She watched him shake his head, wanting to apparently clear his
mind. She couldn't believe that she was watching this
watching him! Her heart screamed for her to stop it right
now but her mind told her to continue.
She heard herself gasp, knowing deep inside her that her
suspicions were right all along. God, she hated being right
sometimes.
"There. I said it. I admit it I'm in love
with my best friend. With the girl that I practically learned to
crawl with Lizzie McGuire."
Was it jealousy that stirred within her at his own true
admittance or was it something more? She knew the truth
since the first time she saw them together but was it only
now that she actually felt the truth?
He scoffed, then began a low chuckle. Looking intently into the
camera, as if he were actually looking at her and right into
her, "Love it's a funny thing, isn't it?
I mean, is it even possible to fall in love when you haven't
really begun to live? I'm only thirteen years old I
haven't even started my high school career, and yet
yet I'm declaring my love for another human
being!"
She couldn't take her eyes off him, not wanting to stop
listening to him proclaim his affections for someone she could
barely stand. Why was this killing her?
He stopped, then considered his next words. Looking back up at
the camera, "Kate Sanders"
Kate stopped cold. She stood up in her seat, preparing herself
emotionally to stand tall despite any pain he might inflict with
his next words.
He let out a small sigh, allowing a shy, even wistful smile
escape his lips. "I used to have a crush on
Kate"
She felt her heart give a small flutter, letting herself grin the
most stupidest grin ever.
"Kate she was no Lizzie, but Kate was
Kate." He paused, a sad, pensive sigh escaping. "Once
upon a time, Kate was beautiful both inside and out. Don't
get me wrong, she still is hot beautiful most
definitely but not like before. I used to be able to look
into her eyes and see an angel. Now I see in her eyes
it's as if the old Kate died or at least gone into
deep hiding."
Something inside of her threatened to break out. She could feel
her body start to shake with tearful regret?
"I miss that Kate. So does Lizzie and Miranda. I can see
it in their eyes oh, yeah, sure it's mixed in with
jealousy and hurt anger but they miss her. And if you look
deep enough, you can also see regret in Kate's eyes as
well"
Kate fought the urge to turn the tape off until the very end. A
part of her refused to hear anymore, while another needed
to hear his words.
"But I'm not here to talk about Kate just
Lizzie. The Lizzie that I can't stop thinking about.
Can't stop wanting to be with 24/7. Can't
stop" His grin grew wider, as if he was already
seeing her face in his mind. "Can't stop smiling
over every single time I think of her"
Kate snapped out of her trance, her head snapping to the source
of that irritating sound. She quickly stopped and shut off the
video, then darted for the phone.
"Hello?" Kate forced herself to sound normal, not
wanting anyone to suspect that her heart was breaking.
"Kate? It's me, Claire."
Sounding cheerful, "Hey, Claire."
"Listen, my mom's taking me to the mall after my
appointment. You want to come with us? My mom can swing by your
place after."
Kate nodded, then remembered that she was talking on the phone.
Still feigning cheerfulness, "Uh sure! That's
sounds awesome. Let me just call my mom and let her know,
okay?"
"We'll drop by at around four, that's okay with
you?"
"Of course!" Kate then mentally slapped herself,
knowing that she sounded too cheerful this time. "I
mean, whatever. Sure. See you at four. Bye, Claire."
"Bye Kate."
Kate placed down the phone gingerly. She glanced back at the
blank screen, just staring at the reflection. Silently, "Bye
Kate."
