Ashitaka Alone
Ashitaka didn't want to know what he had just seen. But he did. San had become a wolf... an animal and he was a human. His legs slowly crumpled as the world seemed to fall away from him and all he could do was just watch as San's back disappeared into the forest, slipping away just as scared as he was.
For a long time Ashitaka just sat there on his knees, the morning sounds of the rebuilding of Irontown behind him and the ominous silence of the decaying forest in front of him. His eyes were blank with pain and he wasn't looking at anything, although his eyes were open. When he did stare, it was at the forest. He wanted so badly to go in there, to find San and take the wolf in his arms and tell her all the things he would have said if anyone would listen. But he knew he shouldn't, he couldn't. He was alone now, no one to trust but his elk who he knew so deeply that they didn't need words. After the morning clouds had floated by and the sun was beginning to rise above his head, Ashitaka slowly stood on his feet and shook the weariness out of his limbs. He had lived a life of lonely homelessness before he had come to Irontown and met San and he would be forced to do it again. He tied his large hood underneath his neck and unfurled his long cape with flowed gracefully in the wind. Ashitaka didn't know where he would go, he didn't care, just as long as it was away from here. He was officially dead in the village which was his home, he had cut his hair and given up his princehood. The forest was decaying and the citizens of Irontown were more animals than humans, filled with a strange lust and greed and rowdiness which Ashitaka would never trust. San was on her own now, too, he presumed, she had the wild land to take care of and her brothers to help her. Ashitaka felt that he had nothing to take care of - everything he had helped or nurtured had already died or passed on or served its purpose. This was a new age and Ashitaka felt he should have left with the last one.
He turned back towards the ruined forest, gazing one last time at the land he would leave and maybe never come back to. He remembered every fern, every flower, of that forest like it was his own. But it had changed now, there were weird scents and sounds exuding from its depths. Everything had changed, even "San..." Ashitaka breathed her name one last time and narrowed his eyes with the pain of his breaking heart. With that final thought he turned his back on the forest, turning towards Irontown and, beyond that, the open road. An open life.
Author's Note
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Hey, how are you liking the story so far? I hope it hasn't terribly confused you yet and that you've found the chapters so far pretty cool, or at least a little entertaining. This is my first fanfic ever, so if you don't like it, I might get better. Then again, I might not. No, I'm not done with this one yet, there'll still be much more of this story before it's through. However, PLEASE REVIEW ME! Even flames are cool, because I always have room to improve. If you're timid about reviews or have something else to tell me (anything at all) email me at Sparky5906@aol.com. Thanks!
Ashitaka didn't want to know what he had just seen. But he did. San had become a wolf... an animal and he was a human. His legs slowly crumpled as the world seemed to fall away from him and all he could do was just watch as San's back disappeared into the forest, slipping away just as scared as he was.
For a long time Ashitaka just sat there on his knees, the morning sounds of the rebuilding of Irontown behind him and the ominous silence of the decaying forest in front of him. His eyes were blank with pain and he wasn't looking at anything, although his eyes were open. When he did stare, it was at the forest. He wanted so badly to go in there, to find San and take the wolf in his arms and tell her all the things he would have said if anyone would listen. But he knew he shouldn't, he couldn't. He was alone now, no one to trust but his elk who he knew so deeply that they didn't need words. After the morning clouds had floated by and the sun was beginning to rise above his head, Ashitaka slowly stood on his feet and shook the weariness out of his limbs. He had lived a life of lonely homelessness before he had come to Irontown and met San and he would be forced to do it again. He tied his large hood underneath his neck and unfurled his long cape with flowed gracefully in the wind. Ashitaka didn't know where he would go, he didn't care, just as long as it was away from here. He was officially dead in the village which was his home, he had cut his hair and given up his princehood. The forest was decaying and the citizens of Irontown were more animals than humans, filled with a strange lust and greed and rowdiness which Ashitaka would never trust. San was on her own now, too, he presumed, she had the wild land to take care of and her brothers to help her. Ashitaka felt that he had nothing to take care of - everything he had helped or nurtured had already died or passed on or served its purpose. This was a new age and Ashitaka felt he should have left with the last one.
He turned back towards the ruined forest, gazing one last time at the land he would leave and maybe never come back to. He remembered every fern, every flower, of that forest like it was his own. But it had changed now, there were weird scents and sounds exuding from its depths. Everything had changed, even "San..." Ashitaka breathed her name one last time and narrowed his eyes with the pain of his breaking heart. With that final thought he turned his back on the forest, turning towards Irontown and, beyond that, the open road. An open life.
Author's Note
***********************************************
Hey, how are you liking the story so far? I hope it hasn't terribly confused you yet and that you've found the chapters so far pretty cool, or at least a little entertaining. This is my first fanfic ever, so if you don't like it, I might get better. Then again, I might not. No, I'm not done with this one yet, there'll still be much more of this story before it's through. However, PLEASE REVIEW ME! Even flames are cool, because I always have room to improve. If you're timid about reviews or have something else to tell me (anything at all) email me at Sparky5906@aol.com. Thanks!
