. FYI: I did use this song as the title for my last story, but mostly because I like the way it sounds.***
Dad, your boy's about to fall
He walks a razor's edge.
He's on the brink of fading.
Matt sat in a dark room. It had been nearly a month since Lita had left. He tried to pretend nothing was wrong. He didn't want people to know or feel sorry for him. He missed Lita like crazy. He missed who he used to be like crazy. He knew he had been fun and caring. It was hard to believe it was only a month earlier that he thought he had everything.
Why hadn't he seen the signs? Lita was spending so much time around Shane. The way she smiled whenever his name was mentioned. It was a really silly, overjoyed smile when he looked back at it. He should have known Lita had feelings for Shane McMahon. But for how long?
Matt didn't care anymore. He refused to care about anything besides Jeff, his dad, and wrestling. There were plenty of mean bastards in the world. He could be one too. At least to Lita, when and if she ever came back to the WWF. Maybe he could get lucky for once in his life and she would never come back.
Dad your boy who used to run,
You taught him how to crawl.
Jeff checked his watch. Matt was supposed to have met them for dinner 30 minutes before. "I don't know where he is," he sighed.
"It's okay Jeff," Madison said. "If you want to go find him and see what's wrong I understand."
"Thanks," Jeff said, smiling at the pretty girl next to him. He fished his keys out of his pockets. "Bye Mad. Bye Dal."
Jeff left the restaurant, heading for the hotel. Matt seemed to forget everything anymore. He slept all the time and he wasn't eating like he should. Jeff hated to worry about him like a mother hen, but he couldn't help worrying when it came to Matt. Matt was one of the few people he had left to worry about in this world.
He left home to find his home
Now all he has is gone.
It didn't hurt so much. The blade cut really easily through the skin. There was blood on the bathroom counter. "I'll clean it up later," Matt thought, sighing to himself.
But this time he wouldn't clean it up later. This time he wasn't just cutting. This time he was going for it all. He didn't even feel dizzy yet. When was he going to pass out? When would he stop hurting inside? He heard the door to the hotel room open and close. Who was back?
Matt fell forward as a wave of dizziness hit him. Couldn't he do anything right? He couldn't be a good boyfriend, he couldn't keep his head straight, and now someone who cared for him was going to discover him dying.
In your eyes I see a darkness that torments you,
And in your head where it dwells.
I'd give you my hand if you reach out and grab it,
Lets walk away from this hell.
"Matt?" Meredith called through the door. "You in there?"
"Go away Mer," Matt called through the door, his voice sounding strangely weak and strained.
Meredith heard the pain in his voice. "Let me in Matt," Meredith said.
"No," Matt said. She heard crashing inside of the bathroom, as Matt fell to the ground.
"Matt!" Meredith called. "Come on Matt!"
Meredith tried the door and was relieved to find it unlocked. She felt bile rise in her throat as she saw the blood coursing down Matt's wrists. "Oh my God," Meredith whispered. She grabbed towels from the rack and wrapped them around Matt's wrists.
"Mer, just let me go," Matt said, tears running down his face. "No one loves me."
"You stupid boy," Meredith whispered. "I love you. Come out here with me while I call 911."
Mom your baby's on his way
He'll soon be at your side
They were at the hospital? Why the hell were they at the hospital? He wished Meredith had left a little more information in the note she had left on the table. Jeff walked into the bathroom and his breath caught. There was so much blood. What happened? He grabbed the phone by the TV and called Dallas' cell phone.
"Hello?" Dallas answered.
"It's Jeff," he said. "I'm going to the hospital. Matt and Meredith went there."
"Can you come get us on the way?" Dallas asked.
"Yeah, of course," Jeff said. "Wait outside the restaurant for me."
Jeff grabbed his keys again and ran from the hotel room. What had happened? They didn't say who was hurt nor how they were hurt, but in his heart he knew it was Matt. What had he done?
"You okay?" Madison asked, as she got into his car.
"I will be when I know what happened and that everyone is going to be alright," Jeff said. Madison reached over to his arm and squeezed it gently. She wished she could tell him it would all be alright.
Cause he's forgotten all he's known,
A part of him has died.
Matt watched from above himself as the doctors worked on his body. Didn't they know he was already gone? He had no reason to stay on this world. Jeff could take care of himself. No one else really loved him. He decided he would take one last look at the world before he left completely.
In the hospital waiting room, dozens of people were waiting for some news about their loved ones. Matt was shocked to see he knew most of them.
Jeff was pacing. His face looked angry. Matt knew Jeff looked angry when he was trying to hide pain. He would get over it. Matt knew Jeff was stronger than he looked. He would miss him. But he would look over him and Dad with their mom.
Madison and Dallas sat in the plastic chairs, both watching Jeff with concern. Every now and then they would gaze anxiously toward the ER operating room. Madison had been crying. Dallas looked a little shell-shocked. So, maybe Lita's cousins cared for him. They hadn't know him long. They would get over it.
Christian and Edge were there, doubtless making sure he was really going to die. It would make keeping the Tag Titles a lot easier in the future. The Dudleys were there too. Rocky was by the pay phones. He must be the one who was keeping the Federation updated.
Stephanie and Jericho were sitting near Madison and Dallas. Stephanie was wringing her hands. Jericho looked unusually pale. He would definitely miss his friends.
Meredith sat away from everyone else. She was staring at nothing. He couldn't really read the expression on her face. His blood was all over her. Would someone please make sure she is okay? She doesn't deserve to be alone here! Then Matt realized something.
"Time to go Matty," he told himself.
Mom may never understand,
Why baby's come and gone.
"I caused this," Lita told herself miserably. She was alone in a taxi. "I did this."
Stephanie had called Shane earlier. They had been on the first plane. Her heart was beating frantically. He could not die. He could not kill himself. She did not want to be the reason he left this world.
Shane was still at the airport. News was already out that a wrestler was in the emergency room. He knew if he didn't handle the press at the airport, they would follow him to the hospital. He hated Lita going to the hospital alone. He knew she was beating herself up for this.
"Lita!" Madison exclaimed, jumping out of her chair to embrace her cousin. "He's alright! The doctors say he will be alright."
Lita closed her eyes in relief. "Thank you God."
He left home to find his own,
Now all he has is lies.
Meredith held Matt's hand in her own. She knew he never had any clue how much she loved him. Now their lives were intertwined forever. She had saved his life. Of course she planned to kill him as soon as he was back to normally.
Jeff sat on the other side of the hospital bed. He intended to kill his brother too. He was just so glad Matt was going to be okay. He had no idea what he would do without his brother.
Lita was just outside Matt's room in ICU. Shane was down the hall with Stephanie. Matt looked so pale. She was so relieved he would be okay. But she still had to get him to forgive her. She knew this could happen again until Matt forgave her and Shane.
In your eyes I see a darkness that torments you,
And in your head where it dwells.
I'll give you my hand if you reach out and grab it,
Lets walk away from this hell.
"Mer?" Matt whispered. He felt a hand squeeze his. His eyes opened. She was right there. He tried to smile. "Thank you."
"Don't worry," Meredith teased. "I'll get you back for scaring me like that."
"I hope so," Matt said. He looked beyond Meredith to see Lita at the window. Her face looked miserable. He looked at Meredith again. She was the future for him. He needed to stop looking back.
He looked at Lita again. She mouthed, "I'm sorry."
Matt nodded. He mouthed, "Me too."
Lita nodded as she headed down the all. It didn't solve everything. But it was a start. Hopefully she would eventually call Matt a friend again.
Dad, your boy's about to fall
He walks a razor's edge.
He's on the brink of fading.
Matt sat in a dark room. It had been nearly a month since Lita had left. He tried to pretend nothing was wrong. He didn't want people to know or feel sorry for him. He missed Lita like crazy. He missed who he used to be like crazy. He knew he had been fun and caring. It was hard to believe it was only a month earlier that he thought he had everything.
Why hadn't he seen the signs? Lita was spending so much time around Shane. The way she smiled whenever his name was mentioned. It was a really silly, overjoyed smile when he looked back at it. He should have known Lita had feelings for Shane McMahon. But for how long?
Matt didn't care anymore. He refused to care about anything besides Jeff, his dad, and wrestling. There were plenty of mean bastards in the world. He could be one too. At least to Lita, when and if she ever came back to the WWF. Maybe he could get lucky for once in his life and she would never come back.
Dad your boy who used to run,
You taught him how to crawl.
Jeff checked his watch. Matt was supposed to have met them for dinner 30 minutes before. "I don't know where he is," he sighed.
"It's okay Jeff," Madison said. "If you want to go find him and see what's wrong I understand."
"Thanks," Jeff said, smiling at the pretty girl next to him. He fished his keys out of his pockets. "Bye Mad. Bye Dal."
Jeff left the restaurant, heading for the hotel. Matt seemed to forget everything anymore. He slept all the time and he wasn't eating like he should. Jeff hated to worry about him like a mother hen, but he couldn't help worrying when it came to Matt. Matt was one of the few people he had left to worry about in this world.
He left home to find his home
Now all he has is gone.
It didn't hurt so much. The blade cut really easily through the skin. There was blood on the bathroom counter. "I'll clean it up later," Matt thought, sighing to himself.
But this time he wouldn't clean it up later. This time he wasn't just cutting. This time he was going for it all. He didn't even feel dizzy yet. When was he going to pass out? When would he stop hurting inside? He heard the door to the hotel room open and close. Who was back?
Matt fell forward as a wave of dizziness hit him. Couldn't he do anything right? He couldn't be a good boyfriend, he couldn't keep his head straight, and now someone who cared for him was going to discover him dying.
In your eyes I see a darkness that torments you,
And in your head where it dwells.
I'd give you my hand if you reach out and grab it,
Lets walk away from this hell.
"Matt?" Meredith called through the door. "You in there?"
"Go away Mer," Matt called through the door, his voice sounding strangely weak and strained.
Meredith heard the pain in his voice. "Let me in Matt," Meredith said.
"No," Matt said. She heard crashing inside of the bathroom, as Matt fell to the ground.
"Matt!" Meredith called. "Come on Matt!"
Meredith tried the door and was relieved to find it unlocked. She felt bile rise in her throat as she saw the blood coursing down Matt's wrists. "Oh my God," Meredith whispered. She grabbed towels from the rack and wrapped them around Matt's wrists.
"Mer, just let me go," Matt said, tears running down his face. "No one loves me."
"You stupid boy," Meredith whispered. "I love you. Come out here with me while I call 911."
Mom your baby's on his way
He'll soon be at your side
They were at the hospital? Why the hell were they at the hospital? He wished Meredith had left a little more information in the note she had left on the table. Jeff walked into the bathroom and his breath caught. There was so much blood. What happened? He grabbed the phone by the TV and called Dallas' cell phone.
"Hello?" Dallas answered.
"It's Jeff," he said. "I'm going to the hospital. Matt and Meredith went there."
"Can you come get us on the way?" Dallas asked.
"Yeah, of course," Jeff said. "Wait outside the restaurant for me."
Jeff grabbed his keys again and ran from the hotel room. What had happened? They didn't say who was hurt nor how they were hurt, but in his heart he knew it was Matt. What had he done?
"You okay?" Madison asked, as she got into his car.
"I will be when I know what happened and that everyone is going to be alright," Jeff said. Madison reached over to his arm and squeezed it gently. She wished she could tell him it would all be alright.
Cause he's forgotten all he's known,
A part of him has died.
Matt watched from above himself as the doctors worked on his body. Didn't they know he was already gone? He had no reason to stay on this world. Jeff could take care of himself. No one else really loved him. He decided he would take one last look at the world before he left completely.
In the hospital waiting room, dozens of people were waiting for some news about their loved ones. Matt was shocked to see he knew most of them.
Jeff was pacing. His face looked angry. Matt knew Jeff looked angry when he was trying to hide pain. He would get over it. Matt knew Jeff was stronger than he looked. He would miss him. But he would look over him and Dad with their mom.
Madison and Dallas sat in the plastic chairs, both watching Jeff with concern. Every now and then they would gaze anxiously toward the ER operating room. Madison had been crying. Dallas looked a little shell-shocked. So, maybe Lita's cousins cared for him. They hadn't know him long. They would get over it.
Christian and Edge were there, doubtless making sure he was really going to die. It would make keeping the Tag Titles a lot easier in the future. The Dudleys were there too. Rocky was by the pay phones. He must be the one who was keeping the Federation updated.
Stephanie and Jericho were sitting near Madison and Dallas. Stephanie was wringing her hands. Jericho looked unusually pale. He would definitely miss his friends.
Meredith sat away from everyone else. She was staring at nothing. He couldn't really read the expression on her face. His blood was all over her. Would someone please make sure she is okay? She doesn't deserve to be alone here! Then Matt realized something.
"Time to go Matty," he told himself.
Mom may never understand,
Why baby's come and gone.
"I caused this," Lita told herself miserably. She was alone in a taxi. "I did this."
Stephanie had called Shane earlier. They had been on the first plane. Her heart was beating frantically. He could not die. He could not kill himself. She did not want to be the reason he left this world.
Shane was still at the airport. News was already out that a wrestler was in the emergency room. He knew if he didn't handle the press at the airport, they would follow him to the hospital. He hated Lita going to the hospital alone. He knew she was beating herself up for this.
"Lita!" Madison exclaimed, jumping out of her chair to embrace her cousin. "He's alright! The doctors say he will be alright."
Lita closed her eyes in relief. "Thank you God."
He left home to find his own,
Now all he has is lies.
Meredith held Matt's hand in her own. She knew he never had any clue how much she loved him. Now their lives were intertwined forever. She had saved his life. Of course she planned to kill him as soon as he was back to normally.
Jeff sat on the other side of the hospital bed. He intended to kill his brother too. He was just so glad Matt was going to be okay. He had no idea what he would do without his brother.
Lita was just outside Matt's room in ICU. Shane was down the hall with Stephanie. Matt looked so pale. She was so relieved he would be okay. But she still had to get him to forgive her. She knew this could happen again until Matt forgave her and Shane.
In your eyes I see a darkness that torments you,
And in your head where it dwells.
I'll give you my hand if you reach out and grab it,
Lets walk away from this hell.
"Mer?" Matt whispered. He felt a hand squeeze his. His eyes opened. She was right there. He tried to smile. "Thank you."
"Don't worry," Meredith teased. "I'll get you back for scaring me like that."
"I hope so," Matt said. He looked beyond Meredith to see Lita at the window. Her face looked miserable. He looked at Meredith again. She was the future for him. He needed to stop looking back.
He looked at Lita again. She mouthed, "I'm sorry."
Matt nodded. He mouthed, "Me too."
Lita nodded as she headed down the all. It didn't solve everything. But it was a start. Hopefully she would eventually call Matt a friend again.