I closed my eyes
I realized my pain, humiliation, and lies
As I looked out at the ocean
In my hand consists a bottle of a poisonous potion
I stood there upon the cliff
As I wished that all my sins could be lifted
I went straight home, straight to my death bed
It's all gone, the pain and sorrows from in my head
Before they'll find me I'm sure to be dead
I'm certain that I'll feel no fear
Dying is an adventure and that's why I'm here
I feel like this is a dream, And that I'm about to wake
But I know it's not, because I feel my mind about to break
I grabbed the bottle, ripped off it's lid
I never dreamed I'd do this, still being a kid
Then I thought of Pan, and she made me forget
That the wrong that we both did, was my biggest regret
I know this will destroy her
But I must do this so...........
Now I'll stop me from thy weep
So that I shall forever sleep
I've been bad, and I must pay
For I may live until today
I know that tomorrow, I won't wake
So Please, Oh Lord, have my soul to take
The liquid in the bottle
I swallowed
I felt it travel through my veins
And now I forgot all my pains
I'm glad I'm doing this, I'm already Insane
I hope dear Pan shall not complain
I made my pose
As my eyes started to close
I could hear my heartbeat get slower and slower
And then, the glass bottle hit the floor......
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Her death hit me right down to the core
Why did she let this happen?
How come I wasn't there?
Was all her pain completely too much for her to bare?
Why couldn't she see
That she could've trusted in me
I could've leaded her into the light
And I could've gave her a stronger might
But she's gone already
And these thoughts are just petty
So who is to blame
Well, she wasn't the same
After her family forgotten she was there
So it's them I should blame
For this whole thing would never
Have happened if her family wasn't so busy
She never would have done her sinning
If her family was there for her from the beginning
Didn't they noticed that she slipped into depression?
Didn't they noticed her fury and aggression?
Couldn't they see, what she held in front of their eyes?
Couldn't they see all her pain behind her lies?
Well, I did
I found the lid
The lid to the jar she built herself in
She did this to herself all because of that sin
I was the only one that she could lean on
I was the only one that stood by her side
Through the thickening and through the thinning
I was there for her from the beginning
So I shall be there for her once again
Stand by her, and let her lean on me like a true friend
So I ran to that cliff
I looked out at the sea
I now know that this must be my destiny
I then jumped off
The rocks coming nearer is what I saw
Hold on, Wait for me, I'm coming Bra.........
Well how'd you like it. Please go easy on me. R/R
