A/N Lily's thoughts are in red and James are in blue. I finally figured out when Lily and James "get together"!!!!! Aren't you proud? Only, it will take some more chapters, kinda. AND I hope noone stops reading this because it takes a long time. But I figure if you really like it, you'll keep reading. Dear god, I hope you really like t J
Chapter XI
Lily sat looking on the window ledge, legs dangling outside, looking out the window, but not really seeing anything. The incident in Potions had shaken her.
"Lily?" a hand on her shoulder broke the stupor she was in. Lily looked up at James Potter worriedly.
"Hello James, are you up too?" Lily asked, wiping away any traces of tears from her face.
"Lily, it's only 6 p.m. You missed dinner. Angelica went somewhere with Sirius, she said you had a headache, and I came to find you."
"Find me? Why?"
"Because you're my friend and I am worried about you" James looked at her like it was obvious.
"Really? Thanks James." Lily wasn't blushing and James saw her green eyes soften with tears.
"Are you still scared?" the question startled James. While he thought about it, he sat on the window ledge beside Lily; a tight squeeze, so that they were pressed, shoulder to shoulder.
"Yes. I am scared." James said after awhile. He looked sideways at Lily, who was gazing out onto the grounds of Hogwarts. James found himself fighting an urge to reach over and kiss her.
Where did that come from? Get a hold of yourself, Potter.
"Truly scared? I am truly scared. Was Snape right, d'you think, James? Do you think she's going to die?"
"Love, I'd-" James stopped himself, what had he almost said?
"What did you say?" Lily turned her gaze from the Forbidden Forest, and looked at James. It was hard to tell in the gray light, but was he blushing?
"I said I'd love to be able to say no" James rushed on "But I can't." Lily raised her eyebrows, but didn't comment on his slip up, which James was grateful for.
"I know. I've been looking" Lily jerked a thumb to the books on the floor behind her "But I can't find anything. Theres no way to see the future."
"Unless you're a seer…" James suggested
"Seers are absolute fluff, James Potter" Lily said, pushing him a little with her shoulder.
"Maybe, maybe not" James said, playing with the hem of Lily's sleeve.
He's acting really strange Lily thought, leaning into the wall to look at James out of the corner of her eye He's gorgeous. Wish I didn't like him so much.
Out loud, she said "James, do you think that Angelica's pretty?"
James panicked inwardly Dear god, what am I supposed to say to that? Tell her yes? Gels' her best friend…
"Ummmm…yes?" No, wait, not my answer! I take it back!
"Yeah, I figured you would. Most guys do. She's the pretty one. Do I seem jealous?"
"Uh-"
"I am not, it's just- why only her? I love her dearly, I mean, she's my best friend, but, I am sick of being ugly."
"Your not ugly Lily" James said, finally getting a word in
"Oh, I know that, I am not trying to fish for compliments, I am not. I am just going off on little tangents, you'd be best to ignore me. I just need to tell someone. You know what I mean, doncha? With you and Si- no, I guess you don't. Your cuter than he is, but that's-"
"You think I am cuter than Sirius?" James broke in grinning. Lily flushed a deep red.
"Of course you are, everyone knows that." James mulled over the idea for a minute, liking it immensely.
"So you see how I can feel… overlooked, right? When your bets friend is way more popular with the boys than you are-"
"Oh yeah, more popular with boys. I totally know what you mean." James said.
Lily raised both eyebrows. "Are you making fun of me James Potter?"
James smiled "Maybe a little".
"So you are making fun of me? Mr. Potter, I am wounded!" Lily exclaimed, bringing one hand back to her forehead in a dramatic sense. Loosing her balance, she toppled backwards from her window seat, pulling James with her. They fell on the floor with a loud thump, Lily laughing so hard that she was hiccuping.
"Well well well." Lily stopped mid-giggle and James reddened, as Sirius smirked down at them.
"Well hi, Sirius. Lovely weather were having!" Lily exclaimed, punctuating the sentence with a hiccup. James wondered if his friend had had maybe a few too many butterbeers.
"What are you and Lily doing, James?" Sirius asked his best friend bluntly.
"Uh…talking."
"Like that?"
"Yeah."
"I see." Sirius was obviously enjoying himself, and this made Lily a little angry, she hated being laughed at. She sat up slowly, as James had fallen on her arm.
"So Sirius, what were you and Gel doing?" she demanded, just as blunt as he had been.
"Uh-"
"See. Nothing happened here. But something obviously happened where you two were. Now, if you'll excuse me, I have to go talk to my best friend." Lily untangled herself, stood up and walked off. Sirius, for once, was speechless.
"So, Prongs." Sirius sat beside his friend on James big canopy bed.
"What Padfoot" James glared at his friend, and flipped a page of his Quidditch book.
"What do you think of Lily?"
"Lily?" James reddened. "She's a nice girl"
Sirius grinned "Do I detect a tinge of pink upon they snow white skin?"
"Shut up Shakespeare." James grunted, busying himself with his book.
"Who?"
"Never mind" James put down his book and frowned at Sirius.
"Why all of the questions, Padfoot?"
"No reason, Prongs dear." Sirius stood up, and made his way over to his trunk.
"So, Sirius, where were you and Gel?" James said by way of shutting him up. Sirius paused in the middle of picking up a book.
"Nowhere. I don't kiss and tell."
"So you admit that there was kissing?"
"I admit to nothing" Sirius said rather huffily, then changed the subject "We've got an official Hogsmeade day tomorrow, do you want to come?"
"Who else is going?" James asked warily
"Oh, Lily, Gel, Moony, Gel's friends, Chelsea and Ruby," Sirius smiled at James "oh, and Wormtail." The pudgy Peter Pettigrew was seldom seen with his only three friends (Padfoot, Prongs and Moony) and Sirius, who hadn't liked him very much to begin with, did not like him very much at all anymore.
"Well, I guess so. Yeah, I'll go."`
Sirius looked pleased "Good."
"Yeah…listen Sirius. Can I trust you not to say anything to anyone?" James was looking at the floor.
"Sure you can James, we're best friends aren't we?" Sirius said, acting serious.
"What do you think of Lily?"
"Lily Evans?" Sirius asked, just to annoy his friend.
"What other Lily do we know?" and exasperated James demanded.
"Good point. Well, she's cute, I guess, and Gel says she's funny. I bet she'd have lots of friends if she wasn't so shy" he stopped and looked at James. "You like Lily, eh Prongs?"
"As a friend, yes, of course I do" James rubbed the back of his head in thought "Maybe even more than a friend. I don't know, really, Padfoot. She's really easy to talk to, even if she is shy, and she makes me laugh…" he trailed off, blushing a fierce red.
"Awwwww!" James' head snapped up at the sudden noise.
"That's so cute!" Angelica exclaimed, stepping into the room from her listening position in the doorway.
James felt panic rush to his face "Angelica, don't say anything to anyone, got it? You will regret it."
"Is this how you show affection, James? Threatening people? Lily told me you threatened her."
James heart skipped a beat. Had Lily told Angelica why?
"Did she say about what?"
"No." Angelica pouted, this was obviously a sore point with her " She wouldn't say anything, she only looked upset when she mentioned it. But I think she's forgiven you, after all, you two were talking, right?"
James felt relieved on both accounts, because she hadn't told, and she wasn't angry. He made a mental note to apologize to Lily for threatening her.
"Come on, James. How about you and Sirius play exploding Snap with me?" Angelica asked, pulling out a pack from inside her robes.
James looked at Sirius and they both grinned as the three settled down to play cards.
"Hogsmeade Weekend!!!!!" Sirius yelled, bouncing into the room that Angelica, Lily, Ruby and Chelsea shared.
Angelica was the only one up and she grinned sleepily at him from where she was standing before the mirror.
"If they ever get up" she nodded at her sleeping friends.
"We'll soon fix that. Don't worry about it Angelica!" Sirius said, motioning to two people behind him. James and Remus entered, identical evil grins on their faces.
"Who's the hardest to wake up?" Sirius asked Angelica.
"Oh, Lily probably. She fights when you try to wake her up, I'd watch it, though. She sleeps with her wand under her pillow." Angelica said off-handedly.
Sirius walked over to Lily's bed, and drew the curtains. He leapt back in surprise as someone reached out and grabbed his collar.
"Do not try to wake me up, Sirius Black" a sleepy voice hissed at him "Or you will feel sorrier than you ever have." Lily pushed Sirius back, and closed the curtains with a small grunt of disapproval. Angelica was falling all over herself in laughter.
"Like I said, Lily is not a morning person. She's the most stubborn person I've ever met."
"Hello? Angelica? I can still hear you, you know." Lily's voice came floating out from behind the curtains.
"Yeah, I know Lils."
"It's Lily."
"Sure thing…muffin." Chelsea had woken up, and was smiling at the words of Lily's disembodied voice.
"Muffin?" Sirius said, laughter in his voice "How sweet!"
Lily's red head popped out from between a gap in the curtains. She delivered a glare at Sirius with as much venom as she could muster so early in the morning. But it faded quickly because Lily was not an unpleasant person.
"If you guys leave, we'll get up and get dressed" she said, by way of compromise. Sirius smiled
"Awww, you mean we can't stay?" he asked, as Lily's head disappeared, and was replaced by one of her beloved sheep stuffies. Sirius ducked as it came flying past his head. He picked it up and surveyed it.
"Cute. You've lost your ammo, Lily dear." Angelica shook her head
"She has about ten of those, Sirius. Maybe you should go." She pushed the three boys out the door as Sirius muttered
"Ten? Someone likes sheep."
Lily quickly got up, and got dressed in her green robes. Then she brushed her hair, and frowned. The curly mass on her head just wasn't behaving, and her idea of wearing it down wouldn't work. She pulled it into a French braid, sighed at fact that nothing ever seemed to go right, and went to wake up Ruby with a shot of freezing water to her face.