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Chapter 10: Restless Soul

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-The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two
chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed.-
- C.G. Jung-

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The next day- Afternoon
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Merle and Celena are shopping in the market center, Van takes Atrea
to the Garden to get her mind off things. Allen and Millerna return to
Austuria.
" I thought it might be nice for you to get some fresh air, i hope
you don't mind " said Van concerned. " It was a good idea, thanks Van.
If you don't mind could you leave me alone with my thoughts for
awhile "? i said. " Sure , i will be right over there if you need
anything. By the way light blue looks very nice on you " Van said
blushing a little. " For a dress i slept in? Thanks ". I said and Van
left. To leave me alone with my thoughts.
I sat down on a bench near the lilac garden. The flowers are
perfect. Shades of purples and blues. The bench is a stone color with
flowered vines growing around it. I would like to paint a picture of
this someday. A picture? What am i talking about. The last time i
painted a picture was of him......
Why are these virtual strangers trying to help me. The war... All
was lost.... My friends.... My love.... All was lost. I am an outsider
here. I was part of Zaibach. That sets me apart from them. I am
different and they know that. All that i am is foreign to them. I don't
know how to talk to these people, i don't understand their generosity.
I don't know myself anymore. The faces of the past don't know me
either. They walk by and they don't know me. I guess i am an echo of
who i used to be. Who am i now? Where is that confident girl? I guess
she died we HE did. Maybe i should fade away too. Puts her hand on
the tree now facing it
Merle and Celena now enter the garden. " Who is that "? Celena
asked Merle. " Oh, i forgot you didn't meet her yet " replied Merle.
" So what's her name Merle " Celena asked her again. " Oh, sorry her
name is Atrea " Merle replied licking her paw. " I was going to talk
with her this afternoon " Celena said cheerfully. " She has a pretty
marking on her back, is that a sun "? Celena inquired. " Ya, she has
a tatoo on her back, i think it is kinda cool " Merle said and ran
off leaving Celena standing there mesmorized by the Silver sun.
Celena's thoughts It's so beautiful. A perfect sun. It feels
strange though. Why does it feel strange? There is nothing unusal here,
just a girl with auburn hair, wearing a light blue dress, and facing
a tree. Ok that is not the unusal part. Something about her. Celena
walks quietly closer Something there. Something i should know. Maybe
i have seen her before somewhere. Well i am about a carriage length
away from her and nothing seems odd. Why does my stomach feel as
though there are butterflies in it? It seems odd.... What am i doing
here, like this? I should go up to her and talk to her. My legs are not
moving. I feel stupid staring at the poor girls back. " Is someone
there "? asks Atrea not turning around. That voice.... Familair? Why
can't i answer her? This is stupid i should go. Atrea turns around
slowly and says " Who are you "? Panic. That face. That beautiful face.
I know her, from where, what's going on here. I don't understand. " Are
you ok miss "? Atrea asks. " Yes, i'm. uh I'm sorry, i have to go now "
Celena says and runs back to her room in the castle.
Celena closes her door and slides down it to the floor. What is
going on here. I don't understand. I feel weak i better lay down. I
will just shut my eyes for minute......
" What's her problem"? Atrea says to herself outloud. I don't get
that happening a lot. People see me they usually don't run away. Guess
i am scary looking today. hahaha she laughs to herself. Maybe i will
stay here for awhile. I feel kind of a connection here. As long as i
don't go back to earth, maybe i can learn to breathe without him.
looks at her ring My new mission is to find his grave, So i can
return this before i die. And tell him all the things inside of me. I
bet finding his grave won't be easy. I will have to be patient. Stay
here long enough to convince Van and the others that i am sane. That
way they won't stop me from leaving. I will have to do it slowly. So
they will believe it.
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Celena Dream Sequence
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It's dark here, i wonder where i am. " Do you remember me "? A mans
voice calls out from the darkness. I don't know, should i? You saw her?
He asks. Saw who? I don't understand. Why is it all dark here?
" Because this is where i live ". The voices states. Who are you? "I am
you, or rather i was you " The voice says. " Is she well "? the man
asks in pain. Who is this SHE you are asking about? "I miss her you
know, ever since she left. I went crazy and they tried to fix me. The
loss was too much for me to bear". He says very sadly. Who is the girl,
i want to understand. " Why bother, i bring you to her everytime you
sleep. The images never last. Everytime you wake up you don't
remember, i show you every night " the man said. I want to see, how can
i remember? I want to remember. " My pain, My saddness, and my life. I
cannot get you to remember when you wake up. Because you live here
now " he said in anguish. Please show me. image of the tree from
earlier Who is she to you? Atrea isn't that her name? Image of Atrea
running away during the dance So she was here before too. Image
of Atrea jumping onto the roof You knew her long before, didn't you.
Image of Atrea engulfed in the white light now darkness again.
" Yes, She was my love and my life, then the light took her away, and
my heart with her " He said in a monotone voice. Image of the silver
band with the garnet serpent wrapped around it darkness again. So she
has come back. Who are you? " If i told you, then you would suffer as
i am ". the man said his voice fading. " Go to her, tell her i love
her and always will " his voice now barely a whisper. How can i if i
won't remember..........
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Celena walks to Atrea's room and goes inside. Atrea is sleeping.
Celena basically sleep walking, walks over to her bed and sits down.
She listens to hear breathing and touches her hair. She says, barely
audible " He used to watch you sleep, it gave him peace " Celena jumps
up. Where did that come from? Why did i say that? How did i get in
this room? Why is she important to me. Celena leaves rather quickly,
though not quietly. She slammed the door, almost waking Atrea from her
sleep. " Dilandau " Atrea mutters in her sleep.
Celena walks back to her room really shaken. It's a good thing
Allen went back with the princess. If he saw me in this state he would
freak out. What is wrong with me? I must have been sleep walking. How
did i end up in her room? Why did i say those words? And who was the
HE i was speaking of. I must be losing my mind. Something is not right.
I am going to stay away from her. I don't know why. But i have to stay
away from her. Who knows what i will do if i befriend her. Who is she?
Why does she have such an effect on me?
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Next day in the courtyard
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" Are you sure you want to train with me "? Atrea asked Van. " ya
well Allen says your pretty good, and i need a sparing partner " Van
says chuckling. They are sparing with swords Celena walks out into
the courtyard and sees them. Celena stands there unable to move or take
her eyes off of Atrea. Celena thinking I feel so hot and weak. It
is happening again everytime i get near to her i can't move or think
straight. I feel like the color is leaving my face. " Celena, are you
ok "? Van says rushing up to her. I can't talk, i can't think.
" Celena" Van yells. Celena paases out.
" Hey, someone help me get her to her room, she is sick " Van yells
to the gaurds.
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Celena's dream sequence
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Where are you damn it? Answer me! it may be all dark here but i
know your there. In dreams i can remember now. I see my life and i
remember here. I can't remember in the waking world, but i know it
here. I remember last nights dream, i remember all day today. i want
answers. In the waking world i am confused, i don't understand. But
HERE i remember. Who is she to you, what are you to me? A grassy
field? Why do you take me here? " So you can see " the voice states.
" you want to see, don't you "? the voice says. Yes. So start by
telling me about her. " She is my love, she was my life, then the light
took her away ". The voice says sadly. Ok so what is your name? "My
name is Dilandau, and i am you. Buried. And alive. And in pain" he
says..... oh my god.... this was your past. and she is part of it.
Celena wakes up, still not remembering her dreams when she is awake
"Can't sleep again" Van asks. " No " Celena replied sleep wearing
off. " What happened " She asked. " You passed out, and i watched over
you to make sure your would be ok " Van said softly. " I am ok now,
thanks Van " Celena says and falls asleep again. Van leaves the room.
All darkness. He does not come back. Celena sleeps peacefully,
well tonight anyway.