It's happening all over again ...


"Who is that ?"
"Professor R.J. Lupin."
"How do you know ?"
Hermione pointed at his battered suitcase , where the words R.J. Lupin were stamped.

Remus was asleep , his head on his shoulder , dreaming peaceful dreams. Almost. It hurt to be back on the Hogwarts Express , it brang back memories he didn't wish existed. But if you forget the bad , you will have to forget the good memories. And memories are all you have left of them. He could hear voices vaguely , but kept on sleeping . Remembering...

"Hi Sirius !"
"Hi James ! What's up ?"
"Nothing. My parents were mighty happy to get rid of me though."
'So were mine. They needed a break."
"Me too ! Hey ! Who's this ?"
'This is Remus. Remus , Lupin was it ?"
The small boy nest to Sirius nodded. The three of them climbed into the compartment , and sat down. They were all chatting about Hogwarts ( Well , James and Sirius were ) , when the door opened , and a small , fat boy walked in. He was pink , and looked out of breath.
"Can I - uh - I - uh , sit here ?"
"Sure ..."
"Th-thanks. My name's Peter. Pettigrew."
"I'm James , this is Sirius , and that's Remus."
"Oh - thanks."
"No problem. Calm down , we don't bite - Hey Remus ? You Ok ?"
He had just turned incredibly pale.
"Fine." He managed to choke out.
James gave him an odd look , and then went back to talking with Sirius.
"So what house do you want to be in ?"
'What are the houses ?" Came a new voice.
They all looked up . There was a girl standing in the doorway , her long red hair cascading down her back , her large green eyes wide and staring , innocently.
James goggled at her. She was beautiful. Remus glanced amusedly at them , and then stood up.
"Hi , I'm Remus. Lupin. This is Sirius , that's Peter , and that is James."
James realized what he was doing , and snapped out of it. He gave her a brief smile , and then turned back to Sirius , blushing tomato coloured.
"You really shouldn't James. That colour doesn't match you . Truly."
"Shut up Sirius." He mumbled.

"So Sirius Black is after me."
"Oh Harry ! That's horrible !"
"Well , I knew. I heard last night."
"Well , we get to go to Hogsmead this year ! Fizzing wizzbees ... fudge ! I can't wait to get my hands on some of that Honeydukes candy !"
"Well , I hear it's the only non muggle settlement."
"Yeah , that too , but think about it ! Won't it be amazing ?"
"Spect you'll have to tell me."
"WHAT ?!"
"The Dursleys wouldn't sign my form."
"But surely - McGonagall , somebody -"
Harry laughed.
"Not with Sirius Black after me."
"But Black wouldn't dare attack you with us there !"
Hermione spoke up .
'He murdered 13 people with one curse. You don't think he would care that we were there ?"

It's amazing where we end up sometimes. The 7 of us had been on top of the world. Now , 3 were dead , one a convicted murderer , one gone , one - who knew where , and me. The lone werewolf . Back to the place that had so many memories. Memories from a long time ago. Back to Hogwarts. Bits of the converstaion filtered in to my mind . He murdered thirteen people with one curse ... Sirius Black of course.

"So can we watch a movie , Moony ?"
"Sure ? Which one ?"
Sirius examined the pile.
"You seem to have a wide array of muggle disney movies. Fan ?"
'Well , their happy endings inspire me."
"What do you mean ?"
'Well , no ones life actually turn out like that. It's amusing."
"Our's are like that."
'Really ? Maybe you haven't worked some things in. Voldemort ? Sarah ? Malfoy ?"
"Mere trifles."
"Sarah wasn't a mere trifle."
"That was a long time ago Re. Let go."
"I can't..."

Sirius Black. Most notorious murderer. Most infamous prisoner in Azkaban. My former best friend ...

"Well , is this one OK ?"
"Grease ? It'll do."
"Why ? What's so bad about it ? You sound disgusted."
"Nothing . Sandy , proclaiming her love for bitch-boy Danny. You know how much that means to me."
"Yeah ! Me too !" He wasn't being sarcastic.
They were wrapped up in the tale , when ...
"Oh MY GOD ! I have to go !"
'Why ?"
"I promised Lily and James I would help get Harry ready for Halloween ! And I still have to check on Petie."
"Petie ? Well , anyway , see you tomorrow."
"Yeah ! I'll have the whole stash of Lily and James' candy by then."
"I'm sure."
"I will. Any way . See you later !"
'Bye !"

Well , Sirius , I can't say I was expecting the Front Line of the paper the next day. Sirius Black- Murderer. I nearly fainted in shock. I could hit myself right now. I had agreed to get over it. Told myself that it was in the past , that there was nothing I could do. But it isn't working. It never did.

"Sirius Black ! 3rd marks over all ! Wow ! I would never have expected that !"
James pretended to faint in shock .
"Sirius ! You said you never study !"
"I didn't !"
"Sure you didn't sure sure."
"I didn't !"
'What's so wrong with studying ?"
"Lily , studying is for Losers."
"Am I a loser ?"
"Yes."
"Excuse me ?!"
"Just joking. But you are a -"
"I'm a what , Black ?"
"Never mind." Seeing the glaring look in his eyes.
She all of a sudden threw her arms around him , and gave him ahug.
"Oh , I'm going to miss you so much !"

Oh , those were the days.

"What !?"
Everything had gone all black.
"No - "
"Don't sit here ! I'm here !'
"Geroff !"
"No -"
Then something appeared in the door way. A demementor.

Remus dream's all of a sudden took on a new presence. They swirled in his mind , he was unable to focus on one thing. Something was happening.

"No ! Take Harry and run ! Now"

'You will serve a life sentence in Azakaban"

"Lily and James are dead , Remus. I am so sorry."

"I have to leave ! I'm sorry , but I can't deal with this anymore !"

"You stupid , mangy , retard ! It wasn't your fault ! Get over it ! Get over it , ot I'll , I'll leave. I swear to God I will."

They swirled around in his mind , then all of a sudden , he jerked awake. There was a Dementor standing in the doorway. Harry was on the floor twitching .

"Go . Leave."
It didn't so anything.
"None of us are hiding Sirius Black under our cloaks."
"Expecto Patronum..." He hissed , and the Dementor turned and glided away.
He stepped over Harry , and walked out the door , into the hallway.

My God , it's happening all over again...