A/N Good thing it's Spring Break! I love spring break! Except it ends in 4 days L Hey, the reason I am writing so much is because my sister has been…..forcing me to. So you can thank her for the chapters which keep popping up. It's her fault! Also, Peter isn't evil yet. Not until his 7th year. I don't know if it says that he was evil before then, but oh well.
Soon the group of friends (accompanied by Peter, who doesn't really count as a friend) joined the writhing mass of students destined for Hogsmeade. Lily was jostled from all sides, and stepped on at least once.
"Ow" she hissed, as Peter Pettigrew stepped on her foot.
"Sorry." He piped up. Lily bit the nasty remark she was going to make off of her tongue when she saw how nervous he looked and smiled
"It's alright, Peter. I am Lily, by the way, I don't think anyone introduced us." She offered her hand, even though she was a little afraid of loosing it to the massing students around her. Peter blushed, and shook her hand, shocked that a girl was speaking to him, and being nice. He wasn't exactly a ladies man.
"I-I am Peter." He said, than slapped his head mentally when he realized she already knew his name.
"I know." Lily said, just as James came up along side of her, and threw a friendly arm around her shoulders. Peter felt himself scowl, sure that, as usual, he was going to be overlooked for James. But Lily obviously had other ideas.
"Hi James." She said, smiling at her friend, as she turned back to Peter " What's your favorite subject?" she asked. Lily had a habit of asking stupid questions to make conversation, and she was afraid that this was one of those times. But Peter grinned.
"Charms." He squeaked
"Really? Mine too!" Lily returned the smile while James noticed Sirius, and caught up to him.
"Did you see that?" he asked, dubious.
"Yes I did. Lily ditched you for Peter!" Sirius exclaimed, thoroughly enjoying the shock on his friends face.
"I know." James said, sulking. In fact, he sulked all the way outside, and as they climbed into carriages. Lily sat next to Peter, talking happily about charms. Poor Peter was beside himself trying to answer her questions. He liked charms, sure enough. But apparently not as much as Lily did. Some of the things she was mentioning he'd never even heard of. He shot a pleading glance at James, who ignored him.
"Well, I um, like Quidditch too." Peter said, hoping to change the subject.
"Really? That's great." Lily said, lapsing into silence because she avoided talking about Quidditch at all costs. She began to play with a piece of her hair that had come loose. Peter looked around him uncomfortably as James smirked.
"So, what are we going to do once we get to Hogsmeade?" Angelica asked, resting her head full of black curls (A/N I don't remember if I said how Angelica looks before, but she has black curly hair) on Sirius' shoulder.
"Whatever we want."
Ruby looked at Lily "Hey Lily, we could visit the Shrieking Shack, you said you always wanted to, and now that there's so many of us, we'd be safe."
Lily hadn't really been listening to the conversation, she'd been looking out the window.
"Huh?" she asked, rather drowsily. Carriage rides always made her drowsy.
"I said we could visit the Shrieking shack." Ruby grinned at her friend.
Lily considered this, and, in doing so, happened to look over at Remus. His face had gone very pale at the mention of the Shrieking Shack, and he looked sick. She frowned, worried about her friend.
"Are you alright, Remus?" Lily asked him. Remus shrugged.
"Just feeling a little sick, Lil."
"Let's not, Ruby." Lily glanced at Remus. Was it just her, or did the color suddenly seeped back into his face?
"Are you scared to? Chicken?" Ruby asked, and clucked a couple of times.
"Yeah, I guess so." Lily replied, earning a grateful smile from Remus. She didn't know what was the matter, but she made a mental note to ask him later.
"We could go to Honeydukes." Chelsea suggested.
"We have to go to The Three Broomsticks to see about renting a room, Lily." James said. His other friends gaped at him.
"I meant a room for Lily for this summer you idiots." James said, feeling himself blush.
"Sure, sure James." Sirius grinned at his friend.
"Oh, just shut up Sirius." James said, eyes flashing. Lily smiled laughingly.
"We'll have to go see, James." She agreed "Besides, you owe me lunch, remember?"
"Oh yeah." James groaned, he'd forgotten.
"Hey James, you can buy everyone lunch!" Sirius exclaimed as the carriage pulled to a stop, and they began piling out.
"Gee, thanks Sirius."
"What are friends for?"
They assembled in front of The Three Broomsticks, and tried to decide what they would do. Unfortunately, they all wanted to do different things.
"All right, everyone be quiet a moment!" Angelica yelled, shutting them all up "First, we go to Honeydukes, then to Zonkos, then we go to that new bookstore, then the post office, then we can go to the robes shop" here Sirius groaned "Then the pet shop, then James can buy us lunch, then we can go back to Honeydukes, then home. Is that alright?"
"Yes!" they chorused, and set off.
Lily walked beside Chelsea, talking about Charms, which Chelsea knew a great deal about, although not as much as Lily.
"Have you ever heard of the Fidelous charm?"asked Angelica, popping up between them (A/N I don't think I spelt Fidelous correctly. It's the secret keeper charm)
Lily nodded "Yes, I think I have." She said, missing Angelica's muttered "Damn."
"It's the one where you go into hiding, and give the secret of your hiding place to one person, who keeps it in their soul. Then, whoever's looking for you can't find you, even if you are right under their nose. Unless, of course, that person betrays you. But normally, people pick the most trustworthy person they know."
"You got it right. Is there a charm you don't know?" Angelica asked, defeated.
"Of course there is. Many."
"Do you know of any of the Dark Curses?" Peter piped up. Lily's face fell.
"Yes. Quite well." She said as Sirius punched a bewildered Peter's arm.
"Look, Lily, Honeydukes has a new fudge!" Remus said, pointing at the sign. Afterall, he owed her one. Grateful for the distraction, Lily entered the store.
"Come on Lily, hurry up and decide." Ruby said,
"One minute. I am trying to figure out which one costs more." Lily answered, as James emitted a large groan
"What did I ever do to you?" He asked, acting hurt.
"You made fun of me. Now be quiet, or I'll order dessert as well." Lily grinned behind the menu.
James sighed, and studied her face. Tiny whisps of hair were coming out of the loose braid she'd pulled her hair back in. Her cheeks were flushed from the cold outside, and her lips seemed very red. She had a tiny mole on her cheek. One so small he'd never noticed it before. Her eyes were wide, and sparkled as she decided the best way to spend his money. She's cute even when she's trying to bankrupt me
"I've got it! I'll have Yorkshire pudding, and bangers and mash, and a salad! And to drink, a nice large butterbeer, and for dessert-"
"Hey Lily, you said no dessert!"
"I lied. For dessert, cauldron cakes for everyone. You do have enough money, don't you James?" James glared at her of course he did, and he didn't mind spending it on Lily either. He just didn't want to spend it on everyone else. There were 8 of them, after all.
"That will be 8 galleons,5 sickles and three knuts." Madame Rosmerta winked at James "That's with a 5% discount because your girlfriend ordered so much."
"We're not boyfriend and girlfriend" Lily said, raising an eyebrow at Madame Rosmerta.
"Oh. I see." the woman smiled, and went to fill out their order.
After the meal, the friends went to Honeydukes again, then back home with the other students. Half of them fell asleep on the carriage, Lily among them. She woke up just as they pulled into the grounds at Hogwarts, and smiled sleepily. It had a been a great day, she was sure of it. And she'd bought quite a bit at Honeydukes. She was the last one out of the carriage, and she though that no one had waited for her, but she was wrong. James appeared beside her, and she smiled at him, feeling as if she could fall down any minute.
"Are you excited about the summer?" he asked her.
"Yes. In two months, I'll be living at The Three Broomsticks!" Lily exclaimed, fully awake now.
"And you guys will come visit me, right?"
"If you want us to." Lily stopped to tie up her shoe, conscious that James was standing very close to her. When she stood up, she found herself facing him.
"Lily" James said, and Lily felt herself turn red, even though he'd only said her name.
"James, we really should go inside."
"Wait! I want to tell you something." James looked nervous, and Lily felt panicky.
"I like you a lot, you're a really good friend, but I mean" Lily stopped listening to James. It was happening, and she was terrified. She liked James tremendously, but he'd had so many girlfriends, and he'd hurt each of them. And she'd never had a boyfriend, not one. And she'd been hurt so much this year, she was sure that she couldn't deal with more pain.
"Lily, I like you, I- Dammit, I mean…" James leant forward, and kissed her. Lily felt a rush of happiness, but she quickly clenched it. It couldn't happen. Not now, James would break her heart. She stepped back quickly.
"James, don't do this." He words came out in a whisper, and her voice trembled "I can't do this. Find someone else, James. Find some pretty girl who doesn't care. But not me, James. Not me." Lily turned away, and walked to the front doors of the castle, her cheeks wet with tears. James stood where she had left him, feeling as if she had stabbed him in the heart (A/N Awwwww, poor Jamsie.)
Lily was laying on her bed, face down in the pillows, sobbing. She was so angry at herself, and at James, and at the world in general. That's why, when someone entered, she didn't look up.
"Lily Margaret Evans! You are an idiot!" Angelica stormed in, and sat down on Lily's bed.
"I thought you LIKED James. You talk about him enough."
"I never said one word to you." Lily said, her voice muffled.
"You talk in your sleep, dear Lily. Why did you just say no to James."
"Because I felt like it."
"I doubt it."
Just then, Lily's door banged open again.
"Lily, you are an idiot!" Sirius entered (A/N boy, he friends aren't very sympathetic, but it's alright, they're just mad. Why? They know)
"What are you, and echo?" Lily demanded, sitting up "I don't care about your opinion, Sirius. As far as I am concerned, you can go to hell!" Lily screamed, and tore out of the bedroom. Lily's feet pounded down the stairs, and through the common room. Heads turned to stare as she skidded out the portrait hole, right into someone. She didn't say sorry, but tried to run again. Only the someone was holding onto her arm. She turned to see Remus.
"If your going to tell me I am an idiot, you've been beaten to it." She snarled
"I wasn't" Remus looked genuinely hurt "I thought you might like someone to talk to. Someone who's not mad at you and James." Lily was surprised. They were friends, but not very close, and they'd never really talked about anything important before.
"Yes, I would." Lily followed Remus to the owlry, where they sat, facing each other, by the floor to ceiling window.
"Alright, tell me, Lily."
"Remus, James told me that he likes me. He kissed me. I am scared." Lily said shortly, not really wanting to embelish.
Remus looked at Lily quizzically "Do you like him?" he asked.
The pale light from the half-moon struck Lily's face making her look strange, not like Lily Evans at all. She bit her lip "Yes." She said after awhile.
"Then what's the problem?" Remus asked her. Lily sighed
"Because I am scared of being hurt, I am scared James will treat me like all of his other girlfriends- we'd break up after a little while because he didn't like me anymore. I've seen him do it before."
"How do you know that would happen with you?" Remus asked.
"Well, it happened to everyone else. What's so special about me?" Lily asked him. Remus smiled.
"Maybe e really loves you." He suggested. Lily shook her head.
"Probably not."
"Allrigth. Maybe you should tell him how you feel, about everything. I'll bet he'd understand."
Lily thought for awhile.
"Remus, don't be angry, but I can't tell him. I don't know how I'd cope if we got together, and then broke up. I'll love from afar." Remus sighed, but patted Lily's hand.
"Alright. That's fine, Lily. Are you ready to go back to the common room?"
"No, you go. I want to be alone. Please don't tell anyone, Remus. And thank you." Lily said, squeezing her friend's hand. Remus smiled.
"I won't, and your welcome." He got up and left, and Lily leant against the wall. She let herself cry freely as she mourned what she had lost.
It'll take him a couple of days, but he'll get over it. He'll have some other girl by next week. I almost wish I'd let him kiss me. Maybe I'd rather have him for a little while then not have him at all.
Lily, however, was wrong. James didn't have another girl. He looked sad, and Lily felt horrible. He wouldn't talk to her, or look at her, or anyone else, for that matter, and Lily found herself spending more and more time alone, or with Remus. Sirius was angry at her, and so was Angelica. Ruby and Chelsea were supportive, but they had made friends with some Ravenclaws, so they weren't around her as much. Lily felt desperately alone.
Finally, after two dreadfull months, the last day of school came, and Lily went down to the feast alone. She sat down at the table, and stared down at her plate. Which is why she didn't notice Sirius or Angelica sit beside her, until Angelica tapped her on the arm.
"Lily? I am sorry, I haven't been very supportive. Friends again?" she asked. Lily looked up, and nodded. Angelica wrapped her in a hug as Sirius cleared his throat "I am sorry too, Lily. I was mean. It was your decision, after all." Lily smiled sadly at him, and squeezed his arm. They spent the feast talking, until it was time for her friends to get on the carriage to the train, and Lily's time to get on one to Hogsmeade.
"We'll come see you this summer, soon as we can!" Sirius and Angelica promised. Lily nodded. It was going to be a long summer.
A/N Don't kill me, we all know they kiss and make up in the end. Actually, not too long now. Just gotta get through the summer, some sadness, and part of their 6th year. About Angelica dying, well, you'll have to read and find out. Sorry. I'll say this, one of Lily's friends does die, so be warned. Actually, it will become pretty obvious very soon which one. At least, it should.
Thanks to everyone who reviewed, it means a lot to me. Before I got this, maximum reviews I got was 4. *sniffs* Thanks you guys.
You know what I want? I conversion chart, for muggle money to wizarding money. It would be handy. Has anyone seen those two new HP books that came out? Quidditch through the Ages and the one about Magical creatures (the reason I have the Quidditch one's title is cause it's right here beside me)