Facing Life
(With Those Two)
By *Sellene*
Disclaimer: Ideas and
characters, etc. belong to J.K. Rowling, not me.
Azkaban
I wonder what its like
I wonder if they take
visitors
oh, how I would love to
visit
Azkaban
look into the cells
see the people
in them
who are probably
just as confused and tired
as I am
right now
People say it's a horrible
place
people say it's for
murderers
people say it's for evil
people
but I don't believe that
I know someone
in one of those cells
I know someone
in Azkaban
someone I once loved
supposedly
who killed his best friends
they never gave him a trial
only based it on their
"information"
where they had gotten it
was unknown
people say I'm just angry
people say I blame them
because I don't understand
how he could do such a thing
and I don't
I don't
none of that is true
I don't blame them
for what they did to him
and I don't blame him
for their murders
for my best friend's murders
at least
I don't think I blame him
I loved him
how can you blame someone
you love
maybe its possible
maybe its not
I'm not sure
I'm just someone
in this world
someone
who's
very confused
about the world
very confused
about people
very confused
about her surroundings
should this have happened?
will I ever know?
if only I had divination
powers
if only
but I don't
so I will continue
to be confused
continue
to be one person
out of the whole entire
world
who is confused
about friendship
and love
and betrayal
and trust
because they've all happened
during my lifetime
and they all will continue
to happen
during my lifetime
oh, but now
how I wish
I wasn't me
oh, how I wish
for just one happy day
like the old times
when I was younger
I wish I could be
as carefree as I was
back then
back then
when the day passed too
quickly
and I was always smiling
always busy
always laughing
it isn't like that now
life has changed
the day seems longer
it seems to take years
until it ends
and I can sleep
in complete darkness
I don't smile as much
as I use to
there isn't that much
worth smiling about anymore
most of my friends are dead
one's in prison
and other I've lost touch
with
besides that they're all
dead
every single one of them
except for two
except for two
Those two
who I live for now
since nothing seems worth
living for
Those
two
who's names put me into
utter sadness
because they are reminders
of the past
and of deaths
that never should have
happened
Those two
who are now
all I have
in my
little, measly
life
my
long
sad
and unsatisfactory
life
which I could have done
so much more with
my life
only exists now for
Those two
Those two
who's names can bring
utter sadness
or
utter happiness
its hard to tell
since they mean
so much to me
they mean the world
to me
they may be
only two people
to the rest of the world
but to me
they are the world
they are my reason for
existence
I
don't know why though
we never were particularly
close
but now
they're all I have
all I have
in my life
and so
they mean
the world to me
even if one is in
Azkaban
and even if I haven't
seen one in years
Those two
still mean
the world to me
they still are
my life
my reason
for existence
because
I love them
as I love all
my friends
all my friends
dead and gone
except for them
they are still here
with me
and I love them for it
life is easier to live
when others are there
facing it with you
facing the challenges
and the heartbreaks
facing the tears
and the laughs
facing the betrayal
and the trust
facing life