This Feeling Inside
Author's Note: This is a story from Tristan's POV after the season finale.
When Rory showed up at the Chilton Formal with that guy, I thought I had reached my mental and physical
limit of pain.
I was wrong.
I mean, it was tugging at my heart to see her dancing, kissing Dean, her boyfriend. And all I did about it was
make out with the brainless, stupid slut Sissy.
When they broke up, I thought I had at least a tiny ray of hope. There had to be some chance for me. Especially
after we kissed.
Even though she started crying after that special event, I still think it was a milestone for us.
At this point, I also started getting confused. Why? Because Rory Gilmore is a very confusing person. She
kisses me, then decides to be just friends. She even hooks me up with Paris. After we established our "friendship". she also
started acting weird. She looked so desolate and alone. Rory didn't even pay attention in class!
I can understand how she turned me down for those P J Harvey tickets. I mean, we were never soulmates
in the beginning. Some urge inside of me made me tell everyone we were going together. I just wanted to feel wanted.
Then she got mad. I can understand that too. But Rory just doesn't seem like the kind of girl to break someone's
heart or do anything mean. But she did.
Even though I was standing in the doorway of the entrance of Chilton, while bunches of ignorant people yelled
to each other, I could still hear Rory shouting, "Because I love you, you idiot."
Back to my mental/physical limit of pain. They started making out. Right there in the quad of Chilton prep.
We had been arguing and I had hoped to grasp her and convince her to go to see P J Harvey. That didn't happen. I had
even taken her books hostage. But she forgot all about me as soon as she saw her ex-boyfriend. When I saw the
look on his face when he saw us together, I really, honestly wished I had a camera because I was feeling so good about
myself.
When they made up, that feeling was probably reversed. He probably would have killed for a camera. He was
preoccupied though. He didn't see my face.
He was kissing the only girl I wanted to be with. And it broke my heart.
I had even contemplated dating Paris for real just to make her jealous. But I know Rory wouldnt' be jealous.
She'd just be happy for Paris and happy Paris wasn't mad at her anymore so she could make it into her little newspaper.
Sometimes I'm jealous of Rory's perkiness. She's so happy and has a perfect life.
I don't. I live in constant fear of being rejected and disliked. Rory couldn't care less. She also couldn't
care less about my feelings.
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HELP ME PEEPS!! After my *ever-so-popular* "You Know You're Watching Too Much Gilmore Girls When...."
I believe I've ran dry on ideas... anyone care to help? I would prefer you contact me in email... because reviews are
more public. Thank you! I'll try to get a "real" fic like "Choices" out soon, instead of these measly little POV fics.
I promise!
Love,
glitter
Author's Note: This is a story from Tristan's POV after the season finale.
When Rory showed up at the Chilton Formal with that guy, I thought I had reached my mental and physical
limit of pain.
I was wrong.
I mean, it was tugging at my heart to see her dancing, kissing Dean, her boyfriend. And all I did about it was
make out with the brainless, stupid slut Sissy.
When they broke up, I thought I had at least a tiny ray of hope. There had to be some chance for me. Especially
after we kissed.
Even though she started crying after that special event, I still think it was a milestone for us.
At this point, I also started getting confused. Why? Because Rory Gilmore is a very confusing person. She
kisses me, then decides to be just friends. She even hooks me up with Paris. After we established our "friendship". she also
started acting weird. She looked so desolate and alone. Rory didn't even pay attention in class!
I can understand how she turned me down for those P J Harvey tickets. I mean, we were never soulmates
in the beginning. Some urge inside of me made me tell everyone we were going together. I just wanted to feel wanted.
Then she got mad. I can understand that too. But Rory just doesn't seem like the kind of girl to break someone's
heart or do anything mean. But she did.
Even though I was standing in the doorway of the entrance of Chilton, while bunches of ignorant people yelled
to each other, I could still hear Rory shouting, "Because I love you, you idiot."
Back to my mental/physical limit of pain. They started making out. Right there in the quad of Chilton prep.
We had been arguing and I had hoped to grasp her and convince her to go to see P J Harvey. That didn't happen. I had
even taken her books hostage. But she forgot all about me as soon as she saw her ex-boyfriend. When I saw the
look on his face when he saw us together, I really, honestly wished I had a camera because I was feeling so good about
myself.
When they made up, that feeling was probably reversed. He probably would have killed for a camera. He was
preoccupied though. He didn't see my face.
He was kissing the only girl I wanted to be with. And it broke my heart.
I had even contemplated dating Paris for real just to make her jealous. But I know Rory wouldnt' be jealous.
She'd just be happy for Paris and happy Paris wasn't mad at her anymore so she could make it into her little newspaper.
Sometimes I'm jealous of Rory's perkiness. She's so happy and has a perfect life.
I don't. I live in constant fear of being rejected and disliked. Rory couldn't care less. She also couldn't
care less about my feelings.
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HELP ME PEEPS!! After my *ever-so-popular* "You Know You're Watching Too Much Gilmore Girls When...."
I believe I've ran dry on ideas... anyone care to help? I would prefer you contact me in email... because reviews are
more public. Thank you! I'll try to get a "real" fic like "Choices" out soon, instead of these measly little POV fics.
I promise!
Love,
glitter
