Standard warning Gundam belongs to Gundam and any scene or plot similarity to another person's story, movie or anime is purely coincidental. If Duo and Relena pairing bothers you then you may want to skip this. If you dislike Relena you will want to please for everyone's sake find an alternative story.Is this improbable of course but then like huge mobile suit battles aren't.

Somewhere Out There
By Amber



Thunder sounded like a MS battle across the sky as the heavens opened and the rain poured from above she didn't know how long she stood there mesmerized by natures display but the lightening was coming more frequently now and with it her anxiousness.. her excitement increased keeping pace with the storm.

Relena leaned closer it was almost to much to bear a part of her yearned to be out there within she envied the ease with which nature released her fury or sorrow even happiness upon earth's children. She leaned her head against the cool glass shutting out what she yearned for with such intensity that she feared one day suddenly breaking. Her greatest fear that she would snap and stand during the 101 endless meetings she had to attend and scream what she really thought about their pettiness and inhumanity to their fellow man.

Her eyes snapped open as thunder shook the house and lightening slammed into the ground right before her eyes.Nature it seemed shared her mood this night. She stepped back. Then took another, and then another until she felt the reassuring presence of her desk against her back as she leaned against it. Relena sighed it sounded loud within the confines of the room in light of what was happening outside. Or maybe it was because with just herself it reemphasized her loneliness that much more. Her eyes slid hesitantly toward her computer terminal. She needed sleep.

Her days began early and stretched endlessly into her nights and most of the time she was more familiar with the unyielding surface of her desk than she was the silken smoothness her sheets. Relena closed her eyes against the silent temptation of the computer what she did was dangerous in its addiction. Reckless in it's misinterpretation should what she was doing get out. Her eyes snapped open. As necessary as breathing. Her anonymous rebellion kept her going when the isolation and limitations placed on her seemed determined to sap her spirit and willingness to go on.

She moved slowly equal parts reluctant and excited almost giddy now that she had resolved the internal debate on whether or not to give in once more. Relena sat turning on the computer she wasn't worried about being traced having a brother that took paranoid to an all-new level guaranteed that. Once he realized she would need a terminal at the house he made sure her privacy was insured and if that wasn't enough Heero went over and over the arrangements making sure she was just another anonymous untraceable anomaly in the vastness of the internets. Of course when they did it she doubted seriously they intended her to use it for this.

The light of the computer created an eerie glow as it booted up and went through the familiar hum already hungry talons of loneliness were pulling back easing in intensity. Scooting closer she logged in.



He had been lying there for about thirty minutes now he really should get up and shower. Stretching til he felt it to the balls of his feet he gave a bone cracking yawn before he interlocked fingers and placed his hands behind his head the shifting lights dancing across the ceiling from the traffic outsides distracted his body from the tiny little aches and pains and thousand and one annoyances he dealt with through out the day plus it occupied his mind and helped him hide from the truth just a little bit longer.

He was bored here he had been hiding from it for a while now trying to force himself back into a niche he had dreamed of and craved all those years while he was fighting. The truth. The truth was what once kept him sane gave him happiness no longer he wasn't a 15 year old satisfied with this as his life and the reality of that truth saddened him.

The subtle ding distracted him from his thoughts and the dulcet tones of his laptop drug him upward out of his depression. Phantome is online:

He had tried this out as a gag following his friend into a chat program to see what she was doing so he could have plenty of material to tease her about later and just as he expected it was mostly cyberjunkies and deadheads trying to get themselves some cyber sex. Well except one. Phantome seemed to be one of those lurker types sitting back watching and listening kind of like himself. So basically the two of them, god he felt so old when did that happen?

If pressed he couldn't have told you what got into him that night he ended up talking to one of the dozen of anonymous users. He IM'd them privately. Something about the way he/she/it talked told him Phantome was a girl. He felt a surge of excitement and adrenaline the likes he had only felt before each and every time he and Deathscythe had suited up and soared into battle. He smirked and wondered why he compared this to a battle. Finding Phantome was probably going to be one huge disappointment instead of a tall leggy blonde or brunette with eyes like two deep bottomless wells she'd be some eighty year old babe with varicose veins and blue hair.

He stood moving to his desk and scooted closer he grinned he couldn't believe he was getting this excited about a chat with a faceless voice in the night. Hell not even a voice. He highlighted the name and IM'd them.

"Hey Phantome you came back... hows it going?"

"Phoenix.. I'm better now.. It was a long day and I'm tired."

*bg* then why are U still awake?"

"I can't sleep."

"Yeah I've been there. So tired your body is screaming for sleep but someone forgot to tell your mind."

"What do you do then to make yourself sleep?"

"Ahh I don't think my method would work for U..."

"? how do you know ?"

"U drink?"

"Well not really Champagne every now and then mostly special occasions."

"O hoo hooh .."

"What?"

"Too rich for my blood."

"What do you do?"

....

"Phoenix you there?"

"I'm here."

"I'm sorry that was rude."

"No its cool you just surprised me. I thought U wanted it to stay impersonal. What do U do? Hell are U even legal?"

Relena laughed out loud at the irony when your Relena Darlian age doesn't seem to be a hindrance. She glanced guiltily around the room her eyes lifted to the swaying trees beyond the window before returning to her monitor. As usual no one but her and the silence for company her secret was safe.

"Legal? O am I of age? Yes I'm legally considered an adult. I.. guess you could say I'm many things to many people but bluntly speaking I baby sit." She smirked remembering the old hardliners she had handheld today for four solid hours.


"Hey that's a good thing not enough people out there looking after the rug rats as it is."

She felt horrible she should just tell Phoenix who she was. But then it would begin he or she would start treating her different and for awhile longer she wanted to enjoy being another nameless faceless being.

"What about you?"

"Hmm not as exciting as your job I bet. I was a pilot."

"Were you in the wars?"

"I saw some action..." Duo snorted now that's an understatement.

"I'm sorry."

"Why? It's not your fault all of us suffered one way or another."

"I know still it hurts all those families who lost loved ones, all those soldiers their lives irrevocably changed by the horrors of war. It makes me sad."

*Sigh* "U remind me of a friend of mine. She's always bleeding for every soul she meets, always trying to save the world."

"She?" Relena smiled sadly not the world just one soul the one that meant the most but I can't he has to save himself.

"Yeah she's a big softie."

"Your girlfriend?"

*bg* "naw but she is special, one of a kind really. Hey! How did you know I was a male?"

"LOL I didn't it was a lucky guess."

*g* "you got me now that we're old friends and you know I'm not a psycho you can tell me are you a girl?"

"Does it matter?"

"Truth?"

"Of course."

"Yeah I don't know why but it does."

"Relax I am female."

"Ha I knew it."

"Umm hmm you knew it alright that's why you asked eh?"

"Now just tell me you're a tall leggy blonde or a brunette and I'm in love."

.....

"Hey Phantome! U there? Hey I was just kiddin ya."

"Sorry you're doomed for disappointment I'm afraid. I'm a shrimp."

He grinned good he hadn't scared her off this was turning out to be more fun than he thought.

"Yeah? Damn.. o well tell me are you're a blonde or a brunette?"

"I have to go Phoenix.."

He frowned disappointed.

"U sure?"

"I'm afraid so..whats that old saying. I have miles to go before I sleep. Actually the storms gotten worse the generator kicked in but they'll be looking for me."

"Storm hmm? Your on Earth.. Ok well I'm a little closer than I was before this was alright we'll have to do this again. I don't suppose you would tell me your name."

.....

"I didn't think so.."

"Will you be online tomorrow?"

"I'll try.. goodnight"

"Phantome!"

?

"I mean it....This was nice I hope we can talk again."

"Sweet Dreams Phoenix"








this is off the cuff spelling errors and punctuation errors too probably so my apologies.