Don't Look Back.
DISCLAIMER IN PART 1.
Sam.
Oh god, it has been just over 7 months. Apothis has now succeeded to, well to rape me. His Jaffa held me whilst, well you know. I have missed my period for the past 2 months, so I think that I maybe pregnant. I hope not, I don't think I could love the child with all my heart, because of how it was conceived and who its father is. I have to get out of here soon, because this hurts so much. Being away for my friends and family, and possibly being the mother of a child to apothis is killing me, I miss having Jack tell me to get a life, the chats with Janet about my non existent life and about Jack, baby-sitting Daniel and going out to the park with Cass and I miss Teal'C because, he acts so innocent, that it is sweet. He has told me that once a child is born, then I will learn to love him. He doesn't want to turn me, because he wants my knowledge of the tok'ra and from earth which might I add he will never get, besides he is afraid that as a gua'uld I may not have a harceeus child, and end up trying to over power him. But I will never love him. Never. Oh god. I hate being like this. I have nothing here to end my existence or anything. He was afraid I would try, so everything was removed. If this child comes and is harceeus I swear I will protect it, and get out of here if not then, before.
THREE YEARS LATER.
Jack.
3 years, 6 months, 3 weeks and 4 days. That is how long she has been missing. The team is still here. Danny Teal'C and me, oh yeah I forgot that we have also had LT Jane Loftman on the team for the last 3 years. I am no closer to finding Sam then I ever was. But I haven't given up hope. Cassie and I are the only two that haven't given up on her. I ain't planning on it not for as long as I live. I have had her stuff moved into my place, so that when I find her she can stay with me until she finds a place or indefinitely it will be her choice. I am still not ready to believe she is dead and my work has slipped slightly but not much. I will say that I have been a bit of a bastard to Loftman, but Hammond had me for that and told me not to blame her because Sam was gone. But I just couldn't help it. It has stopped now. I guess. Cassie and I are together a lot on SG1's down time because we understand each other. She has become a beautiful young lady. She even has a glint in her eyes, the Sam as Sam used to. It makes me feel good when I see it almost as if Sam is looking at me through Cassie's eyes. I still miss her and the ache in my heart has become more bearable over the years. But it well never, leave me until she is home again.
Daniel.
Jack is getting better, with the Jane. I really do miss Sam and I wish she were here, because in 7 months Janet Fraiser will become Janet Jackson. My, that's Michael's sister I wonder if she can sing as well. Ha. I never thought of that. I know Janet wishes Sam could be here for it because she wanted Sam to be the maid of honour. That would have been nice. Cassie still misses Sam a lot and she isn't ready to let go. She is with Jack I think that when they are together they somehow feel closer to Sam. Strange I know but comforting that they can both turn to each other for reassurance. I am having two best men. Jack and Teal'C and Janet is having Cass for her maid of honour. She didn't want anyone to take Sam place and because Sam and Cass were so close it seems right.
Teal'C.
My friends are most happy, although Oneal I am concerned about, has he has not yet let go of his loss for his companion in the fight against the gua'uld.
Sam.
Today is the day that I am leaving this planet. My son and me. I have led apothis to believe that I love him and wish to spend the rest of my days here. Hey sometimes lying is necessary for survival. I am allowed to go to the river for walks and my son sometimes accompanies me. So all I have to do is get him and gate to a safe world, that is if we are lucky. I think the planet is to far away to get to one of the worlds I have already been to with the team, so lets see where luck gets us. I will be going tonight. My son will be three soon. I his is amazing. He looks just like my brother. He is cute, clever and he even has a sense of humour. I am biased mind you, but I really don't care. I know that when I was pregnant that I thought I could give myself completely to him, I take it back I would die and kill for him. I love him with all my heart and he is a mummy's boy. I love it. I love being a mum. I just wish that he didn't have the father he does. But there is very little I can do about that.
"Mother"
"Hello Nathan. Are you ready to go to the river."
"Yes. I want to go swimming today. Will you show me?"
"Yes of course honey, let's go say bye to your father."
"OK"
"Apothis. Love I am taking Nathan to the river we won't be too long."
"Bye father."
I am glad Nathan isn't a daddy's boy because this would break his heart. But apothis is always trying to get him to do things, which a harceeus child can only do. Only Nathan won't do it because, I have asked him not to. Although he gets punished I have told hi that many people will be hurt if he does. OK here goes nothing Nathan and I are leaving to another world where I am not sure but this one has engaged here goes nothing.
Janet.
8 more missions then Daniel and I will be getting married I hope nothing happens. He always manages to get hurt. I swear Jack and Sam used to arrange something to happen to him. I miss her, Sam; I miss her now more than ever. Jack has told me he will keep an extra special eye on Daniel, but who will keep an eye on him.
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