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Chapter 12: A fate worse than death
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-We have a weight to carry and a distance we must go.
We have a weight to carry, a destination we can't know.
We have a weight to carry and can put it down nowhere.
We ARE the weight we carry from there to here to there.

- Book of counted sorrows-
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Atrea waking up
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Was i dreaming? How drunk did i get? I thought Celena was here.
Well if she was, she seems to be gone now. Good! i scared her off. Now
she knows i meant business. Time to get up and start walking, this
forest should take me back to the clearing and the cave. From there
if i go left i will end up in the heart of the fallen Zaibach.
Yep, this is the beginning. Where it all started...... How i came
to know this planet. It seems like another lifetime ago. Almost 2 years
of my life has passed. I can't really explain these events rationally
to myself. The girl who was in New York does not exist anymore. She
died there. And here i am, an echo of my former self. She was alone,
and without purpose. I may be alone but i have purpose. To die next to
him.
Looking up at the sky, speaking aloud Can you here me Dilandau?
Does my voice reach you? There are so many things i wanted to tell you.
You changed me. If only for a short time, i was complete with you. Even
when you tried to capture me, you gave me purpose. You ARE my only
purpose. You were then as you are now. I loved the intrigues we played.
I loved being with you. I love you. I wish for you to hear me so you
can know.
Celena following Atrea, listens as Celena Wow she really loves
you. I have never known, besides you, someone with that kind of
passion. It is the only thing that drives her to live. " You see now?
Why i love her so much, why i would do anything for her? Including
killing you "? he said sadly. Yes i do.
Trees, Trees, and, oh look more trees. Laughs outloud This is
funny. I have to go through the beginning in order to get to the end.
I never pictured my life this way. A big joke. Shouting voices
" Who's there "? i yell out in front of me. I am at the beginning. The
clearing with the campsite. Am i dreaming? " Well looky here boys, if
it isn't the little lady that took us on the last time. Funny we should
meet here of all places". The big guy said laughing. " Oh looky here,
if it isn't the cast from Men in Tights " I said smug. At least i got
the joke. " Take her boys " the big guy yells out. Atrea takes out her
" borrowed " sword, and the fight ensues.
Will she be alright Dilandau? Celena thinks in her head. " I hope
so " he replies. Dilandau now takes over the unsuspecting Celena, in
case there is trouble.
" Your skills have improved " Atrea said to the men. More fighting.
And then there are 2 guys left standing. Atrea is knocked out from
behind. " I see yours HAS not improved little lady " The big guy says
laughing.
" Don't touch her, you pigs " Dilandau yells out in Celena's body.
" Oh, another woman, oh gosh i am so scared " says the big guy
laughing. " If you only knew who i really was, you would not be so
sarcastic " Dilandau stated. " Oh look, we are shaken in our boots "
the big guy says. Within a minute Dilandau steals one of their swords,
and kills them both. Then kills the other 4 knocked out cold. And dumps
their bodies in Spirit Lake. A now tired Dilandau needs sleep. Celena
is allowed to return. She is confused and falls asleep as well.
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The next morning right before dawn
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" Dilandau " Atrea's voice mutters in her sleep. " NNNOOOOOOOO "
she wakes up in a cold sweat. Oh shit, what a bad dream. Wait a second
Where are the men? They are gone? Why would they leave me here
unharmed? Maybe they were trying to teach me a lesson. Not that i
learned anything anyway. Except to kill them if i ever see them again.
Owwww my head is throbbing, i am going to rest a little longer.
Celena What did you do to those men? " I killed them " Why?
" Because they were going to hurt her, i would not let that happen "
You killed them in my body? " Yes ". Oh god Celena said. Her mind
passed out. Dilandau was almost strong enough to take his body back.
He would need a few more days.
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Later that afternoon ( Atrea )
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What? This IS Zaibach? There is nothing left. No ruins. Nothing
but a stick in the ground and a few people in huts. How am i ever going
to find his grave?
" Excuse me sir "? I asked one of the men. " Yes, what do you want
girl"? the man said. " I am looking for the grave of Dilandau Albatou,
do you know where it is "? i asked hopeful. " Dilandau? He was last
seen over that ridge, with the melef wreckage, he is probably buried
somewhere up there " the man said. " How far away is it " i asked.
" About a days walk " the man replied. A woman came out of the hut and
said " Would you like to stay here tonight "? " I guess so, i
am kinda tired " i said really meaning i was tired. " Well then you
stay here tonight and tomorrow you can tell us why your so interested
in his grave. I know where his melef is in the wreckage " the woman
responded. " sounds good to me " i said and sat down next to their
fire. Next thing i knew i was asleep.
Celena/Dilandau "That woman knows where my Alseides is?"
Dilandau said. "Well that is what she said Dilandau " Celena replied.
"Fine then, we stay here and listen to them. I want to find out more
about it " Dilandau states. " Fine whatever " Celena replys tired.
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The Hut The next morning
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" My name is Ziola, what's yours " Ziola asked. " Uh my name is
Eva " I said. " Are you from Zaibach Eva "? Ziola asked. " Ummmm no i
came from Merrosa " i told her. " Are you from Zaibach " i went on to
say. " No, not originally. I came from Ispano " she said.
-So Atrea is back to lying huh. Shhhhhhhh i want to hear. Fine
Celena i will think quieter.-
" Ispano, i heard that place was really nice, why did you come here
to this " I pointed in every direction. " I was betrothed to one of
Zaibach's generals. We were in love " she said sadly. " oh i see " I
said not sure what to say. I was unfamilair to the people of Zaibach.
The only ones i knew were all dead and from the floating fortress.
" I came here a few months before the war, because he asked me to marry
him, this place is not the same without him, i miss him with all my
heart " she said depressed. " I am so sorry " i said.
-Dilandau, did you know Ziola? Yes, she followed me everywhere i
went in Zaibach. Dornkirk wanted me to marry someone and he was going
to arrange it with her, i told him no, and thats about the time i met
Atrea. I didn't give Ziola a second thought after that. She kept
following me around even during the war, when i stopped here for
supplies and what not. She would not leave me alone. She tried to
seduce me a couple of times and i rejected her because she was not
Atrea. I did not know she was engaged to another general though.
Dilandau stated.-
" Yes, he was the love of my life. He loved me sooooooo very much.
I was heartbroken when i heard he had been killed and i still am. We
were inseparable him and i. He would read to me from books when he was
here, and he was great in bed if you know what i mean " Ziola said.
" You must be so crushed " was all i could think of to say.
-That does not make any sense Celena. She was always bothering me
when i was here. How could she have had a love and pursued me? Dilandau
said confused. Yes, that does seem odd, the way she talks about her
late husband to be... It does not make sense. Celena said.-
" But he spent so much time on the floating fortress, i hardly
got to see him " Ziola said. Floating Fortress? I was there; and there
were no other generals on there but Dilandau. Who is she talking about?
-Who is she talking about Dilandau? Celena asked. I have no idea.
I was the only general on the Floating Fortress. I know i was not in
love with her nor did i do any of those things she said. Dilandau
stated perplexed.-
" What was his name Ziola ? i asked wondering. " His name was
Dilandau Albatou " Ziola said proudly. " WHAT! " i said horrified.
-WHAT THE HELL!!!!! LYING BITCH! FUCKING LYING BITCH! I AM GOING TO
KILL HER!!!. Dilandau yelled so loud in Celena's mind. Wait Dilandau,
lets hear the rest. Celena said rationally.-
" You were not engaged to Dilandau! " i got up and screamed at her.
" Stupid, Lying bitch! " i went on to yell. " I was so, and he loved
me " she said pouting. " I AM GOING TO KILL YOU!!!!!!! " I said with a
new reason to live. I had blood lust in my eyes. My stomach had some
stray butterflies in it. I was shaking with anger. I wanted to kill her
in cold blood, Taking her apart, with my new sword piece by piece.
She jumped up and backed away from me, her now boyfriend, the guy i
talked with last night jumped in front of her to defend her from my
attack. " You cannot save her " i said coldly. "
- Looks like you won't have to kill her Dilandau. Atrea seems more
likely to do it now. Celena stated. If she doesn't, i will. She put
those thoughts into Atrea's head trying to get her to doubt my love
for her. She won't get away with it. Dilandau said harshly.-
" You should believe her miss, i can verify her story " the
boyfriend said with sword out. " Then i will have to kill you as well
for your lies " I stated with hot anger in my voice. " What do you care
what was in the past anyway girl " he stated. " Because I, was on the
floating fortress. I was engaged to him. I was to have his child. And
now you stand there and lie to me!!!! I have nothing to lose by killing
you both " I said with my blood lust pronounced in my voice.
- I want their blood Celena, I want to rip out her vocal chords and
smash her head in, I WANT THEIR BLOOD NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!! Dilandau said
so hot with anger he passed out. Dilandau? Are you still in there?-
" You will die this day! " I shouted happily. They ran away very
fast not looking back. " Come back here cowards " I yelled after them.
I was getting hot and my knees weak, i was shaking so bad i could not
stop myself from passing out. What if she was telling the truth......