(Coldplay's "Yellow" belongs to them and not me. You sue, you get my luvky pair of socks. Have fun, don't cry to much and wet your keyboard)
Quistis watched Irvine wrestle with his emotions; everything from pain to fear flew past his eyes. He seemed so lost that she wondered if he had even heard her.
"Irvine? He wants-"
"I know, dammit!" Irvine yelled, quickly heading to the infirmary. Dr. Kadowaki met him at the door, "Don't stress him too much Irvine, he's still out of it, but you needn't worry. He'll know who you are." Irvine nodded and walked back to the small, one bed ICU room.
(Look at the stars
Look how they shine for you
and everything you do
yeah they were all yellow)
"Z, Zell? Are you awake?" Irvine peered at the mound on the bed, his blue eyes watching for any small movement to signify that Zell had heard him. The bump stirred and emitted a low groan. "Irvine?' Zell whispered, the IV restricted him from getting up to look at the cowboy. Irvine rushed quickly to the side of the bed.
"I'm here, don't try and get up, please."
(I came along
I wrote a song for you
and all the things you do
and it was called yellow)
Zell sighed, "I'm sorry Irvy. I'm sorry I screwed up so bad."
Irvine winced at the weakness of Zell's voice when he said Irvine's childhood name. "It's OK. I shouldn't have shot; it was my mistake Zell. I should be sorry, and I am." Tears filled his blue eyes again. "Zell, I'm so sorry."
He collapsed on the side of the bed, crying his soul out in desperation. Zell looked at the top of the brunette's head, trying to swallow back the lump in his throat that was to surely dissolve into sobs.
(So then I took my turn
oh what a thing to have done
and it was all yellow)
"Please stop crying Irvine, see, I'm still alive." He smiled tearfully, but lost the sad grin when Irvine lifted his head, distress and depression etched across his beautiful face.
"If it hadn't been for me, you wouldn't be in that fucking bed. Zell, forgive me?" Irvine pleaded desperation in his voice, gripping tightly to Zell's pale hand in between his. Everything that has happened
to Zell is my fault. I don't deserve him as a friend, not after this. Zell sighed and cradled Irvine's head in his lap, stroking the soft strands of hair. He carefully brushed away the pearly tears on the porcelain face of Irvine's. "Shh..hush Irvine. It isn't your fault, and you know? This bed is actually pretty comfortable."
A small laugh came from Irvine as he raised his head. "But, your hurt, and I had made my own vow to take care of you, to find you after you were adopted, to be by your side, whether you wanted me there or not."
(Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
turn into something beautiful
d'you know
you know I love you so
you know I love you so)
"Irvine! No matter how many times I tell you to "Buzz off" or "Shut up" I'll always want you watching over me. But, you can't stop the accidents that happen, accidents will always occur, and you can't protect a clumsy clod like me from them always." He hugged Irvine close to him. Irvine, you've always been there
for me, and I always wanted you there, always. I just hope I didn't ruin anything by what I did before. Because, I can't ever afford to lose you. They both rested there in that tiny room, not caring how awkward the scene must seem to the doctor. She just shrugged and resumed taking care of another patient. Those two boys had always been inseparable since that Irvine had come to the Garden.
There was no way they would ever stay apart for more than half a day. This day was not any different.
(I swam across
I jumped across for you
oh what a thing to do
'cause you were all yellow)
*******
For the next two weeks as Zell was in recuperation, Irvine never left his side, they discussed many things. Such as how to get Rinoa off of Squall, how to plan the next party at the Garden, and other topics of the sort. But, never did either speak of the kiss that Zell had given Irvine in those moments of dread.
It wasn't that the topic was unpleasant, it was just that Irvine began to think, maybe Zell had thought that he had been Lolith, and Zell thought that Irvine had forgotten all about it in their time of sadness.
Neither of them realized that that small, innocent kiss was going to torture both of them until one could bring it out for talking. A thorough brushing of what it had meant was badly needed.
( I drew a line I drew a line for you
oh what a thing to do
and it was all yellow)
"Hey Irvine! Come here for a second." Zell yelled, hobbling on his crutches slightly. Irvine looked up from his book where he was laying on his stomach on a couch in his dorm. "What?" Zell smiled, and pulled out something from his back pocket. It was what looked like a set of cards, only very glossy. "They're pictures from when we were young! Edea found 'em for me, since I can't go outside for awhile."
Irvine raised an eyebrow, his blue eyes shining. "Why don't I seem very excited?" Zell laughed a sound that came from deep within him. He grinned cheekily and hopped over to Irvine's side and plopped down on the large couch.
( D'your skin
oh yeah your skin and bones
turn into something beautiful
d'you know
for you I'd bleed myself dry
for you I'd bleed myself dry)
Zell started shuffling through the old pictures, giggling as he found the goofy ones, like when Irvine had spilled a bucket of mud on Selphie, or when Zell and gotten himself stuck in a Geezard hole, he burst into laughter when he came across the group picture where they had all rolled themselves in flour. Irvine smiled, watching Zell laugh, memorizing the way his eyes would twinkle with merriment and the way he would lick his lips every so often.
Zell looked at him, "Something wrong?"
( It's true
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for)
"N, no! Nothing. Just...thinking." Irvine whispered blissfully. Zell smiled, a grin spreading from ear to ear, he'd been doing that often, now that he spent most of his time with Irvine. The resumed their business, Zell flipping and Irvine watching. Both feeling something towards each other that they had tucked away long ago.
( Look how they shine
look at the stars
look how they shine for you
and all the things that you do)
"Maybe, that small kiss, had meant something after all. Maybe, happiness, was just a few inches away.
Quistis watched Irvine wrestle with his emotions; everything from pain to fear flew past his eyes. He seemed so lost that she wondered if he had even heard her.
"Irvine? He wants-"
"I know, dammit!" Irvine yelled, quickly heading to the infirmary. Dr. Kadowaki met him at the door, "Don't stress him too much Irvine, he's still out of it, but you needn't worry. He'll know who you are." Irvine nodded and walked back to the small, one bed ICU room.
(Look at the stars
Look how they shine for you
and everything you do
yeah they were all yellow)
"Z, Zell? Are you awake?" Irvine peered at the mound on the bed, his blue eyes watching for any small movement to signify that Zell had heard him. The bump stirred and emitted a low groan. "Irvine?' Zell whispered, the IV restricted him from getting up to look at the cowboy. Irvine rushed quickly to the side of the bed.
"I'm here, don't try and get up, please."
(I came along
I wrote a song for you
and all the things you do
and it was called yellow)
Zell sighed, "I'm sorry Irvy. I'm sorry I screwed up so bad."
Irvine winced at the weakness of Zell's voice when he said Irvine's childhood name. "It's OK. I shouldn't have shot; it was my mistake Zell. I should be sorry, and I am." Tears filled his blue eyes again. "Zell, I'm so sorry."
He collapsed on the side of the bed, crying his soul out in desperation. Zell looked at the top of the brunette's head, trying to swallow back the lump in his throat that was to surely dissolve into sobs.
(So then I took my turn
oh what a thing to have done
and it was all yellow)
"Please stop crying Irvine, see, I'm still alive." He smiled tearfully, but lost the sad grin when Irvine lifted his head, distress and depression etched across his beautiful face.
"If it hadn't been for me, you wouldn't be in that fucking bed. Zell, forgive me?" Irvine pleaded desperation in his voice, gripping tightly to Zell's pale hand in between his. Everything that has happened
to Zell is my fault. I don't deserve him as a friend, not after this. Zell sighed and cradled Irvine's head in his lap, stroking the soft strands of hair. He carefully brushed away the pearly tears on the porcelain face of Irvine's. "Shh..hush Irvine. It isn't your fault, and you know? This bed is actually pretty comfortable."
A small laugh came from Irvine as he raised his head. "But, your hurt, and I had made my own vow to take care of you, to find you after you were adopted, to be by your side, whether you wanted me there or not."
(Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
turn into something beautiful
d'you know
you know I love you so
you know I love you so)
"Irvine! No matter how many times I tell you to "Buzz off" or "Shut up" I'll always want you watching over me. But, you can't stop the accidents that happen, accidents will always occur, and you can't protect a clumsy clod like me from them always." He hugged Irvine close to him. Irvine, you've always been there
for me, and I always wanted you there, always. I just hope I didn't ruin anything by what I did before. Because, I can't ever afford to lose you. They both rested there in that tiny room, not caring how awkward the scene must seem to the doctor. She just shrugged and resumed taking care of another patient. Those two boys had always been inseparable since that Irvine had come to the Garden.
There was no way they would ever stay apart for more than half a day. This day was not any different.
(I swam across
I jumped across for you
oh what a thing to do
'cause you were all yellow)
*******
For the next two weeks as Zell was in recuperation, Irvine never left his side, they discussed many things. Such as how to get Rinoa off of Squall, how to plan the next party at the Garden, and other topics of the sort. But, never did either speak of the kiss that Zell had given Irvine in those moments of dread.
It wasn't that the topic was unpleasant, it was just that Irvine began to think, maybe Zell had thought that he had been Lolith, and Zell thought that Irvine had forgotten all about it in their time of sadness.
Neither of them realized that that small, innocent kiss was going to torture both of them until one could bring it out for talking. A thorough brushing of what it had meant was badly needed.
( I drew a line I drew a line for you
oh what a thing to do
and it was all yellow)
"Hey Irvine! Come here for a second." Zell yelled, hobbling on his crutches slightly. Irvine looked up from his book where he was laying on his stomach on a couch in his dorm. "What?" Zell smiled, and pulled out something from his back pocket. It was what looked like a set of cards, only very glossy. "They're pictures from when we were young! Edea found 'em for me, since I can't go outside for awhile."
Irvine raised an eyebrow, his blue eyes shining. "Why don't I seem very excited?" Zell laughed a sound that came from deep within him. He grinned cheekily and hopped over to Irvine's side and plopped down on the large couch.
( D'your skin
oh yeah your skin and bones
turn into something beautiful
d'you know
for you I'd bleed myself dry
for you I'd bleed myself dry)
Zell started shuffling through the old pictures, giggling as he found the goofy ones, like when Irvine had spilled a bucket of mud on Selphie, or when Zell and gotten himself stuck in a Geezard hole, he burst into laughter when he came across the group picture where they had all rolled themselves in flour. Irvine smiled, watching Zell laugh, memorizing the way his eyes would twinkle with merriment and the way he would lick his lips every so often.
Zell looked at him, "Something wrong?"
( It's true
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for)
"N, no! Nothing. Just...thinking." Irvine whispered blissfully. Zell smiled, a grin spreading from ear to ear, he'd been doing that often, now that he spent most of his time with Irvine. The resumed their business, Zell flipping and Irvine watching. Both feeling something towards each other that they had tucked away long ago.
( Look how they shine
look at the stars
look how they shine for you
and all the things that you do)
"Maybe, that small kiss, had meant something after all. Maybe, happiness, was just a few inches away.