Azkaban

Facing Life

(With Those Two)

By *Sellene*

Disclaimer: Ideas and characters, etc. belong to J.K. Rowling, not me.

Azkaban

I wonder what its like

I wonder if they take visitors

oh, how I would love to visit

Azkaban

look into the cells

see the people

in them

who are probably

just as confused and tired

as I am

right now

People say it's a horrible place

people say it's for murderers

people say it's for evil people

but I don't believe that

I know someone

in one of those cells

I know someone

in Azkaban

someone I once loved

supposedly

who killed his best friends

they never gave him a trial

only based it on their

"information"

where they had gotten it

was unknown

people say I'm just angry

people say I blame them

because I don't understand

how he could do such a thing

and I don't

I don't

none of that is true

I don't blame them

for what they did to him

and I don't blame him

for their murders

for my best friend's murders

at least

I don't think I blame him

I loved him

how can you blame someone

you love

maybe its possible

maybe its not

I'm not sure

I'm just someone

in this world

someone

who's

very confused

about the world

very confused

about people

very confused

about her surroundings

should this have happened?

will I ever know?

if only I had divination powers

if only

but I don't

so I will continue

to be confused

continue

to be one person

out of the whole entire world

who is confused

about friendship

and love

and betrayal

and trust

because they've all happened

during my lifetime

and they all will continue to happen

during my lifetime

oh, but now

how I wish

I wasn't me

oh, how I wish

for just one happy day

like the old times

when I was younger

I wish I could be

as carefree as I was

back then

back then

when the day passed too quickly

and I was always smiling

always busy

always laughing

it isn't like that now

life has changed

the day seems longer

it seems to take years

until it ends

and I can sleep

in complete darkness

I don't smile as much

as I use to

there isn't that much

worth smiling about anymore

most of my friends are dead

one's in prison

and other I've lost touch with

besides that they're all dead

every single one of them

except for two

except for two

Those two

who I live for now

since nothing seems worth living for

Those two

who's names put me into utter sadness

because they are reminders

of the past

and of deaths

that never should have happened

Those two

who are now

all I have

in my

little, measly

life

my

long

sad

and unsatisfactory

life

which I could have done

so much more with

my life

only exists now for

Those two

Those two

who's names can bring

utter sadness

or

utter happiness

its hard to tell

since they mean

so much to me

they mean the world

to me

they may be

only two people

to the rest of the world

but to me

they are the world

they are my reason for existence

I don't know why though

we never were particularly close

but now

they're all I have

all I have

in my life

and so

they mean

the world to me

even if one is in

Azkaban

and even if I haven't

seen one in years

Those two

still mean

the world to me

they still are

my life

my reason

for existence

because

I love them

as I love all

my friends

all my friends

dead and gone

except for them

they are still here

with me

and I love them for it

life is easier to live

when others are there

facing it with you

facing the challenges

and the heartbreaks

facing the tears

and the laughs

facing the betrayal

and the trust

facing life