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Chapter 6 'Let it be'
"Relena?" Heero asked again. He felt as if a huge weight had been lifted from his shoulders as he looked at her. As if somehow. He had been in a dream for the last four days, that she had never left. His mind was screaming at him, but he couldn't hear its words all he heard was the pounding of his own heart. Did she come back to him? Was the pain going to leave? He wanted to know so badly, to feel her against him again that he took a step foreword. In an automatic response she took a step backward. Heero stopped then his shoulders sagging with anguish. She still hated him, nothing had changed.
Relena watched him her eyes widening in uncertainty. She hadn't seen that look in his eyes since they'd first been together. It was a hungry desperate cry for…love? Relena watched him hoping that he would just let her leave. Maybe he would move out of the way and let her leave without even asking what she was doing there. Part of her wanted to run while the other part told her that she needed to talk to him. Even as the thought crossed her mind she saw him turn from her and sink onto the bed his head falling into his hands. She watched him for a moment and then trained her eyes on the door. She could escape now, but something stopped her and she couldn't move.
Heero knew she was still there, watching him. Was she trying to torture him? Did she want him to feel more pain than he already did. He wanted her to leave. It was bad enough that she pained him even when she wasn't around, but now it was worse, knowing that she was in reach but unable to have her. "I can't…" He spoke through his hand and pulled him down and onto his chin. "You have to leave…I can't" His words were choked as he forced them out. The last thing he wanted was for her to leave. He wanted all it to end. He wanted the confusion to go away. He wanted her to pick up the shattered pieces of his heart and put them back together.
Relena heard the words and was unable to stop the tears. He was in so much pain. It seeped off every word he spoke. It filled her and made her heart ache for him, for them, and in that moment she ignored her mind and listened to her far ignored heart. It was screaming what she should do clearly. 'Go to him.' It called and she took a step toward his shaking form. He hadn't moved from when he spoke last. His eyes were shut and his face twisted in agony. Right now she only knew one thing. She loved Heero. She didn't remember their fights. She didn't remember why she'd left, and the only thing she wanted was to be by his side again, to end their pain together.
It didn't take long for her to reach his side. He was still sitting with his eyes shut, immobile. Could he feel like she had always wished for him to? Kneeling in front of him she moved to put her hand on his arm in hopes of pulled in gaze down toward her. Her fingers hovered just over his skin and Relena felt as if something was holding her back. She let her hand hang there for a moment, shaking. Was she afraid? Was that what was wrong with them, fear? Not knowing what to do she sat there her hand poised to touch his skin but frozen in time. A deep rumble of thunder shook her from her position and she brought her hand down, clutching his arm. She had forgotten what he felt like.
All he felt was a bitter cold as he waited for her to leave all over again. He knew that nothing he could do could stop her. The pain flared through him and it was all he could do to keep from falling to his knees. Then he felt it, her warm fingers caressing his skin. Her touch, he had missed it so much. All those times he's slept away from her, why? He wanted her so bad, to be there beside him for the rest of his life. Her fingers tightened around his arm and began tugging at him. He knew she was trying to pull his face down so that she could see him, but he didn't want to look at her. Again he wanted to know why. Why was he so…scared? The word popped into his brain and immediately he knew it was true. He was afraid. No once could he remember being afraid. She would see that he wasn't perfect if she looked at him. She would see his weakness. Somehow that had pushed him away from her in the last couple of months, but now he didn't care. None of that mattered because he loved her.
His cold blue eyes fell upon hers and Relena found her eyes filling with tears again. It was there; she saw the emotion pouring from his eyes. He loved her. In that moment she had no doubt and her heart swelled with unbelievable joy. His cheeks were red and his eyes red rimmed as if he was trying not to cry. She had never seen him cry before. She frowned for a moment as an unknown tear fell from his eye and down his cheek. He was crying feeling so much pain because of her. She had given him all of it. Trying to keep the sob from leaving her throat she reached up and brushed the tear away with her thumb. Would he ever forgive her? As he leaned into her touch his eyes closing in contentment the sob escaped and a fresh flood of tears clouded her vision. "I'm sorry…" she managed as she continued to stroke his cheek. "I thought…I didn't know." She paused and began to pull away afraid that he no longer wanted her to touch him.
Heero felt her hand leaving his face and he immediately grabbed it and held it in place. He didn't want to be without her touch for another moment. He knew that they had both been at fault. He had to tell her to let her know that it was over. "No," He told her while slipping onto the floor so he kneeled on the carpet with her. The room was lit momentarily and he saw the worn path the merciless tears had made down her face. They glistened in the light and tore at his heart. "It doesn't matter, we both messed up…just." He paused searching for the right words, but he had never been very good at expressing himself. "Let it be." He finally whispered. "Just let it be." This time he cupped her cheeks and wiped her tears. As he did she fell onto his chest and clung to him. It had never felt so right having her pressed against him.
Relena felt his arms wrapping around her returning her tight embrace and she pulled him tighter. She hoped this wasn't all a dream and when she woke up he wouldn't be gone. They held each other for a long time with only the sound of their labored breathing in the raging storm outside filling the room. When her tears had stopped she felt Heero loosened his arms and push her away from him slightly. As he looked at her his fingers traced her features as if he were trying to memorize everything about her. Relena closed her eyes and savored his touch. For a moment his fingers brushed against her lips and she took in a breath. Before she could even open her eyes his lips met her in a sweet kiss. Relena wrapped her arms around him as she was plunged into a world of warm and happiness. She felt complete with him so close to her. His hands were roaming over her back in a crazy attempt to pull her closer to him.
His emotions, his feelings were in overload. He had missed her so much. All the times he could have held her like this and he hadn't. He promised never to let her leave again as he kissed her. Not wanting be away from her but tired of being on the floor he lifted her in his arms and set her on the bed all the while never breaking their kiss. As he slipped in beside her he felt the pain that had consumed him so fully the last couple of days, or perhaps it was the pain he'd felt all his life, disappeared. For now anyway he was complete.
They fell asleep their arm wrapped tightly around each other in a protective hug. They clung to each other almost as if the other would disappear. Outside the storm came to an end the rain slacking and the earth shattering thunder fading to a distant rumble. And now the two lover's war was over. They would still have problems, but now there was nothing but the two of them and nothing would ever pull them apart. Emotions such as fear and doubt would never pull them apart because love is stronger than all them. Through the fights that would follow they would remember this night when the storm matched their raging emotions and just let it be.
I know this is short, but there wasn't much you could say. It was fate.
_N-E way there might be an epilogue so don't feel cheated, and cheer because I didn't leave you with a cliffhanger this time. *Smiles and waves happily* THANKS FOR READING and REVIEWING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
