So Selfish
written by aeyta
note: kinda strange...
They were such a perfect couple, they were so meant to be. And it wasn't even that she was that pretty, I guess you could call her pretty but not exactly the prettiest one in the catch. She had her pretty auburn locks and a slender, tall, milk-colored figure.
She was so wonderful, especially her eyes. The light wine colored eyes would look lovingly towards everyone and you would get a warm feeling inside of you since you knew she cared.
Then there was him, he was cold at first. Always hidden beneath the shadows, seeming like a cold bastardly boy. In the end, he wasn't. He just needed someone, someone to understand him. Someone to melt the ice of his eyes.
And she did, she understood him. She loved him and he loved her and so they became happy. She was fire and he was ice. So perfect, so perfect, the perfect couple.
I remember, not too long ago, just a few years ago on her 18th birthday. He had gotten her a necklace and she jumped into his arms and kissed him and he swung her around in the air. They loved each other so much and it hurt me so much.
Each laugh, each kiss, each look of love, each word of fondness, each everything.
I never felt so jealous, I wanted that. It wasn't like I was in love with him or anything, I already had a boyfriend that I knew I loved. I love Tai, I still do, but it's not enough.
I want what they have, they are so perfect. I want someone to swing me around, someone to buy me gifts all the time, someone to understand me, someone to kiss me and someone to be my best friend.
That rage of jealousy swept over me whenever I saw them together.
That was the same with Tai. He couldn't stand it either, he loved me too. But, I guess we're just too selfish, we wanted that because they had it.
So we took it.
We took away their memories years ago, when they were both 23. I still remember both of them, their screams and yells.
Sora was screaming and yelling , how she wanted him back and how she needed him. When we put the device over her forehead and she asked us what and why we were doing this, I never heard my voice so cold. I said simply, "We're so selfish and we want you have. Either that or we don't want to see it."
Sora started to scream how she would never forget him, she could never forget him, she would always remember him and love him forever. Of course she didn't, and she just looked blank after the process.
I know, we're so selfish. Tai and I, we just couldn't have it.
The same thing happened to Matt and we made sure that they would never see each other again so that their memories wouldn't be triggered. I took Matt and married him, took him far away from Sora who Tai took.
Tai kept Sora in Japan while I took Matt to America. So that they will never meet each other since all memories were erased and the fear that they would remember.
We're so selfish.
Still, he never loved me at all like her and vice versa with Tai and Sora. I never got what they had, what they will never have. A couple of times I thought of bringing them back together, but...
We're so selfish.
I couldn't, not now, not ever. Not without ever knowing if I could have what they had. But now I know, now I know that I will never have what they had because I never waited. I was never patient enough and I was so selfish.
They had a bond between each other, a bond I know I shouldn't have ruined.
Now, fourty years later from that day we tore them apart, Yamato Ishida died. His last words were, "Sora." And he stared at me before closing his eyes, and I knew. I knew he had remembered right then and there and he knew, he knew that awful selfish thing I had done.
A week later after that, Tai called me and said Sora had died. Sora had died when they were on a walk in the park, she suddenly clutched her heart and cried, talking about beautiful blue crystals. Also talking about how she couldn't remember, she couldn't remember the name. She could only remember beautiful blue crystals, Matt's eyes.
And she died.
I feel so guilty, so angry at myself for ruining them. For being impatient and selfish.
I wish a thousand times I could turn back time and change everything. But I'm left here each time, old and knowing, I'm so selfish.
Knowing that since I couldn't have and couldn't stand watching what they had, I resorted to taking it away from them.
Yes.
We're so selfish.
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AUTHORS NEW NOTE [5.10.01] Okay, i decided this to be twisted ending of my wonders series. ha. ha ha. i wrote this a whlie ago as just "so selfish" than decided to delete if from my ffnet account like all my other fics, but now that i reread this, i kinda like this as the ending.
written by aeyta
note: kinda strange...
They were such a perfect couple, they were so meant to be. And it wasn't even that she was that pretty, I guess you could call her pretty but not exactly the prettiest one in the catch. She had her pretty auburn locks and a slender, tall, milk-colored figure.
She was so wonderful, especially her eyes. The light wine colored eyes would look lovingly towards everyone and you would get a warm feeling inside of you since you knew she cared.
Then there was him, he was cold at first. Always hidden beneath the shadows, seeming like a cold bastardly boy. In the end, he wasn't. He just needed someone, someone to understand him. Someone to melt the ice of his eyes.
And she did, she understood him. She loved him and he loved her and so they became happy. She was fire and he was ice. So perfect, so perfect, the perfect couple.
I remember, not too long ago, just a few years ago on her 18th birthday. He had gotten her a necklace and she jumped into his arms and kissed him and he swung her around in the air. They loved each other so much and it hurt me so much.
Each laugh, each kiss, each look of love, each word of fondness, each everything.
I never felt so jealous, I wanted that. It wasn't like I was in love with him or anything, I already had a boyfriend that I knew I loved. I love Tai, I still do, but it's not enough.
I want what they have, they are so perfect. I want someone to swing me around, someone to buy me gifts all the time, someone to understand me, someone to kiss me and someone to be my best friend.
That rage of jealousy swept over me whenever I saw them together.
That was the same with Tai. He couldn't stand it either, he loved me too. But, I guess we're just too selfish, we wanted that because they had it.
So we took it.
We took away their memories years ago, when they were both 23. I still remember both of them, their screams and yells.
Sora was screaming and yelling , how she wanted him back and how she needed him. When we put the device over her forehead and she asked us what and why we were doing this, I never heard my voice so cold. I said simply, "We're so selfish and we want you have. Either that or we don't want to see it."
Sora started to scream how she would never forget him, she could never forget him, she would always remember him and love him forever. Of course she didn't, and she just looked blank after the process.
I know, we're so selfish. Tai and I, we just couldn't have it.
The same thing happened to Matt and we made sure that they would never see each other again so that their memories wouldn't be triggered. I took Matt and married him, took him far away from Sora who Tai took.
Tai kept Sora in Japan while I took Matt to America. So that they will never meet each other since all memories were erased and the fear that they would remember.
We're so selfish.
Still, he never loved me at all like her and vice versa with Tai and Sora. I never got what they had, what they will never have. A couple of times I thought of bringing them back together, but...
We're so selfish.
I couldn't, not now, not ever. Not without ever knowing if I could have what they had. But now I know, now I know that I will never have what they had because I never waited. I was never patient enough and I was so selfish.
They had a bond between each other, a bond I know I shouldn't have ruined.
Now, fourty years later from that day we tore them apart, Yamato Ishida died. His last words were, "Sora." And he stared at me before closing his eyes, and I knew. I knew he had remembered right then and there and he knew, he knew that awful selfish thing I had done.
A week later after that, Tai called me and said Sora had died. Sora had died when they were on a walk in the park, she suddenly clutched her heart and cried, talking about beautiful blue crystals. Also talking about how she couldn't remember, she couldn't remember the name. She could only remember beautiful blue crystals, Matt's eyes.
And she died.
I feel so guilty, so angry at myself for ruining them. For being impatient and selfish.
I wish a thousand times I could turn back time and change everything. But I'm left here each time, old and knowing, I'm so selfish.
Knowing that since I couldn't have and couldn't stand watching what they had, I resorted to taking it away from them.
Yes.
We're so selfish.
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AUTHORS NEW NOTE [5.10.01] Okay, i decided this to be twisted ending of my wonders series. ha. ha ha. i wrote this a whlie ago as just "so selfish" than decided to delete if from my ffnet account like all my other fics, but now that i reread this, i kinda like this as the ending.