Don't
Look Back.
DISCLAIMER IN PART 1. I OWN NOBODY. TO DO WITH THE SGC
Sam.
So I have been taken by Apothis, and he is calling me his
love. I hope, that the guys get me out of here soon, because I don't know how
much longer I can stay here. He hasn't even tortured me for information yet, so
I am beginning to worry about what he has in store for me. I am supposed to be
eating with him. Well I'll be eating he'll be sat there discussing things with
his Jaffa. The same as it has been for the past two weeks.
Jack.
We were given permission to go rescue Sam. An hour after
she didn't come back through the gate with the rest of us. But there where no
signs of her, the only things we saw were drag marks and her dog tags just
outside of the circle marks. Which means that there where transporter rings.
From what I saw of the Jaffa I believe that it was Apothis, but I can't be sure
of that. Why would they take Sam? I miss her. I am sat here in my home because
it has been two weeks since we last saw here. We are on downtime time to try
and recover form this. In my opinion they are all fucking mental. How can we
recover from the loss of Sam? She was, is. She not dead she can't be. She is a
friend and someone who is warm hearted and you can't help be have feelings for
her, I do, Daniel does and Teal'C but he doesn't show his softer side. Not that
I can imagine, the softer side of Teal'C. Dad, well Sam's dad has said that he
doesn't think we will ever find here again. I hope we do I can't go out on
missions and kick gau'uld ass if she isn't there with here techno babble and
weird but wonderful ways of getting us out of tight spots and with the team,
with me by my side. Daniel has gone into depression. Teal'C well you know
Teal'C he is the same as always but I know he is hurting inside. I mean this is
killing me, because I care for her a lot more then I am supposed to but I have
to be normal, the Colonel O'Neal who is morning the loss of a team member and
not the Jack O'Neal that is morning the loss of someone he loves. I love her. I
just wish I had the Balls, to say that out loud. Well, maybe not out loud to
everyone, but just to her, Samantha Carter.
Jacob Carter.
Two weeks; and no sign that she is alive. In a week she
will be claimed as MIA, and a service will be done to commemorate her life at
the SGC and to say a few things about the type of person she was. This is hard
for me, we never saw eye to eye when she was younger, but we started to get
closer and these last few years, we have been closer than we have been since
her mother passed away. That sounds so strange, how we where closer then
before. Our worlds aren't even in the same system. Her team mates, friends. Are
missing her dearly. Daniel isn't copying at all, but Teal'C is ok though. But
Jack, god I love the boy like a son. He is definitely a soldier because he is
putting up a brave front, George and I have both seen the connection that Sam
and Jack have. Anise informed me about the zatark situation. But I already knew
they felt something for one another. I hope he will be ok. He is blaming
himself. He hasn't seen me and I have been here just over a week. He must think
I blame him for not protecting my baby girl. I don't and I couldn't she is
everything to me. Yes! But to him she literally lights up his eyes, when she is
around. George, Janet and Daniel have all said that since it happened he has
closed off to his friends, and his eyes are hooded like he is on drugs. But
they say love is a drug and he is now in withdrawal. If Sam is alive, I hope
she is not being hurt. I hope her love for Jack is keeping her sane.
Jack.
I want to die. Now wait
that is stupid, I want her back I have to find her. Maybe if I stay on missions
then I'll find a clue to where she is and save her Then the SGC and the
military can go to Natu, because nothing will keep me from being with her
again, unless she doesn't want me because I didn't stop want must be happening
to her. 'Sam please hold on, be strong and don't give up. You came for me when
was on Endora and I will not give up until I have you in my arms. I promise.'
"I promise Sam" with that, said exhaustion, claims jack and he sleeps on his
sofa, with all his dreams and hopes surrounding his thoughts and mind, that he
will find her and she will be his.
Sam.
Oh god, oh god, oh god.
Dinner is over and I know what he wants, and why I am being treated well. He
wants me. He wants me to give him a harceeus child, he wants me to give birth
to his child. I cant and I wont I… I need to leave, I hope Jack comes soon. If
I have children, I want them to be Jacks or someone's I love, all my dreams of
children have been with Jack being the father, not a snakes. He doesn't want to
turn me, like he did with Daniel's wife, Shauria, but he wants me, me me, the
Sam carter me, to give him a child a harceeus child, and then he will have a
hold over me, because I could not leave my blood, with him to corrupt. I would
rather eat a bullet, than have a child to him.
Daniel.
I miss Sam, I miss her. My
friend and someone I could talk to and a woman who was like a sister to me and
I can't get her back. I close my eyes and I see her and then I imagine what
they are doing to her, then I see Shauria and what happened to her. I lost one
woman to him I won't do it again; I will get her back I have to.
Opinions pleeeeeaaaaaasse.
