Inhibition




No

Please don't look at me with those hauntingly
familiar eyes. Eyes that beckon me to lose myself
into their violet depths. Those mesmerizing orbs
that bespoke of intense passion that lies
underneath your cool façade. Pools of pain that
bespoke of the grief you went through when you
thought I was dead. Grief that I do not deserve.

No.

Don't tempt me with that luscious mouth. Lips
that were practically begging to be kissed. Those
full red lips that still hold the innocence you
possess. I've always wondered what they taste
like. But I wouldn't oblige my body's plea; I will
never dare to.

No.

Do not bewitch me with that lily-white skin. Skin
that I had scarcely touched and fantasized about. I
imagine that they are soft and supple and as
smooth as satin to my roughened hands.

No.

Stop weaving a spell around me with the glossy
tresses in your head. Locks not of ebony but of
glorious oak. Silky strands that flows like a
waterfall upon your back sinuous and flowing.
Lovely waves that add more to your exquisite
beauty.

No.

Do not caress me with your innocence for I fear I
might fall for you hard. I've tried my best to
distance myself from you for you do not deserve
to have a killer as your lover. I can't just risk your
life and mine is full of danger and peril. Yes, your
very presence elates me and brings me to the
highest peaks of joy. Such beauty, both of face
and spirit, is undeserved by this unworthy one.

No.

There's no use denying it anymore. I've already
fallen for you. I love everything about you. Your
mesmerizing eyes, sensuous lips, beautiful skin,
your glossy hair and your touching innocence. I
also love your stubbornness, strange as it may be.
And like any besotted fool, my sleep is plagued
with dreams of you. My interludes with you at
night ends and my yearning in vain when I wake
up and recall a simple fact, you're not for me, I'm
not for you.

There, I have already said what I wanted to say…
and Sakura? Sweet dreams, hope I'm even in one
of them


Yours,

Ran Fujimiya
April 9, 2000