Don't Look Back.
DISCLAIMER IN PART 1.
Jack.
"So Cassie how you been doing" Jack decided the hour and a half trip needed to have some small talk. Daniel wants Cassie to be OK. She isn't herself usually she won't shut up. She still isn't talking.
"Cassie"
"Sorry Uncle Jack. I was miles away."
"S'ok kiddo, you wanna talk."
"No I don't."
"OK OK, no need to snap ya know, just asking. Cass If it helps I miss her a lot as well." Jack why don't you talk first you dumb ass.
"She was a great person Cass and she loved……"
"Stop it will ya. Just stop."
"What Cass. What did I say? Please babe calm down, I don't understand remember, you and your mum are the smart ones you have to explain like Sam used to."
"That! OK that's is what I won't you to stop." Cassie try's to calm herself a little. "Why didn't you come to Aunt Sam's memorial service today."
Oh god Cass did you have to bring that up that's why I wanted to get out of here to forget that everyone is giving up on her. Well for one I can't say that can I?
" Cassie I didn't go because, because I couldn't say goodbye. I mean we don't know if she is alive or dead and I didn't want to give up on her. Not yet anyway."
That sounded OK didn't it? I hope so for her sake I don't want to upset her.
" You have given up on her Uncle Jack." Cassie replied calmly. It was Jacks turn to become hysterical.
"What. How the hell did you come up with that, that is ridiculous Cassandra and you know it."
Oh now I have done it, Uncle Jacks mad with me. I don't want him to be mad.
"Sorry Uncle Jack, it's just. I mean you."
"It's just what Cass" jack replied angrily
"Uncle Jack watch the road before we crash. I was going to say that you have given up, wait don't but in Uncle Jack and let me explain, remember I am smarter than you are. You are speaking like she is dead. She was, she did. They are words you used. They are all past tenses and you keep saying them. So you have given up. Maybe not in your heart, but your mind has given up on her."
"Oh God, Cass I didn't realise that I had done that. I am sorry. Now I understand how I upset you." How could I do that I know Sam isn't dead she can't be. You hear that brain I am not giving up on her and neither are you. Is that clear? Cassie brought Jack out of his thoughts.
" I am going to get some sleep, wake me up when we get there."
"Sure thing kiddo. You sleep and we will be there soon. G'night"
"Night"
Jack was lost in thoughts. One hour till I get there and I can forget that I am going back to work, that Hammond will assign a replacement and that Sam isn't going to be by my side any longer. Cassie is hurting, even though Janet has adopted her and become her mother; Sam was always the one Cassie turned to. Sam saved her. She was, no she is Cassie's saviour. She adores Cassie. She loves Cassie and she is great with her, to say she is a soldier and has no experience with kids except her niece and nephew. Jacob said he had told mark, her brother. Mark was angry and upset. I can't blame him. But he isn't talking to his dad again. Sam wouldn't want to be the rift that stopped her brother and dad talking again. Jacob said that is what he did after Sam's mum had died. Mark blamed the military and his dad for his mum's death and now he is doing the same thing, because he has lost his sister. He must be hurting a hell of a lot. Losing his mother because of the military, no matter how indirectly and now being told that the military has claimed his sister, no his baby sister must be killing him. Oh shit that was my turning. I will have to take the next one, even though it is 10 minutes out of the way.
We are here. I'll take the stuff in the wake Cassie she looks so peaceful in her sleep. OK all done time to get the kid out of the car.
"Cassie"
"Mmmmm"
She just shrugged and moved. I'll carry her in and put her in the spare room. Then I will watch the hockey game, which is due to start in a few minutes. Ha no phone but electricity is the way to live. I think I'll take Cassie fishing in the morning if she is up to it.
OK. Cassie is in bed the game is on and a cold beer. These where the last thoughts Jack had as his eyes drifted shut.
Cassie.
Oh my, where am I. Cassie was starting to panic. I am at Uncle Jacks; he must have put me to bed. It's a nice place, very Uncle Jack like. I wonder what he is doing. I go find out in a second but I need to fine the bathroom first.
Clean clothes now. I hope Uncle Jack doesn't want to talk about Sam I can't do that. I lost my mum, when the gua'uld destroyed my world. Now I have lost one of the most important people in my New World. She saved my life and then gave me to my mum. I love her and all ways will. OK time to find Uncle Jack.
Found him on his sofa, I'll find the kitchen and make him something to eat. He is hurting more then me, he loves Sam, and yes so do I, but he loves her differently like my real mum did with my dad.
"Morning Uncle Jack your up. Breakfast will be done in a few minutes why don't you take a shower or something while I finish in here."
"Sure thing Cassie and thank you for making breakfast for me."
"Don't worry about it, I had to make my self something anyway." Cassie replied sarcastically
"Haha young lady. Hey did, before I forget did you want to go fishing with me."
"No thanks. I have home work and stuff so I'll just do that, if that's OK?"
"Yeah its OK. All right I'll be down in a flash."
Jack.
God, the two weeks sure did go fast I just got to the base ready to go on the mission and since Janet was here I just dropped off her stuff and brought her with me. Mission in 2 hours. Let's see how it goes shall we.
6 months later.
Jack missions I guess are OK. I still miss Sam like hell. Today we are all sat in the briefing room wanting for our forth. Daniel and I have talked a lot on the missions, whilst Teal'C takes watch we both have come to turns Sam isn't here but Daniel has given up hope on finding her and I haven't that is our only difference really when it comes to the topic of Sam. OK here's the General.
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