DisClaimer: I don't own Escaflowne or ant of the people in it. Please
don't sue.:0) This is my first fan fic. Tell me what you think.

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Chapter 11: Rage

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-I took a walk around the world to ease my troubled mind. I left my
body laying somewhere in the sands of time. I watched the world float
to the dark side of the moon. I feel there is nothing i can do.-

- 3 doors down, Kryptonite-
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Celena
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I don't understand what's happening to me. Everytime i see her i
feel the need to run away. When i get close to her i feel weak like i
am going pass out. Maybe i should go back to Austuria. I wish i could
understand why i can't leave. Everytime i try to leave i can't.
Something inside stops me. And why is it every night i go to sleep i
wake up in her room stroking her hair saying things i don't get. This
has been going on for weeks. I am afraid to go to sleep.
Celena falls asleep Ok Dilandau i know your here! Come out,
Come out where ever you are. You know i can't go on like this. Oh so
now we are back on the grassy field. What no bright white light? You
can do better than this! Tell me what you really want! You want to
drive me insane right? Dilandau walks up to her in the dreamscape
" Here to face me "? Celena asks him. He circles around her . " Why
do we do this every night? I know your whole life story now " Celena
says impatiently. " You know what i want " Dilandau smiles and says.
" No, i don't " Celena insisted. " Why, I want my body back ". He says
and crazily laughs. " What!!!????? " Celena yells. " You heard me.
With each passing day i get stronger and stronger. I have you doing
things that you would never do " Dilandau says still smiling. "It is
only a matter of time......" he says and leaves Celena to the darkness.
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The Courtyard.
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Atrea is buying things at the market. " Now's your chance " a
voice whispers in Celena's head. What was that? Now i am talking to
myself. " Go over to her and say hi, you don't want to be rude " a
voice whispers. I should just go talk to her and stop avoiding her.
Celena walks up to Atrea. I feel weird, something is happening. I
feel like i am going to pass out. Celena's mind is out cold. Dilandau's
mind takes over Celena's body.
" Hi Atrea, i haven't formally introduced myself " Dilandau says
in Celena's body. " Hi. Your Celena right "? Atrea says. " I am pleased
you remembered my name " he says. " Van told me that day you passed out
in the training area " Atrea replies not wanting to be social. " Oh i
see, i am better now, i was hoping we might be able to talk in the
flower garden for a bit " he says smiling big. " Ummm well i am kinda
busy, maybe another time " Atrea says walking away. " Well if your
chicken....." he said. " What? " Atrea said turning around. " Fine, i
this should be interesting. Your the first person who didn't treat me
like i am a fragile egg " Atrea said with a half smile. " Why would
people treat you this way?" He said concerned. " Well you do know that
i mean to kill myself, don't you?" Atrea said as they were walking to
the garden. " Why on god's name would you do that "? he said really
upset. " Don't ask unless you really want to know " Atrea said sitting
down on the bench. " i want to know " he said also sitting.
Atrea looks into Celena's eyes "Why would i want to live "?
Atrea said so coldly. " Why wouldn't you, there is so much that you
could with your life " he said concerned. " Your right i do have one
more thing i have to do " Atrea said staring at the sky. " What is
it?" he asked. " I have to find his grave, and leave this there ".
Atrea said showing Celena the ring. " Wow, what a nice ring, why would
you leave this on a grave " he asked. " because it is my heart, and he
no longer is, so i will leave my heart with him " Atrea said eyes
watering. " Who is the HIM you refer too " he asked impatiently. " I'm
... I'm sorry i have said too much i have to go ummmm go" Atrea said
running away very fast. Dilandau can't hold onto Celena's body anymore
so he let her come back. So he could save his strength.
What am i doing sitting here? Last thing i remember i was in the
market. I need to lay down i feel sick. Celena thought.
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Atrea
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What is wrong with me? I should not have said anything. What if she
blows it and tells Van and the others that i am still going to die? She
wouldn't, would she? I will have to find her tomorrow and tell her that
i was kidding. I was playing a harmless joke. She will understand. I
mean, i have been under a lot of pressure lately. Besides why was she
trying to pretend she didn't know why i was still here? i heard Allen
tell her. She deserved to hear it again. I am acutally pleased i told
her. I will still have to make like it was a big joke though because
i am leaving in a week and i don't want anyone to try to stop me. I
will kill whoever gets in my way.
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Sometime in the middle of the night
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Whispering voices. Celena. Celena. Celena. Not now i am trying to
sleep. Celena. Celena. Celena. Not now damn it i am tired. Celena come
to me. Go away. Celena come to me. Celena falls asleep, Dilandau's
fun begins
Dilandau what now? are you going to invade my sleep almost every
night? Celena says annoyed. "NOW YOU LISTEN TO ME! From now on you will
do what i say, do you get me? " Dilandau says angry as hell. " Or i
will invade your waking body as often as i can ". he goes on to say.
" You wouldn't " She said a little scared. " Oh wouldn't i, hahahahaha.
I will make you do things you never thought capable, i will kill a few
people in their sleep, things will go missing, i will cause you so much
pain, and last i will make you remember everything i do". He says with
blood lust in his voice. " Why, why would you do this ?" she asked
shaken. " Because your mind chains me. I hate you. I really hate you.
I want my body back, and you won't stop me. I will make your mind weak
and fragile and then i will take my life back by ending yours" he said
full of serious hate. " i will fight you " she said trying to stand up
for herself. " hahahahahahahaha, your pathetic mind? hmmmmmm i wonder
how you would feel if i killed ALLEN, and made you watch over and over.
Or how about those children you love so much, cut of their pretty
little heads, in your body? hahahahahaha how would that make you feel?
Hurt?hahahaha. Or maybe i will kill them slowly and make them suffer,
one by one making each other watch. I like that idea " he said sounding
very psycotic. " Why, would you do this? " she said crying in terror.
" Because i will not let her die! I love her with all of my being. And
she has suffered because of me. I will not let anything happen to
her. " he said angrily. " But you are making me suffer " she said
sadly. " ARE you fucking serious? " he asked her. " Yes " she meekly
replied. " You just don't get it do you? YOU DON'T MATTER " he said
laughing hysterically. " I don't matter? I was born into this body,
this is my mind, this is my life " she yelled at him. He stops laughing
and says " Give me my body back, or i will kill Merle tomorrow. I will
start with your so called friends, then i will kill children, and
maybe Van. I want to save him for last". He started laughing again.
" No, i won't give you my body, i will stop you somehow " she yelled
at him. "MMMMMMMM a challenge i like them so much.... Let's play Celena
you and me.hahahahahahahahahahaha " Dilandau stated amused.End Dream
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Atrea - the next morning
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" Hey Van, i am going to take a walk " i said. " You need any
company?" Van replied. " No thanks, i will be fine " i said and left.
Company what a joke. I am not coming back you idiot. I have on, my own
jeans and shirt, the same as when i entered this world. I hope he
doesn't mind i borrowed a few things. I don't think he will miss 1
sword, some food rations, and a bottle of wine that i cleverly stashed
yesterday in the forest. I am going to find his grave no matter what.
I want to see for myself where he died. I think i will start with the
fallen Zaibach.
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Where is she going? Celena thought. Well now at least Dilandau
can't kill anyone, his reason for killing has just left, and it looks
like for good. " Oh really " Dilandau says in her head. Yes thats
right. She is gone. " And your going to follow her " he said. No i am
not. " Oh yes you are, or someone dies right now ". he said pleased
with himself. Well if i go you can't kill anyone here because you'll
be with me. " true, but if you don't hurry you'll lose her, and i will
get bored and have to kill " he said snickering. " Fine you jackass.
Dilandau takes over Celena's body, she is unaware he has done
this I think i will need to buy some men's clothes right now before
i follow Atrea. I will be strong enough soon to take over my body
again. And that stupid poor Celena has no idea she is playing into my
hands.hahahahahahahahaha.
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In the Forest
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Well the campfire isn't that great. I wish i had a lighter with me.
Oh well i guess this wine will have to do. She starts drinking, very
fast Soon i will feel all warm and fuzzy, and my thoughts hazy. I
won't have to feel......
Snap of a twig " Who's there "? I called out. " It is just me,
Celena, i was worried about you " Dilandau said in Celena's body.
" Can i sit with you?" he asked nicely. "NO " i yell. " Please " he
said trying to sound more sweet. " What part of No don't you
understand "? I yelled again. Oh great she is going to sit down anyway.
" What the hell do you want from me? and why are you following me "?
i asked annoyed. " I want to know why you are suicidal " he asked
softly. " i was kidding about that. it was a joke " i said laughing it
off. " I know your lying " he said. " What the hell do you know "?
I said mad. " I know your hurting and maybe you could tell me why " he
said sounding concerned.
" Hmmm, the woman wants to know why i a mere woman myself is
thinking of such unladylike things " i said sarcastically. " I did not
mean to upset you " he said trying to be calming. " Upset me? Right...
You could never upset me. Because i don't care! I don't care about you,
this planet, Earth, or anything else for that matter " I stated. " Well
what do you care about then? Your still alive! You must care about
something or you would already be dead " he yelled. " Touche " i said.
" That's it, thats all you have to say"? he said mad. " What would
you like me to say "? i replied amused by her annoyed state of mind.
I went on to say " Do i aggravate you? Then leave! " I said now feeling
warm and fuzzy". " I will leave, when you tell me what could possibly
make you want to die " he said mad as hell. Well that did it Atrea is
buzzed and angry
" OK, I WILL, tell you what would make me this way. You and your
kind! You don't understand me. You pretend everything is ok. Fine and
fucking dandy, when infact all is lost. ALL IS LOST. You hear that God?
All is lost, You stole my life! And you points finger at Celena with
blood lust Keep asking me how i am, trying to save me. Well here me,
and here me well, i cannot be saved.God help you, if you interfere with
my plans. But then again God probably won't, because HE does not care.
I lost my heart! I lost my Love ! God took me back to earth against
my will! I didn't even get the chance to tell my finace' about our
baby, Yes thats right. The big bad light took me to earth 2 months
pregnant. It does not matter now. The baby died before i knew it. It
was just gone. I was left with nothing. Not a damn thing. I tried to
jump off a cliff and end my life. As i was falling, the big bad light
brought me back to Gaea. Yes someone loves to torture this poor soul!
I come back to find out my love is dead. He died in the war that i
should have fought with him. But nooooooooo. That is not how it works.
So you can understand why i don't really care, i feel nothing but hate
and anger. I will go and find his grave, and then i will take this
sword and kill myself. At least i can have some peace knowing i will,
in death, be with him. With that Atrea passed out
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Dilandau's thoughts
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A ba... baby. She was pregnant? Oh my God.... And now she wants to
die, to end the same torture we both feel. I can't let that happen. I
have to get Celena a little farther away from here. So i can sleep and
regain my strength. I can't let her die. I will find a way to become
myself, quicker. I have to, or die trying. Because Atrea is all that
matters. She is my life, my purpose, my meaning, and my love. I will
do anything to save her. Or kill anyone who stands in my way.